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ok... before i say this just let me say, i'm not racist or anything... so it doesn't pertain to that exact aspect....

you know after watching this movie again, now that i'm older... (i first saw it when i was all of 15 or so..) i realize just how much it pertains to my life....

i look at derek.. and i see me.... then i look at danny, and i see my brother (the one who's alive, and who wanted to join the army and is now, i don't even know where, last i heard he was moving to TN.. but i don't even know if he made it)

derek 'grew up' and changed.. but there he is... looking at his younger brother.. makign the same mistakes he did.... and somewhere, he knows there's not a whole lot he can do about it... he can talk to him, and try to show him the mistakes... but ultimately danny's path is already paved.. because derek wasn't there to intervene early enough...

that's how i feel... that's like a mirror image.. i'm sitting here.. and i'm seeing the same mistakes (well not the exact same ones, but ones of the equal magnitude) and wanting him to change it, before he ends up like danny does in the movie... at the same time i see a great person, but i also see the pain that's about to come... i see i'm becoming a 'great' person.. (morally wise anyways... but i can also see i have alot mor epain instore for my life...)

can anyone else relate to this movie in that way? or does everyone else just see some great movie without any real meaning towards their life?

i've fucked up alot, but now i'm working hard to correct my mistakes.. and change who i am... i'm just curious i guess.. if i'm the only one out there (i know i'm not, but it'd probably help to know i'm not the only one going through it.... as in personally... you can look at the stars and know someone else is bound to be doing it, but it's diffrent when you actually know they are..)

I feel like it has to do with my life because it deals with hate. Who doesn't have hate in their life?

That movie dosen't affect me in that way. It affects in another....
I hate fucking skinheads

When I lived in Boston, I got severly beat up by 5 skins....I ended up getting on the T with one pant leg tore completely off, a broken collarbone, a broken nose and those blood spots in both eyes. I ended up at my friends house in Roxbury and sat on their couch for the next 6 hours motionless. The worse ass beating of my life.

I never got to repay them.....I wanted to get the one that spearheaded it, but he went to jail soon there after for beating up a 56 year old black man...Fuckin misguided pussies
It was all over cause I had a mohawk....

like i said, in that aspect, it has nothing to do with me....

just watching your younger sibling making the same mistakes you've made, and you knowing you're older and changing, wanting ot offer guidance... but that guidance is never taken seriously... except for the last fleeting moments of said life....

i hate racists... black brown white... a skin color is the worst thing to hate someone over (religion coming in a close second) those people can't control their color... they can however control their actions...

as an example, skinheads seem to think every black person (and imigrant, if you're not white they hav ea problem with you) follows the same path... but they never seem to realize (for some odd reason) that just because someone's white, doesn't mean they're all racists and biggots...

most of them (sadly) are raised that way... parents, older siblings, other strong influences in their life.. they grow up only knowing the hate...

anyways, i never ment this to take on the racial thing which is why that first statment was there in the first place....

again, i just mean:

"just watching your younger sibling making the same mistakes you've made, and you knowing you're older and changing, wanting ot offer guidance... but that guidance is never taken seriously... except for the last fleeting moments of said life...."

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Originally Posted by Billionfold

I don't believe in already paved paths.

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Me neither.

I belive we make are own paths and were not being played like a pawn in god's game of chess.


Oo and i don't really see the movie relating to me in anyway. And plus i'm the younger of 2 so never had to be a "Big Brother" and set a good example or nothin.

my little brother is like my twin only with a worse path, he started the same shit i did when i was his age (mostly weed) but then quickly and I mean QUICKLY moved onto hard shit within 6 months. I literally watched him become a drug addict while I was working on improving my life but could do nothing but talk to him. Luckily tho hes in a rehab program and wants to turn his life around.

i can definitly see how that movie pretains to that situation. i feel ya.

atleast someone does.. it feels better knowing i'm not the only one (although, that's kidna shitty thing to feel good about "ahah! my life's not the only one that sucks" :p)

I hate anything racist. Im from germany...which im proud of. but when i tell someone that they make some kinda nazi/hitler joke. Shit like that pisses me off. I hate when ppl use racial (sp?) slurs..even if its not in a negaive way. Like "man..my eyes are hella chinky" (i hear that ALL the time) and im like "you shouldnt say shit like that...do you even know what chink means?" "no" "its a racial (sp?) slur that refers to chinese slaves"

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Originally Posted by memoryburner

I hate anything racist. Im from germany...which im proud of. but when i tell someone that they make some kinda nazi/hitler joke. Shit like that pisses me off. I hate when ppl use racial (sp?) slurs..even if its not in a negaive way. Like "man..my eyes are hella chinky" (i hear that ALL the time) and im like "you shouldnt say shit like that...do you even know what chink means?" "no" "its a racial (sp?) slur that refers to chinese slaves"

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you are the man

The main lesson I gained from the movie is that if someone points a gun at you and tells you to bite the curb, just have them shoot you instead