no one has to read this, didnt knwo where to put it, just allitle venting of anger

no one has to read this, i just had to vent it, and im nto the best speller or anything.


ever seince i was forced to stop smoking, ive noticed im getting violent, and pissed at people for nothing. i need to smoke, its what kept me peaceful, why cant i just smoke, it effects no one but me. i ahte this stupid shit. ive gotta do something or im afraid ill freak on some one and everyone will abandon me, ive got allot of problems, and no one understans how much weed was to me. it was a friend, a comfort, recreation, a hobby, something i knew would always be there, something i knew i could rely on, something i could never get mad at, something to look forward to everyday. i live for my dirtbike first, and weed second, but now without weed, my dirtbike doesnt seem to fill the void enough. now i know the first thing coming to most is, man that kid needs a g/f, ive gone through girlfriends liek underwear, i need a perfect girl that understands my lifestyle. eather they want me to quit riding, or quit smoking, and that just doesnt go well with me, and im not a person to keep things hidden from my girlfriend, i dont think i should ahve to. idk, my life feel liek tis falling apart seince ive been put on probation, and i dont knwo waht to do with myself anymore. my life is like a building. you cant jsut rip out a floor, and expect it to stand. idk i needed to vent this out before i went crazy.

sorry dude but youll get over it and also..............weed doesnt make anyone voilent......people make themselves voilent maybe a break is a good thing

Can't you just take some painkillers or muscle relaxers or some pill that'll mellow you out until you're off probation? I mean I don't know much about being on probation but I would take something that flushes out of your system quicker. I mean when you're on probation, is it just illegal drugs that they look for?