Mescaline Exp Log

11:15 -- I realize now that I couldn't ever go to school on mescaline

not mescaline

This realization comes on the coattails of spontaneous generation
snakes and men and lizards and ticks
mating
in the ceiling
blank canvas for my god mind
Every level I ask it to show me, it can show me
I can show myself

Pink Floyd is purple, skeletal, with ticks and swooping skulls and scorpions all dancing and precogniscent decisions being made behind every part of me

I'm split up in four
eight
gymnodiddly fuck brevis
the single-celled bacteria that lives forever
in its infinite spanse of DNA DNA DNA
It makes the tide red.

That is the red tide, and I am the group mind and the god mind now.

I can't possibly go to school on this shit
no no no
no no no
no no no
someone recommend to me some music

Pink Floyd has too many skeletons
and scorpions
and ticks

I'll have to listen to some floyd when I get a chance to do some mescaline.

12:42 -- Twisted twisted twisted, this is so different from the first time

it's all so real

Did you get em as cuttings from divine or what?

Wow I just realized when I went to the dermatologist yesterday that my acne pills contai nmescaline.....LOL should itake a bunch of these capsules? They are full of yellowish powder...hmmmmmmmmm

Ah, over. I didn't get em from cuttings on Divine Cactus, I got this as powder doses from a friend. And are you serious, your allergy pills have mescaline in them?? I wonder what symptoms mescaline cures.

Anyway, that was some fucked up shit. Did the gelcap method and didn't throw up once, or even get the shits. Very realistic hallucinations, like skulls swooping in to swallow me and vampires and ghosts and some Indian all pointing at me. Very accusatory bastards. Also, the ceiling was maybe the best possible canvas for my imagination. At certain points the whole thing would change colors entirely, and I could bring on different stages of hallucination by asking myself.

Like I would go "show me airplanes" because I had a Howard Hawks thing going on in my head for some reason, and "airplanes" was like the code word for the next level up. Then entire shadows would morph and warp, usually starting with an airplane shape but then turning into see-through people and fish and amoebas. I had a lot of underwater stuff going on. Then I could say "show me bugs" and there would be very realistic shit going on all over, like if I didn't know better I'd have really believed there was snakes and mantises and ticks and flies and mosquitoes all over the place.

Also, maybe the most intense situation was when I was sitting right here, trying to type but not even remembering how to form a sentence (I literally forgot where a period goes) and then suddenly there were fish all around me, I saw my shadow on the wall acting like it was its own person and it got up and walked away, then a nautilus came out of the air and its face--in the hallucination the nautlius had a face--turned very red and detached from the body and floated right up in front of me and stared me down with beady little eyes set in a scaly little head, and then I looked up and saw a jellyfish-octopus thing dancing on the ceiling, made entirely out of shadows but totally realistic and it kept gaining detail the more I looked at it. It was huge, too, and the shadow tentacles were peeling off the wall and touching me, and its body was covered in spikes and dirt and was kind of segmented, not like a normal octopus in other words.

Also I got really freaked when a totally 3-D but very cartoony version of the coyote from the road runner cartoons popped out of some blanket across the room, and its nose was long enough to reach me. It grinned at me too, gave me the fucking chills.

Sometimes I just got so overwhelmed I couldn't even tell what the hallucinations were. Like when all sorts of skeletons and spears and tentacles and wheels and gears and cogs and levers and castles and bricks and bowls and food and flower seed pods were all just everywhere, and the whole house was rocking back and forth and the fridge was getting closer and closer. I couldn't even tell how all that shit fit into my vision, but it was there clear as day. Also, I could make any inanimate object come to life by looking at it.

The whole time, too, I felt like there is no such thing as time and that existence progresses like a spiral (or nautilus shell), being that it converges toward a center point, which we perceive to be the point that we're living at, but actually it keeps twisting in further than we can see, which is why we can't see the future, and also like a spiral or nautilus shell, it twists out the other way too, getting bigger as it goes past us, letting us "remember" events that are happening simultaneously with everything else. It's so hard to sort out, but I was dead convinced that linear time is an illusion.

This was Peruvian Torch, which I have heard is more potent than other San Pedro. I wouldn't doubt that considering the fucking mind-ripping that went on. It may sound very freaky in some patches, but I definitely recommend this. Seriously, it was one of the best trips I've ever had.

That sounds so much more fucked up than the dex trip I had. Glad you had a good time.

im growin some peruvian torch.. now i cant wait!!

P.S. No pupil dilation at all. If you can keep from acting crazy nobody will have any discernible physical way to tell.

thats was intense