Could Anyone help me find a plae to grow and live.

Ya, Thx Del. That was super cool of you.
I would never really expect anyone to help even as much as you offered to. And the seed and clone offers are greatly apprertiated.
Garden KNome you are so right. This aint shit compared to the crap I've survived. So it's all good.
Besides I'm getting a loan to cover my expenses for about 4 months.
Then I'll be fine after that.
I'll be able to start my bussness from home. And really get rolling.
Even considering selling some shit on ebay to make some cash.
You guys realize how much money is to be made from your own home. With the computer!

Jdog, you're gonna be OK, you are evidently intelligent enough to pull off whatever you set your mind to ... I have a nephew who has a good job, but he and his wife play on eBay in their spare time, and earn a few hundred dollars a month, selling basically worthless garage-sale type junk ... I tried it, and lost my ass due to not researching the shipping costs enough ... :D ... story of my life, I can GROW green, but not EARN green ... :smokin:

Sounds alot like myself brother. thx for the support everyone.
Things are looking better!