help me sort it out if you feel up to it

i need answers.
to questions i dont know
i need my thoughts to flow

i need to know why, and when i know why, i need to know why that why is in existence.

who are humans to make assumptions? what is our reality except signals and waves and chemicals? reality is the most unreal thing! so what made reality go so wrong. why can humans keep making such foolish decisions when the irony of reality is all around us?

i guess the barriers personality throws up are to blame. its some scary stuff! it can trick you into thinking you is you. i know you is not you, you is how our mind interperits a bunch of signals, more or less. that you is not existing, it is a trick! ego. how so many people have fallen to this trap, i have no idea!

what is my personality except these same waves and signals and chemicals? im not even the person i think i am, so who am i? i need to find this out.

what does it look like under our illusioned reality? is there color? shape? dimensions? sight or knowledge? i doubt it, but i know i cant comprehend it.
yet :)

im confused, i want to feel the universe but does the universe want to feel me?
what is me, who is me? why am I? how am I?
what is the meaning of this?
how can i understand this, where do real and unreal differentiate?
why are we so caught up in life? what biological mechanism can have us so fooled as to completely distort our sense of "OM"
"OM", is for lack of a better word, please understand that too and understand what i mean when i say that.

i need to tear down the walls of this reality im in. i need to see a new way of being. a less distorted form of """Reality""".

this one doesnt agree with me! it plays to many trick on my mind and soul.


later

Scoop up all that water and put it in a glass.

and siphon off the top layer

the glass is invisible,,,is it really there???

thats a matter of perception i think

Looking forward into the old days, looking back at what there will be. THeres no reality just an illusion theres no real sanity just plain confusion.
Toys

and no correlation between anything, but it doesnt matter because i have jsut found peace.
im going to ride out this life and get and give as much as i can, and when i die then i will know.
there is beauty in everything, and although beauty is just our senses positively reacting to a pleasing stimuli, i can feel a deep deep connection and knowledge and purpose in myself and others, in "reality". i just KNOW it cant be as simple as a magic lord in the sky...

^^^that made no sense the way i worded it but i was tying beauty with knowledge of "OM"

whether the glass is half full or half empty just be happy you have a glass to begin with

To me.. The meaning of life is.. To have kids, wife and grow up again through there eyes.

Simple things....If you have ever almost Died. It makes life very clear. Its short. imo

I hear the buffalo's....they are stomping through the air...conquering the fly's that await the color green.