Another anxiety post

Changing jobs, living situations, schools etc. are all very natural things to have anxiety about. Though sometimes us folks that suffer from anxiety exasperate those feelings in to an unhealthy state of anxiety.
I can only offer compassion and empathy in regards to that.
I can however offer some insight that can hopefully help you along your way a bit. Never fear who you really are. Never hide, you are special in your uniqueness. If the people around you are not comfortable with who you are then I would say it is time to look for some who are. If you have a hard time showing those emoticons it may be because no one ever showed you how and that seems to be the case with your family. Find some people that share your interests, share your joy or love or grief. When you can honestly share yourself with others you can gain great inner strength.
Good luck with the finals :)

Namaste

Well seeing as I too live in MD and too are in college and too taking finals, got my last 2 today, f'ing sociology and hist. of western architecture...yay.... but just do what I do, get as high as possible before hand....Not to just sound like a stoner, but when I sit there and worry about whats going down and what happens if I do badly on the finals, I fuck up. Go with your gut on tests, your subconscious does you better than you think when it comes to testing. Also, it calms me down so I'm not jumpy. And shit, if you go to AACC and wanna smoke some before 12:30 I'll be at the careers building just look for a kid with a tyedye bandanna on.

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Originally Posted by Purple Banana

I'm definitely daunted by all of the more logical courses I have to take (FOUR chemistries, two calculus classes, and two physics) because I have dyscalclia, and numbers alone just really frustrate me.

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Dont worry about this... this subjects hardly needs any numeric calculations at all... in fact, in this subjects there are far more letters (and greek letters) than numbers, so you will even get happy when you see an old number lost among this subjects... ;)

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Originally Posted by Purple Banana

I think I have a lot of things to uncover; I hide practically all of my emotions and interests from my family for fear of embarrassment; I have dozens of books on Richard Feynman, Milton Erickson, and for some reason, it would embarrass me if they found out. When I have a boyfriend, I am practically unable to show emotion, either love or excitement because my family's never really seen me express those feelings, and they would think it's odd. I don't know. There are just so many factors influencing each other, and I just want to get them straightened out because it's so frustrating.

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Man... im pretty like this... but im not embarassed that my family know my interests... i hide myself from them (or from anyone else for this matter) because i feel that being "known" makes me more predictable, and thus more vulnerable, while being "mysterious" and "unknown" makes me less predictable and thus less vulnerable...
And after years of hiding my emotions i reached a point where i dont feel them anymore. Im impassible, both internally and externally at most situations... i wont say its good, but also it isnt bad. Its neutral. But as i was way more sensitive to the bad emotions than to the good ones, for me being "neutral" is an improvement, even if its a bit boring sometimes...

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Originally Posted by ForgetClassC

Well seeing as I too live in MD and too are in college and too taking finals, got my last 2 today, f'ing sociology and hist. of western architecture...yay.... but just do what I do, get as high as possible before hand....Not to just sound like a stoner, but when I sit there and worry about whats going down and what happens if I do badly on the finals, I fuck up. Go with your gut on tests, your subconscious does you better than you think when it comes to testing. Also, it calms me down so I'm not jumpy. And shit, if you go to AACC and wanna smoke some before 12:30 I'll be at the careers building just look for a kid with a tyedye bandanna on.

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I was actually in AA the other day, for a job interview in Annapolis... I'm transferring from Harford CC to Towson...

Smoking does help with my anxiety a lot, but even the smallest and simplest equations sober are completely baffling, let alone stoned. I can do biology and English and art completely stoned, and it comes out perfectly. Nothing like learning about evaporative transpiration while stoned :)

I took my chemistry final today, and I completely bombed it, and failed the course. I drove home completely distraught, a million things running through my head wondering what to do, how to tell my parents, how to deal with the fact that I've taken chem 4 times, and still have not been able to pass it.

