how can you put a title on something you care about-ill name it efil..

wow...where do I begin well to start i will not worry about spell checker or

punctiation..

i want this to be str8 from the heart...and this is my thread so

that is how it will be.:rasta: :thumbsup: :)
you all no me as the yeag..or the

veag , asshole dumbass,as some call or just that guy you ignored, so be it it

is your right which i learned here.... i am by no means a pussy or throwing in

the towel.damn this sucks i have to stop every sentance to double

space..for your viewing pleasure... but that is commpasion..it is a start....

anyway..... i have always been a rock a soldier like the 1% of the world who whould survive a nuclear blast...

i still am that guy but ...finnally.... i am learning i do not know everything...this website is like my diary...eeewww sounds like a bitch..so what..

i got one now......oh yeah..i am completly sober..i new it had to be done this way to mean something to me:thumbsup: ..and thats what counts.


we will never all get along in this world, sad but true....i just relized

tonight ..that if all the left wing...liberal...not society norm kind of people

would agrea......then they..me would be the norm...,,,,,,,,,,,,LETS FOCUS

ON WHAT WE DONT LIKE ABOUT SOCIETY, AND NOT WHAT WE ,

LIKE. BECAUSE WE ALL CAN AGREA WE WANT CHANGE...but what? well who

cares were all ...at least in america..thats all i know about........sick of being

BORED.....fuck starbucks screw myspace, mcdonalds and cocacola can suck my average white cock.and pepsi dont get me started....generation what..ill

tell ya what im bored..thats why shit is getting violent, people beating down each other having sex with complete strangers to feel alive... shopliffting when ya got five hundred bills in your louis vitton wallet..

if we still lived in the grass huts we make fun of we would not have time to

be bored...i miss the shithole town i grew up in...no target, no fucking

wallmart.....we had it all...small mom pop shops...there gone..they all live in

fucking florida.....or god damn arizonia.....not that there is anything wrong with that.. i mean the two states mintioned...but where i grew up thats

where we all wanted to go...but to do what....play fucking golf to get exercise, meet our friends at starbucks....just for an excuse to talk to each other., eat some fucking pesto..and drink 100 dollar bottles of wine.


ill tell you what.. i am not unhappy just sad with myself i wanted the american dream....well i got it..you know what..i am not happy with what i thought i NEEDED, i used to spend like 30 $ a week in food.before i found my american dream...i was proud of that..i brought it home and we fucking ate it...
now i struggle to get out of the damn store under 200 a week..and i am bored to death i have tried chinese, japanese, indian, soulfood, ..stir fried, deepfried,,,,it is all the same shit..blah..

now my favorite food is an apple,,a plain fucking apple........i know this sounds weird.......i am fine for those who care..not depressed...just dissapointed...why did i work so hard..im only 28...i never struggled got nothing from my parents...just sob stories on how hard it was for them...shit it was easy...for me

i met a guy the other day i would have walked by but my 3 year old son was with me...the guy stopped to ask for change before i could ignore him or look down on him,,my son smilled when the guy said, hey is that spongebob on your shirt? he asked me for change,, i handed him whatever was in my pocket...and my son said daddy,,,give him my dollar.. then the guy said no son that is ok this IS ENOUGH..
i almost cried,,,yes the yeag ...i turned around and looked at him..he said yep

i used to be like you..i had kids probbably you got a nice car...i said yeah two...i had all that before i was charged with murder..lost it all those six months i spent in jail...i started to walk away then stopped... i said hey man you hungary

he said no i need a drink..i laughed and said at least your honest,

he went on for a while yadda yadda yadda,,,,he was released someone else connfesed to the crime but he lost it all...house cars wife kids..friends......thanks WILLY ON LINNWOOD AND MAIN for your story. i relized what i worked for a'nt shit it can be gone in a flash... it really does not matter what clothes you wear.. where you live...what you do for a living.....
.how did americans forget about this...i am the first person in my familly to

go to college, make 70,000 a year.. and i am the most distant uncaring

person in my family.. that IS FUCKING SAD..they all work lousy shitty jobs. church is not going to inspire

me....i really think i need to walk a few miles in someone elses shoes...yeah

not just one iwould rush through that..like everything else in life.... i just wish

it was not to late for me..but i got a starbucks , nordstrums wife..and a toys r us kid....what can i do.... mabyee nothing for the wife...but my son...i owe it to him to set him straight.

it is so hard to be correct in a bad enviroment...fucking m@m-not the candy the rapper..at least he is fading but the damage is done... every rich white kids fantasy.....we have tv channels devoted to video games...countless websites..haha..
to spend our lives on...god damn ....what happened to going to grandma's or

a summer road trip with the family.....well grandma;s hooked on rx drugs l

iving in florida spending dead grampa;s retirement on half gallons of vodka

and her new boob job....... and family trips...where would we go...another shitty

town with a PEPSICOCACOLA-STARBUCK-WALMART-TEXACO-TARGET-YANKEE FUCKING CANDLE-WELCOME CENTER..I THINK NOT...i hope the rest of the world is not so convienant 24-7-kentucky fried perfect..with 31 god damn flavours....

now really folks..i am not bitching i know i have it made... i am very content..but i do not want anyrhing more..i want something..i cant have...something........less....i know there are places like this in america..there everywhere....we call em bumfuck..arkansas..no where west virginia.....mabyee those folks are REAALY SMARTER THAN THE ASSHOLE IN L.A. sitting in his sl-500 driving to his 600 squarefoot 1.2 million dollar condo..........i don't know..but i am ready to find out...

this damn thread is not what i started to write i got off track...there was a cool ass commercial on for the next weeks episode of c.s..fucking I....we will finnaly find out who grissoms gay.lover.is .i can't wait..till next thursday....



i really think this was a positive thread..and a step in the right direction...i relize i need to do something differant...i can make changes...and who gives a fuck what other people think of me....as long as i honer myself and my family and my freinds....

welcome to the first day of my new life......wow i just looked at the clock it is a new day...just barely...i am sure i will fall every now an again but i have conquered alcohol, abuse, poverty..i can conquer this...but what is it.....that i am conquering...i think growing up .....but i don't know im only 28...mabyee it's america..mabyee i had it to easy and my real challenge is yet to come..like willy on linnwood... i don't know but i do know my soul...if it is still there is open...my mind is open...not just my eyes..i hope someday my heart will follow.

i have always felt like life was easy.for me .i have never put more time in anything in my life than was neccesaryy to get a good result..not a great result just good....hell i never have had to use my full potential yet to this day....

i was born to do something really good.....i feel it .....i feel alive...man i really need a joint...but i am going to go to sleep on this there is always tommorow...when i wake up i am going to do the first thing that comes to mind......after i kiss my wife, take my son to daycare...and smoke a big joint


the yeag-the pontiff of pot-the- asshole whatever....you want to call me is fine with me because i feel like when i wake up tommorow...i will be ready to live....i just gotta find out what makes me happy:)

wow..i took one hit of this new herb i got...feel better all ready...inspired but tired....i love sativa.not sure of the strain...now one last hit..some blueberry x northern lights.....sleepy time....indica mmmm

where would we go...another shitty

town with a PEPSICOCACOLA-STARBUCK-WALMART-TEXACO-TARGET-YANKEE FUCKING CANDLE-WELCOME CENTER..I THINK NOT...i hope the rest of the world is not so convienant 24-7-kentucky fried perfect..with 31 god damn flavours....

well i might have been on a rant but that was fucking funny

wow

I'm sipping a starbucks right now...

yeah they are so damn good..