and here we go.... (more brother issues)

i'm trying very hard to not like freak out or anything.... but i just got a call from my brother... he's moving to tennese with a friend of his... he's offically quit school (papers or whatever is already signed, he's out for good) and he's moving quite a few states away from me...

so now i have nothing left here, except my grandparents my son and wife.... i have no father, i have no mother, i have no family, i have no friends (here)... and since he's moving, i won't be getting weed anymore either...

damn dude, that sucks
my suggestion: Better start looking for hookups

Don't you have a wife and a child? That's enough family right there, they are the truly important ones. As harsh as it sounds the others can pretty much look after themselves now. I don't think you need to get too worried about this, people move on it's a part of life. Your brother will be fine, he is going on a journey and will have one hell of an experience.

Keep your only family you have very close to you, especially your son. Get to be his best friend. Start growing, or find new dealers. Weed isn't your main priority however.

im here for you man

wish i could hook you up..

try to make some friends...

for a time i was drinking myself to sleep with liters and thinking about my ex to the point where i would hurt physically...i got all fat and since i quit weed and alc...i smoke cigs...but i got mental problems i keep bent with pills...if i dont take em i feel impending doom...like a form of paranoia but it feels like your brain/ heart will fail immenently...

i dont know how much help i and us on here can be but i care about you..

you said in a post back somewhere youve been off it for 2 months...ive been off 4 1/2

sometimes its better.
i seriously hope things buck up for you and your situation

-John

How hard is it for you to make friends, really?

And those friends, how hard is it for them to be stoners?

Weed + Friends solved. Family? Whats the big deal about family?
A lot of people don't have family. I have a father. Thats it.
You have a wife, kid, AND grandparents? Lucky you.

Stay in touch with your bro, not that hard is it? Internet, phone, cell, letter.

And maybe it's time to learn how to be self-reliant.
Maybe it's time to be your own friend.
You have all you need, sometimes the rest just takes a little time and effort.

I wish I had a wife and child...

maybe i care so much becasue me and my dead brother had come to the conclusion we're going to have to protect him... and now that he's dead, i'm the only one that's left... and if he moves away, i can't keep that promise... i just don't know anymore..

nation, if you had next to no one except your brother, i'm sure you'd be singing a diffrent tune... i have my own family, he was pretty much the only thing tieing me into a family (other then my wife and kid).... i don't know if you can understand that, but with him leaving, it's like i'm alone in the world (nearly)...

and out of all the times he could have chose, he chose the wrong time to drop the bomb on me... i got next to no sleep last night... i'm still hung over from all the nyquil... i feel like shit... and now i've gotta try to keep myself calm while i have next to no energy...

everyone reacts diffrently to diffrent situations.. i wish i could somehow take the feeling out of my chest, and place it in yal, so you know what i feel.. ic an't explain it... it's like fear, anger, sadness, shame, lonliness all rolled into one lump-feeling...

if you lived in my town you'd understand why it's so hard to make friends, i don't want to say cuz it's going to come off as racist, so i'll just leave it at that...

maybe some of you dont' care about having family or not, but i do... it drives me insane every single day i wake up, knowing i'm the black sheep in the family and no more than 6-7 people would show up to my funeral.... i've always been the black sheep, of school, of family, of everything... and it drives me crazy...

i think i'm doing a pretty good job of not losing it, i mean i've been known to fly off the handle for lesser events... but i felt a need to post it here so i did... i'm not going sucidal, i'm not thinking stupid...

An older guy told me, when I was about 16, that you are very fortunate if you have one real friend in your entire life. He was right.