I went home, sat in my fuzzy blue half-moon chair, just closed my eyes, and spent the next 40 minutes in an odd state; my body was completely asleep and relaxed, but my mind just kind of wandered around, and somehow when I came to, everything seemed like it would be fine, as far as chem goes, at least. I'll get through school eventually, if it takes a while, so be it. One day at a time.

I really really hope I get the job though. I'll be working for the state Dept. of Natural resources, working with kids 14-17 from Baltimore who've had previous incarcerations, drug abuse issues, bad neighborhoods, etc. and I'll be supervising and mentoring them while hiking, camping, kayaking, canoeing, etc. I just hope to be rid of these panic attacks, social anxiety and all by then. One day at a time...

i know when i puff purple bannana it fuckks me up i get all super noided about dumb ass shit not paranoid but all nervous ans scared feeling and i dont want to go outside and shit


just a thought

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Originally Posted by phatsesh101

i know when i puff purple bannana it fuckks me up i get all super noided about dumb ass shit not paranoid but all nervous ans scared feeling and i dont want to go outside and shit


just a thought

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That sucks- my younger sister is like that sometimes. I've never, in my 6+ years of smoking had any problems with bud actually causing me anxiety, or even paranoia...

Yeah, I'm pretty sure I bombed my soc test, but fuck it, I'm an architecture major, lol

Itâ??s normal to worry and feel tense or scared when under pressure or facing a stressful situation. Anxiety is the bodyâ??s natural response to danger, an automatic alarm that goes off when we feel threatened.

Although it may be unpleasant, anxiety isnâ??t always a bad thing. In fact, anxiety can help us stay alert and focused, spur us to action, and motivate us to solve problems. But when anxiety is constant or overwhelming, when it interferes with your relationships and activitiesâ??thatâ??s when youâ??ve crossed the line from normal anxiety into the territory of anxiety disorders.

Man I feel ya... In fact since I started smoking this 4/20, I have had quite a number of bad trips and very very anxious ones too, I would not categorize them as PANIC ATTACKS, since that would be the severe ones, but I have been getting the cold and sweaty palms, fingers and toes for extended hours even after a small bowl of some nasty mexicans!!! very very odd to me and according to my smoking history.

However, I have since looked for some more professional help and have figured these feelings are only feelings of anxiety which do not technically harm u at the time of happening any more than making u feel very uncomfortable, but that's it, i know the impending doom feeling and how that flies... and its just it, A FEELING. The reason would be that blood flow to your brain will be restricted somewhat when u smoke and the stronger THC content the more this restriction so far as i have found out, plz correct me if any1 has more reliable info (I talked to my doctor and went for at least 10 sessions of therapy - i do have other problems generally tied to anxiety)

I was given these papers that HAVE REALLY HELPED me to COPE with my weed-induced (it differs for me from when i have a genuine excuse to be anxious) anxiety and I've been able to basically kick it's butt in most of the occasions rather quickly since I learned these techniques. However, yesterday I had a near panic-attack (fast racing heart, arrhythmia) episode that I could not take care of with any kind of thinking or statements!!!

Well, enough to say 20 minutes of juggin n mild running + some Borage tea did a miracle! (trust me, it makes your kidneys and toilet flush work rather hard & fast!!! took all those nasty anxiety-related chemicals out of the body along with the stress that gets released due to muscles exercising)

but generally speaking, my issue with anxiety is mainly with weed, that's what triggers it most of the time. in fact b4 i got help and even a few occasions afterwards, just thinking about smoking or thinking about getting some weed would make paranoid as hell when i was completely sober! but i know if i continue working on my psyche, i can easily overcome this, I did not have adverse reactions for the first few years of smoking, in which i was smoking far far far more than i do now (a few blunts, sometimes up to an ounce of low Q weed vs. max 3-4 small bowls a day) and i only started having panic attacks and anxiety that had to do with weed, after i took a very long sobriety break and got quite serious about my life, future and school!

