Confusing and Clarity

I once believed the bible was Gods word and could never be proved wrong. Sadly it was and everything I thought I knew came crashing down. If the bible is a lie than god must not be real and if the only thing we know is natural selection than, I told my self in an effort to keep my morals, we where all naturally selected by life to support life and not to destroy it. What else is our purpose? Than I started thinking that I was formed over billions of years throw a natural processes but what was at the beginning? If their ever was nothing could there be anything today? Can you get something from nothing? The only logical answer is no and this confused, enlightened, and gave me joy all at the same time. I continued the questioning. So if their ever was nothing what last forever? What is everything formed from. I knew our universe was formed by membranes colliding into each other causing the big band. But what formed the membranes and what formed that and what formed that and so on and so on. What is eternal? What was forever before and will have to be forever after? What is life apart off? What is a rock apart off? Though the bible is nothing more than a book of stories, this dose not mean you have to reject god. Logic proved the bible wrong but proved god more complex and uncomprehendable then we ever could comprehend. We stare at his shadow(the bible, the koran, religion, science) and confuse our selves when if we would just take time to look around at life and everything we would know the logical end is god is real and everything is apart of god. Its like god is everything everywhere and god just lets us barrow a part of god for a very short time. I am not saying this is a fact, cause it is not, it is just a struggle for the truth. Everyone must struggle for themselves and hopefully get loser to the truth as they go. I thank as human beings all previous religions are just that, but they are set in stone and we must never set our current ideals in stone. It only leads to confusing and violence. Jesus said in mark 7:15 exactly that but Christians refuse to see it. There are a few people in the past who had a genius like understanding of god but are ancestors fucked it up by setting it in stone. Never stop struggling for the truth and always question everything you are told. Keep an open mind, come up with your own ideals and share them but make sure they are yours. If anything just love everything we all owe life that much.