i think...

i might be leaving... i'm quite depressed as it is right now, today is my birthday, and it just makes me realize every year my entire family (aside from my living brother, and grandparents) have disowned me, and they couldn't care less what happens to me... and it's just another year i've accomplished, nothing. but on to the point....

i no longer know anywhere to get weed, so now i have a wide array of pipes and bongs, that are going to end up thrown away... being here only makes me want it that much more, and there's absolutely no way i'm getting any, probably ever again... plus i have high blood pressure and that's one of the only things that helped me relax, even if for just a time, which makes it even harder to say goodbye to it all... i just really don't see the point in staying anymore since all it's doing is torturing me...

i'm not sure if i'm leaving or not yet, but i'm highly considering it... to those who hate me/always just want to start shit with me, congratulations you may no longer have to put up with me, those who liked me, just move on i guess... i'm really no longer part of the 'pot community' the only thing that ties me to it anymore, is my love for it (which is more torture) my bongs/pipes, and visiting this site...

where are you leaving?
stay here, chat with us. we enjoy you're company.
no one here hates you, well definately not me.
you aint going nowhere yet. i say you stay

Slipknotpsycho, don't be too hasty. Certainly someone can help you obtain some weed. There are people on here who care about you and like you, and we'd miss you if you went away! Don't you think this is just the depression talking????

Aww don't give up so soon, birthday boy! There's connections where you live, just please try harder, so you'll want to stay.

It's not a rule that you have to be high as a kite to chat with us, so stick around! Though maybe it should be.... lol.

Seriously, maybe take a little road trip every now and then and buy a few pounds to tide you over?

I hope to still see you around.

No, no.

I will see you around. Later ~

How old are you? I really wouldnt worry about it dude. From my experience I really just believe that as teens get older there are periods in our lives when we feel very depressed. After a few days (or maybe weeks) it'll go away, you'll probably feel like it again and again but dont worry man. In the end it'll all be fine.

happy birthday to you...

start over again bro, just fucking leave all the bullshit problems and worries behind and go start your life somewhere else totally different.....If your saying what I think your saying you mine as well try and make a new life.....what have you got to lose right

no it's not just the depression, i've been thinking about it for awhile, since everything went 'dry' and i knew that was the end, i'm not just a 'teen' i'm 21, and there is no where to get anything, i don't have it in me to walk up to random people and ask, and this city is a pretty dry city to begin with... and i highly doubt anyone here lives anywhere near me, closest would be probably houston which is an hour away.. i don't have a way out there, so getting it taht way is out of the question, besides.. we're not allowed to look for hook ups through this site.. i really do feel it's the end for me.


aside from all that, we don't really have the money to support my habbit anymore, it's hard to find decent weed for 10 an 1/8th (it's always just feel in my lap through some friend or my brothers or aquantances) but i'ts all gone now, person i was getting it from stole my 20 bucks and i ain't getting it back so i'm not going through him, friend that used to be able to get it, and even buy it for me, lost his job which is where he got it from (he'd give free tanks of gas to people for an oz or so) and i haven't even heard from him in a month, brother moved, and can't get it there..

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Originally Posted by slipknotpsycho

...i'm not just a 'teen' i'm 21...

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Oh shit, sorry lol. I didnt know, but still your young so I still think you go through your shit too.

i'm a manic depressive, high anxiety person with high blood pressure and no release... of course i go through shit, but it's not just 'growing up' or something, until i find a medication that works i'll be stuck this way for the rest of my life....