Every since I stopped using marijuana I've run into a number of
problems. I can't seem to eat right anymore. Food doesn't seem to
taste as good and even though for some reason I am CONSTANTLY
hungry when ever I eat the food doesn't satisfy me anymore. And I
can't seem to eat as much. From what I can remember before I started
using like every day I never really ate that much any ways. But when I
started using everyday I found it easier for me to eat more and I
noticed that and I felt overall better. Also I am starting to get new pains
that I haven't had before.
I've been using for 3 yrs, in September it will make it my 4th but the
point is I didn't start off using everyday, when I did though I noticed a
surprising change in my anger, pain and sickness. Speaking of which
we have had 2 days off because of the cold weather (not like I can go
back to school anyways), but I stopped Thursday. I started to develop
a cold on Sunday. Now you can choose to believe this or not but I
have NEVER EVER had a cold when I smoked everyday. I didn't even
begin to feel sick. Now please explain to me why is it that the people
that make the laws are SO FUCKING STUPID!? It's not fucking rocket
science, CANNABIS DOES FUCKING HELP!!!! Now I don't know if it's
withdrawal or not, maybe in a couple of weeks I'll feel fine being sober
all the time again until I complete this stupid ass program (and go back
to blazin' every single day) but it's so fucking stupid that they try to
really put in our minds that marijuana is harmful, useless and not for
everyone just severely sick patients. And even then the federal law still
says it's illegal for even them! If it was fucking useless it wouldn't have
been here since the beginning of time, I can't think of one natural thing
that's useless, maybe there are some things on this earth that are
useless to humans, but everything put on this earth has a purpose for
something.
But marijuana isn't useless to humans and we've been using
it for many, many years. Way before some dick head decided to make
up fucked up bull shit laws about it. I have noticed a change in my
anger if you can't tell by my rant and lately I have been feeling the
need to punch walls and break things because when I get angry I
don't have any other way to release. When I get high I can actually
look at everything and laugh about it and feel alright. I'm sorry but it's
not hard to realize that there are some people that are just better off
with marijuana. Why? Because doctor's feel that hyper uncontrollable
patients are better off with their fucking medicine that calms them
down. Why can't marijuana be my legal remedy? They always link
marijuana to crime, well OF COURSE! If it's illegal what the fuck do you
expect for it to be classified as when some one gets busted. I'm not a
criminal, I'm not a thug, I'm not a fucking product of this ghetto ass
environment, I'm just an average person that wants to just enjoy my
life with laughs and love and happiness. Just because I don't qualify
for what they believe it needs to help me with it's recreational use and
abuse? FUCK THAT! Why is it that my peers (including you all) are the
only ones that can fucking understand that there is nothing wrong
with cannabis use and that some people actually do need it? I mean if I
decided to try marijuana as my last resort before I attempted to
kill...my...self and it worked...I mean how much more fucking proof do
you need that it can open your mind to a better way of thinking? Yes,
now you know the true reason why I tried it...I read about it, I read
experiences and I thought maybe it could help me with my issues. The
people that enforce these bull shit laws about cannabis day in and day
out are fucking ass-backwards and don't realize how many lives they
destroy every single day. Now I have something on my record that
hopefully they can erase when I become an "adult"..all because it's an
illegal substance.... Innocent people get harassed, looked down upon
and taken to prison everyday because the people that are in charge
has let this thing about "marijuana is evil" continue day in and day out
and I'm fuckin' tired of it. I mean half of the people that claim this has never even tried it! They just look at the people that do and attempt to make an assumption. That's like me NEVER hearing a song but talking shit about it. People make judgements of things they never even came close to experiencing We need to do something ASfuckingAP! I'm
sorry about this rant and if it doesn't make sense then I'm sorry about
that too but I just needed to get this off of my mind...