First bowl of the day

My dealer (someone, who lets just say, we're realy close....) well, he stoped selling to me cus i pissed him off (he was'nt contacting me after saying he wud be in touuch, no weed, i kept calling him lol) anyway, hes suppose to be at a party right now. mybe i should find this party, and get drunk and try and get a few puffs off some people.

But damn, i dont belive he stoped selling to me, iv been dry about 2 months now cus of that bastard :mad:

Damn, i need a new dealer. Now, all iv got is alcohol which means i have to put up with hang overs.

If you're really close, this 'dry spell' probably won't last long...just apologize for whatever you did...

What did you do, anyway? :confused:

Well, i kept ringing him like every 10 mins, even tho he said he would be in touch ( you know, he said he would contact me when he gets hold of some bud). So then we got in an arguement, cus he said forget it, he told me to fuck off, and said its a crime to harras someone like this, i sent a txt bck saying its also i crime to sell weed to ur minor COUSIN. then he sent text bck saying "i already knew you were a twat, but i never knew how much of a complete and total one you are, delete my number from your phone" i sent a txt saying, great, my other cousin (not saying his name) always said not to trust anyone, but i never knew that ment famly as well, now i know nott o trust anyone, even faimly, he sent txt bck saying "good", so after a while, i still sent some text and he still wanted me to delete his number from his phone, at this point i had'nt seen him SINCE i last brought weed off of him. which was like 2-3 months ago, well. I realised i was being a twat, i did aploligise, and he still refused to sell weed to me and said NO MEANS NO, or something. then he tells my other cousin how much of a "twat" im being. So yeah, i talked to him online not long ago but about a week ago he came online, i said hey and he just went offline and i dont think hes been online since and we hav'nt talked.

So yeah. I just think he hates me, my dad got a dvd from him, and hes REALLY nice to my dad (so's my other cousin, they both really like him) but neither me OR my sister got anything, not even a fucking card. so yeah.

I think it kinda fucked up my whole relationship with my whole faimly. I dont trust ANYONE know. cus iv been screwed over by so many ppl, and sometimes ppl act like im thier friend, then go and steal stuff from me or something, or they act nice to me when its just me and them, but when someones else is around they pick on me (at school, most ppl are like tht, they act nice to me when its just them and me, but with someone else they're embarrsed to they join in with the bullying). so yeah, i dont trust anyone any more, not even faimly. Basicly. I hate everyone.

Sometimes when around faimly, i think, "i wonder wot they're thinking about me, i wonder if they hate me" and it really up sets me. I sit in my room on my own listening to music. Because thats all i feel i have anymore. My music.

Damn, im depressed now.

BTW, im 15.

Double BTW, we're not "really close" i just did'nt wanna say he was my cousin cus i dont know how safe that is to say on here, we're not close. He hates me.

yea ive got one guy who has my 90 bucks and said he'll get me my half ounce after vacation (tuesday). and i really am worried hes gonna rip me off. then this other guy who i trust but he never seems to be able to hook me up cuz hes out doing something.

I just smoked the 2nd bowl of the day and i'm ripped lol. :stoned:

I'm smoking the 5th bowl of the day...or something...Whatever, it's 4:20. (sparks bowl)

I'm going to smoke my 1st bowl of the day, in a bit.
This is my first time even visiting here since saturday night, how was time away from me? lol... Boring, eh? Thought so :)

Thanks pabloescobar209. You fucking asshole. You made me depressed again. With acid freak asking questions it reminded me what i tried to do. Fucking fuck of all the fucker. there is'nt a word to describe what i feel, and what i am. Damn, i thought alcohol was suppose to make me happy..... Fucking asshole alcohol ppl.

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Originally Posted by CrAzYpOtHeAd

Thanks pabloescobar209. You fucking asshole. You made me depressed again. With acid freak asking questions it reminded me what i tried to do. Fucking fuck of all the fucker. there is'nt a word to describe what i feel, and what i am. Damn, i thought alcohol was suppose to make me happy..... Fucking asshole alcohol ppl.

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Drink more, pass out (on your front) and fuckin' forget all the fuckin' mother fucker, mother fuckin', pieces of shit, assholes in your life :)

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Originally Posted by 3 Sheets To The Wind

Drink more, pass out (on your front) and fuckin' forget all the fuckin' mother fucker, mother fuckin', pieces of shit, assholes in your life :)

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Well, no one has acculy read what i put, even the person who ASKED me to exsplain to them. so fuck it. iv had about 7-8 beers already i had about 3 earlier at my aunts and just finshed 3.