I need some help

Last year at college, I was very Isolated. I had very few friends and I wa stuck in the dorms with an asshole roomate. I became very isolated and loney, I became depressed and the pain from being alone became unbearable. It felt like everyone else was having way more fun than me and I became very jealous. I was miles away from home, and there was nothing I could do

After time the pain went away. Not because I had done anything to cure it, but my body just shut down my feelings and I no longer felt the pain. This was great, except for the fact that I could no longer feel anything at all.

I have lost the ability to feel emotion. I do not feel sad, or happy, I feel the same all the time... empty. I thought it was great at first, but not being able to feel anything is the worst thing to ever happen to me. I never talk about my problems to anyone so doing this alone is very hard for me.

I need help, and anyone with any ideas, suggestions, comments, or guidance is more than welcome. I want to feel alive.

It really wouldnt be a huge problem, but i cannot even get HIGH anymore, Its that bad.

Most severe case of blue balls i have ever seen. Im supprised you can even walk, your...your will to procide is inspiring.

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Originally Posted by FeedmeWeed

Last year at college, I was very Isolated. I had very few friends and I wa stuck in the dorms with an asshole roomate. I became very isolated and loney, I became depressed and the pain from being alone became unbearable. It felt like everyone else was having way more fun than me and I became very jealous. I was miles away from home, and there was nothing I could do

After time the pain went away. Not because I had done anything to cure it, but my body just shut down my feelings and I no longer felt the pain. This was great, except for the fact that I could no longer feel anything at all.

I have lost the ability to feel emotion. I do not feel sad, or happy, I feel the same all the time... empty. I thought it was great at first, but not being able to feel anything is the worst thing to ever happen to me. I never talk about my problems to anyone so doing this alone is very hard for me.

I need help, and anyone with any ideas, suggestions, comments, or guidance is more than welcome. I want to feel alive.

It really wouldnt be a huge problem, but i cannot even get HIGH anymore, Its that bad.

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How touching...

Get out of your dorm room, vollunteer as story-time reader at your local library, work in a food bank, help at a battered women's shelter, whatever, just get doing something that helps others. Works like a charm!- Granny Storm Crow

So I gave you a very short answer. I want to expand on it. I'm married to a chronic depressive, I am very slightly bipolar (Mom was biploar- life with her was a roller coaster ride!) and I am working toward a degree in psychology, so I have a reasonable amount of experience when it comes to depression. You are seriously depressed and you need to start talking to someone! Your posting here is a good start, but typed lines on a page aren't what you need- you need human contact. At the very least, go see a counselor at your school- a counselor is just someone who is paid to be a caring, experienced friend who will listen to you. They're not as good as a real friend, but their better than nothing! (;) Pretty much like the difference in sex with the love of your life and a hooker.)

Also, your diet may be part of the problem. Burgers, pizza and fries are not a good balanced diet- even at your age. Diet can affect your mental health as well as your physical health. Eat more fruits and veggies. You should grab a good multivitamin/mineral and some stress vitamins and take them every morning. If your depression was mild, I'd suggest St. John's Wort- run a search on it for more info. For some folks it works as well as anti-depressants.

Another thing is to start getting some excercise! Walking your troubles away is not just a saying, it is a valid fact. Look it up- just run depression exercise - there was a news article recently about walking being a way to break depression. Walking, especially in a "green" setting , helps your head. So go for a walk in the park.

Get a kitten or puppy. Grow a plant. Go fishin'. Join a club. Read "Be Here Now". Become an activist for a cause that you believe in. Stop sitting around feeling nothing- force yourself to go and DO SOMETHING! Sometimes you have to be "mean" to yourself to take care of yourself. :thumbsup:

Left and Captain, may you never have severe depression strike someone you love! My talented, beautiful mother suicided two weeks before her 60th birthday. :sadcrying I'm 59 now and it still hurts. :( - Granny Storm Crow