As I cuddle up to my insomnia...

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Originally Posted by Stoner Shadow Wolf

i am dirt poor :( i dont have a job, and i am socially inept. i dont like going outside, it's too crowded out there, i hate people in general. getting a job is like handing an islamic terrorist a bomb.

i'd snap and kill people. lol well unless i were stoned enough not to care about the fact that i have to ask people to repeat things 5 times before i realize i dont give a fuck.

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Well, being dirt poor I can't help you with :( .
We have uninhabited regions.
Humbolt county produces some fiiiiiiiine weed, and no one lives up there. Excepting a bunch of hippies chilling in arcada.
Haha, I am proud to be from california.

im a proud home grown oregonian :P and californians are CUH RAZY! well at least in southern cali lol stoopid fuchs. highway accidents just waiting to happen those nuts!

anyways... um... i dont know what to do :( im fucked :(

Aww, I am sorry that you are in a hard place.
Yeah, When I say California, I really mean Bay Area and ^up^ I hate So Cal. It is like a different state. It is so washed out.

not jsut hard, impossible -_- i seriousely need help, and i cant get it.

I am really sorry, and lacking in words at the moment.
I hope you find what you need.
I hope you are searching for what you need.
Take care of yourself, I don't want to see anything happen to you.

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Originally Posted by Smokey Bear

I wonder, if you can become dependent on Marijuana to sleep, if you are consistently using it.
I have always had trouble sleeping, but have not smoked today or yesterday, and have found sleeping impossible.
Do you think that you can actually become dependent on it to the point that it is nessecary to smoke in order to sleep (presuming this is not a prexisting problem)?

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yup same thing happens to me, weed relaxes you, i have been smokin daily for a long time, and recently i had to not burn for a whole day... that night i did not sleep at all

I have not smoked in two days, and can't sleep, and am hardly hungry.
Doubt the lack of hunger is related as well, but just interesting. I am not really bothered by the lack of sleep, I am a night sort of person, I much prefer to sleep the day away.

-_- your concern sucks man... i hate it, so many people concerned for me that i couldnt jsut kill myself and be done with it, too many people that would suffer because of me.

maybe i should set up a paypal account for people to make donations and get me off my ass and in a better place..... like australia, with vivien <3 <3

Yeah, but if you have it in you to feel crappy about the fact that people care about you, there is something there.
What do you want to do with your life(short of spending it stoned, because well...who wouldn't?)?
My personal belief on suicide is you never have a chance of finding something better if you take that route. The suffering may be gone, but it isn't nessesarily better, in fact it is nothing. You don't even get to experience it. Because you aren't there.
I think that if you really decide you care, you can get your ass up, and find something that works better.

honnestly, i hate civilization and society. i'd dedicate my life to changing it for the better, but i cant communicate with people, and cant amass a revolution online either.


honnestly, all i have left TO DO is blaze the rest of my life away.

but i cant do that, because i would need to grow the pot myself, since i cant get a job and buy it.

my hearing loss really holds me back, and the fact that no hearing aid actually helps just isnt right. i am pathetic, i cant do anything for myself, i am forced to rely on the minimal kindness that others have to offer me and help me out with, and i cant rely on that forever, sooner or later, im going to get kicked out of the house, and starve to death on the streets.


i might AS WELL just kill myself.


my life IS suicide. every day i die a little more, and come closer to being completely SOL and starve to death.