I need help

Last year at college, I was very Isolated. I had very few friends and I wa stuck in the dorms with an asshole roomate. I became very isolated and loney, I became depressed and the pain from being alone became unbearable. It felt like everyone else was having way more fun than me and I became very jealous. I was miles away from home, and there was nothing I could do

After time the pain went away. Not because I had done anything to cure it, but my body just shut down my feelings and I no longer felt the pain. This was great, except for the fact that I could no longer feel anything at all.

I have lost the ability to feel emotion. I do not feel sad, or happy, I feel the same all the time... empty. I thought it was great at first, but not being able to feel anything is the worst thing to ever happen to me. I never talk about my problems to anyone so doing this alone is very hard for me.

I need help, and anyone with any ideas, suggestions, comments, or guidance is more than welcome. I want to feel alive again

It really wouldnt be a huge problem, but i cannot even get HIGH anymore, Its that bad.

Im going to suggest something that the mods wont like, but mods, please leave this thread up for as long as possible so this guy can get more help with his issues, if you have to, just delete my post instead of this thread. but what i'm going to suggest WILL greatly help this individual.

I had some troubled times with emotions and overthinking and overanalyzing things. I thought my mind was a mess from everything i was constantly trying to sort out. Until i got ahold of some mushrooms. I took an eighth, and since that day, i have everything figured out for the positive outcome, and can finally be relaxed.

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well look, first off you should have been out there trying to make friends, im sure there was a shit load of clubs at your college, you should have went and joined one, did you take the effort out to try and make some new friends.

If you cant be happy in yourself how can you be happy with anyone else.

Make an effort with the few friends you have because they're all youve got at the moment.

You must have had old friends in the past but now your seperated im thinkin so is there anyway you can contact these just to reminisce and maybe re-discover yourself.

OMG i went through exactly the same thing when I left home to go to uni, I can sympathise. I took a gap year after my second year and traveled around Europe, best time of my life. I then returned to uni a changed man. I would suggest doing something like that

justinsane's suggestion is sound, and may be the solution you are looking for, but... a word to the wise: Like any drug, shrooms are a tool to help you along a spiritual path, they are not meant to be the path itself. They are a magnifier that often tend to intensify any emotions you may be feeling, so if you do take justinsane's advice, make sure you are in positive surroundings and with a trusted friend. I'd recommend doing more research on this if it's of interest to you, but this unfortunately isn't the place, so instead of imparting my own knowledge, I recommend seeking out the Shroomery. There's a ton of good information there.

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Originally Posted by justinsane

Im going to suggest something that the mods wont like, but mods, please leave this thread up for as long as possible so this guy can get more help with his issues, if you have to, just delete my post instead of this thread. but what i'm going to suggest WILL greatly help this individual.

I had some troubled times with emotions and overthinking and overanalyzing things. I thought my mind was a mess from everything i was constantly trying to sort out. Until i got ahold of some mushrooms. I took an eighth, and since that day, i have everything figured out for the positive outcome, and can finally be relaxed.

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I'm not so sure if doing a drug like that when you're depressed is a good idea. Though, my only experience with mushrooms was with these really intense mushrooms that supposedly only come around once a lifetime. I talked to some people about them who have shroomed quite a bit before, and they said those were the craziest more intense mushrooms they've ever tried and made them think about if they ever wanted to do mushrooms again. I also took about an eighth of them. I have an eighth of some mushrooms in my room right now, I just haven't decided when to take them yet. Most trips might not be close to what I experienced, but since that's my only perspective on them I have no clue. All I have to say about it is I had one crazy ass trip that probably changed my perspective on everything forever.

maybe try a dime then. that why nothing is very intense. i found myself just walking around nature with headphones on. in the most euphoric state ive even been in in my entire life. completely at one with everything. and for 99% of the time, i was analyzing my current life, and the suggestions to make it better came from i dont know where, but i listened to them, and got on the right path for the first time in my life. and feel great about it.

dont do them to get "fucked up" do them for enlightenment and the information that is locked in your mind.

hes not depressed he has no emotions