I'm about to fucking cry...

Ever go lay down to go to bed and you start thinking about what a fucked up mess your in? I left my previous job because they wouldn't give me a raise when I was doing triple the work figuring it should be easy enough to find a new job. I mean fuck, I work in resturants, though granted I was trying to get out of those kind of jobs. Which is prob one of the reasons I'm in this fucked up mess. So a month and a half later, I'm still fucking unemployed, bills will be coming soon, and I have a fucking speeding ticket to pay sometime in november. Not to mention this is the sentencing hearing, so no more extentions. And to top off being broke, unemployed, and a fucking bum living off my girlfriend; my grades are shit. I'm not doing well this semester at all. I'm not on probation yet, but most likely will be after this semester. I hate fucking school. I want to finsh, I want to get my degree in english and settle for some boring, but well paying, technical writing career. I can't leave college because I don't know what the fuck I would do without a degree. I could go get my real estate license, I always thought being a real estate agent would be a fun job. But if I'm working for a firm, they are just taking most of my money. Not to mention the market changes. One year I could be making bank and two years from than I'm having to sell my house... I've considered technical school, but don't really know what field I would go into... I just feel so fucking lost right now and I can honestly say I haven't felt this way in a while.

I need to change some shit. Sorry, I really needed to vent.

Everyone goes through this.

It's how you come out the other side that really matters. In the meantime try and get yourself a job of any kind. It doesn't matter if you wash dishes, it's a few $ in your pocket. That will help you to see things in a clearer light, and maybe you won't feel as sorry for yourself. Laying down and crying will get you precisely nowhere.

Time heals all wounds my friend.

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Originally Posted by JaggedEdge

bum living off my girlfriend

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You found a woman who will actually support you instead of you having to support her?

Damn man, what do you have to cry about? You're a lucky a motherfucker. I don't even have a girlfriend, let alone a girlfriend who doesn't expect me to be rich.

looking too far forward can be hurtfull, like bugging out about the real estate and tech school isn't something ya really need to be thinking about now. God bless your girlfriend for being there and helping ya out, now go find some stupid job to line your pockets. Just don't get me started on college degrees and careers heh..I'll bug out and write an essay on it! Most important thing about education to me is to better myself, to gain knowledge, etc, not what career it is gonna get me.

ps. ya damn well better be giving your woman a kiss and hug every time ya set eyes on her ;)

Definetly need to smoke a blunt and chill.

Already smoked. I was actually smoking a bowl as I was typing it. I'm feeling a little better now, the court date isn't until the end of the month. So I still have a little time to find a job or another way of coming up with the money. Looks like I may be dry for a while.

You can call the district magistrate re: speeding ticket and tell them you are unemployed. I did that with a $150 ticket. Paid $20/month for 8 months.

Or, if you're not lazy, you can always pay off tickets by doing community service. That's what I did.

srry to hear that bro but things always git better after thur really bad so maybe youll win the lottery or somethin

peace