But here they are, the statements that help me on a day to day basis, maybe others can get somethin out of these as well. CHECK ATTACHMENTS

EDIT: I use the first aid the most, and out of all its suggestions (different ones work for different ppl) the GET BUSY, BREATHE & RELAX, and GET MAD ones work rather good if the anxiety feeling is not too servere. but u might find the rest of them useful for u.

2nd EDIT: In fact when I talk about getting serious about life, I'm talking about turning a <1.0 GPA to a 3.4, and keeping on with getting str8 A's
and my major is accounting/finance, I happen to be a sharp learner in class and a very effective crammer as well. of course memory wise stoners do suffer a bit on the short term, but so long as my long term is working fine, i will assume i'm on a prescription that has the similar side-effect on the memory... sometimes even for me who is trying to stay sober, weed again becomes a need, a route to take in free time just to let the mind wander, but sometimes i find me in the middle of a scary and dark forest all of a sudden and it ruins my stroll in the highland!

Hey purple and flyingimam, I really feel you also. I have anxiety and worry about stupid things every day. I'll have a look at those papers to, I think I might have seen them before somewhere.

First time I smoked, didn't expect the high to be like it was but I was alone... felts like being in another dimension or outside of my body lol... it was quite scary but I wouldn't say that I panicked or anything.

Smoked several times for couple months after that without any problem, but then I started worrying about my heart condition which made me anxious while high. I have MVP and aorta regurgitation but only knew about the MVP then...

Few months later I started being cautious about getting "too high" but was totally fine with smoking small amounts without any problem. Then I got "too high" again and was really anxious, became afraid to smoke at all, but still wanted to. I was fine around weed and other people smoking it...

About... 10 (shit I didn't think it was that long) months ago I had a panic attack after vaporizing more then i expected, ended calling ambulance because my heart rate was at 200 and i was totally pale, trembling (which now I believe was a lot to do with low blood sugar)...

Couple months later, I slowly started getting paranoid that I would get weed in baked foods, had a panic attack sober for the first time and got depersonalization for 2 days, then I was paranoid about getting it in everything I ate and every time I ate i would be moderately anxious for 2-3 hours after until I was "certain there was nothing in it". Cant even stand near anyone smoking, can't smell weed without being anxious. I'm terrified to get high... from anything (alcohol included). Anytime I "feel weird" due to anything... lack of sleep, blood sugar, etc. I start getting anxious thinking I somehow got weed.

I've been like this for about 4-6 months as well as other things have started worrying me now I and I get anxious over things that never used to bother me.

The last month I have become much better. :) I've started changing my thoughts more rationally, eating healthier (but still not enough), taking some homeopathic remedies, doing some NLP, worrying less. I only get anxious a couple times a week (opposed to several times a day) I almost don't worry about getting drugs in food anymore, only sometimes, and worry less when I "feel weird" for w.e reason. But I'm still terrified to get high. Hopefully I won't fear it anymore because the herb used to help me with other things like eating before and I used to enjoy it. I know I'll be anxious free eventually.

I can't really say what has helped, but I know that changing the way you think about anxiety is a big thing. Basically you must accept it and stop fearing it/letting it bother you. Embrace the feelings. Like right now and today I feel sort "high" or just out of it, but I just think "oh well" because it's just a state of mind and feelings. My recommendation is to look into homeopathic remedies, EFT, and NLP for anxiety/panic. I've found these videos to be quite helpful:

Watch all 9part in order, one of the parts has a VERY effective anti anxiety technique that works within seconds.
[YOUTUBE]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AaO4fV87x7Q&feature=related[/YOUTUBE]

[YOUTUBE]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3ArtxNt606U[/YOUTUBE]

[YOUTUBE]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_DG8WkdIzSk[/YOUTUBE]

This acupressure point has helped me with mild anxiety sometimes, calm you a little (might be placebo but I duno, seems to work)
[YOUTUBE]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7ZTHjjGtuDA&feature=related[/YOUTUBE]

Hope they help.:thumbsup: