Am I Sexually Latent?

i hate being a virgin, not because i so badly "need" to get laid, but because i find most happiness in pleasing people in what few ways i can...

i need to experiance sex and find out how bad i am lol!

but seriousely, i just want to make someone happy ;) im no good at making people happy by doing work like cleaning the house, or doing dishes, it really brings me down... and the resulting happiness of the others really doesnt outweigh it :( i've been called selfish because of this... :( i dont like people much...

but then people seem to ignore the happyness i do bring them in small things like conversation and ideas... they dont appreciate it, but i get that happyness from their expressions and thoughts...

but lately... people seem to jsut want to trash me :(