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Wow thanks everyone! I really really love this place, why didn't I turn to you guys early for some advice. Ok We got chattin like crazy on Sunday, and on sunday night I could not sleep much restless as hell! got maybe 4 hours tops. and during Monday she sends me a message that she couldn't sleep either. (I sent her a message before I went to bed) and that she was thinkin the same things I was. (just amazed at how much we have in common and that i already feel a conection to her.) and that i should come take the bus to goto where she lives. (Which is like only like 45 minutes away.) andthat i didn't need to bother rentin a hotel, cause I could just sleep on her COUCH, and then i qoute " or maybe if things go well u can sleep with me OOPS too fast for ya? well too bad hahahaha" i was like omg! sweet! I didn't send that back to her in a message. but then later in the day I got remeinded about a stupid staff meeting that i had that night so i wouldn't be back home till 6:30-7 pm I sent her that message sayin I forgot about the stupid staff meeting be home around this time hope to see you online. So i come home, and there is no response and she's not online. Its 7:15 pm at that time, the meeting was late getting out. So I waited a bit sent her a quick message right away sayin i was home, hope to see her online at some point. Then i waited...and waited, got a bit anxious so I sent her another message sayin "damn, hope that staff meetin didn't ruin my chance of chattin with her. Cause in truth I'd been dyin to chat with her again. after more time passed I realized, she was not coming back online tonight ( I have her on msn too) so i sent her one last message..ok I sent like 2...I get nervous, and have anxiety at times. (and this is the first time in 8 months I have had a chance to even get to know someoen, and have those feelings all over again. its weird feelin this way again, after 8 months of seperation from my wife. and being with her for over 5 years, this is all so nbew to me) so before i sent the last e-mail I re read her message and it sounded like she was almost expectin me that night. I qoute "i took my brothers laptop home with me so ill be on all day until tonigiht haha " am i readin too much into that sentence? cause it almost makes me think she would be online all afternoon untill the evening..when I got there on the bus. was she waiting all afternoon to talk to me, and then at 4:40 pm I sent that message to her from work, was she expecting me there? I think i'm reading too much into it. Anyway i sent her a message sayin I hope that one stupid staff meeting would ruin the chances of us ever meeting. t may sound crazy but I feel this weird conection between me and her...and I haven't even met her yet. I know what mostwill say, that i'm rushin this too fast, but I just wanna see her and see if this conection is there on a face to face basis. I met my wife online originally so i know how you can make a somewhat coinection through the net. I juts wanna meet this girl, I really realy do, i even put in my last message, that I have a bag already packed (which I do) ready to go, and all she has to say is "get on that bus, and come see me" and I would, I'd leave right after work cause I have wednesday off, and i could stay over night be it the couch or her bed! ;) anyway what ya think, I know I need to slow down, but I have such a strong feeling, and I can't help but to listen to it, I like this girl a lot, and I'd really hate not to get the chance to meet her. And if ya think I'm coming on too strong, towards her maybe your right, but I've been gettin the same feed back from her...up till now. I hope I get a message from her tomorrow, just hope the 6 messages I sent her doesn't seem to desperate...I even sent one message with my cell phone enumber, which i would never normally do, but I just have this strong feeling/conection to her....am i crazy?
