Me so dumb, need advice

Man im an idiot. I was growing three plants, and expected the yield to be very low as i had planted them late in the season (it is november and im just now harvesting) in a place with only a little sunlight. One was especially small, which i harvested two weeks ago (for some reason it was way more mature than the bigger ones.) Then it got really rainy, and like a retard i didnt check on them for at least a week. Today when i went out to cut em down some of the buds are brown and gross looking, most of the leaves had withered and some had died completely, and finally there is a weird cottony substance in the main cola of one. Its a fucking bummer. Now im all pissed at myself, all i can think of is how excited i was only a few weeks ago. What should i do? Can i smoke the brown buds and get high? Should i dry them or cure them separately from the green ones? What should i do about the cottony stuff, should i smoke it or cut it out? This is my first grow so its not surprising that i messed up, but i feel pretty bad and some answers would make me feel better. Oh yeah, any suggestions on what to do with the leaves besides tossing them? Would it be worth it to combine them, the stalks and about a quarter of stems to make a brownie? Thanks, bless

first off...those buds with the cottony stuff on them....THROW THOSE AWAY IMMEDIATELY. thats mold, and if you smoke it it will seriously harm you. like, put you in the hospital with fucked up lungs and stuff.

the brown ones...id say throw those too.

cut your losses. atleast you harvest one good plant.

better luck next year.

keep everything and make honey oil with rubbing alchol if you need a receipe let me know its the only way to go in a situation like that at least you can smoke something and oil will kick you dick in the dirt. the alchol will kill any bacteria or mold.

Good advise UGU. Who doesn't like some oil every once in a while. I'm sure it would make the weed you do have last longer.

yeah ive made honey oil, but i think the yield would be too small for the effort and money. Do you think the brownies would work, maybe if i put some weed in too? wont the heat of the oven kill bacteria as well as alcohol?

Personally, I wouldn't risk it. I don't think you would want to end up in the hospital over this, would you? Besides, now you have gained knowledge about the dos and donts of growing, so you can make up for your mishap next season!