When was the last time you were truly moved...

....after smoking up? Up until yesterday...I had been extremely depressed.....I really don't even know why...anyway my parents left for a few days on Saturday...so I decided I was gonna just get completly blazed for the weekend. On Saturday I smoked..but I had stuff to do that night...so it was kinda killed...but Sunday I had nothing to do and was planning to be alone all day....so at like 4:00 pm that afternoon I made an apple pipe and just sat out on my back deck and smoked until I was out-of-my-mind blazed. After that I went up to my room, put on a CD, got into my bed and closed my eyes. I was fine at first...the music wasn't particularly depressing, and I was too infatuated with the inside of my eyelids to be affected by it anyhow....but that got boring, so I decided I was gonna think about stuff.... And for the next five or ten minutes that's what I did, I thought about stuff....there was no emotion, I was just completly lost in the my thoughts....I wasn't in my house anymore...not even my room, I was inside my brain....I didn't even realize I was still listening to music until something in one of the songs that was playing broke my little trance...the song was "Bad Day" by R.E.M. and at that point, it was the saddest song I had ever heard in my life...and I entirely broke down. Seriously, I cryed like a child cries...and I cried about everything. I cried about my relationship with my parents, I cried about my childhood, I cried about getting old....and you know, even though I was alone in my house, crying in my bedroom, I felt so good at that moment...so I just continued to cry....I cried about Jimi Hendrix (and I am not even that much of a fan), I cried about bands breaking up, I cried about Jessica Simpson and Nick Lachey breaking up, I cried about WWII, and when the song changed from R.E.M. to Dem Franchise Boys, I balled like a motherfucker. I cried until I fell asleep, and today when I woke up...I realized I feel better than I have in a long time. Though I still have no idea why I was so depressed before....it's gone and who cares now?

wow
thats almost exactly what i did yesterday
i went outside at about 1205 AM with a fat ass spliff of 2 grams
and just sat there and blazed that fucker
it was a bob marley spliff man
and i came in here posted a bit
then went upstairs to contemplate my life
i was as close to trippin as you can get
i laid there with pink floyd on
just thinkin bout shit
had a moment of clarity where i seemed to know how everything worked
and why we are here
and who we are and shit
and then i lost it
and fell asleep and dreamed of pleasant things
but i felt like shit this morning waking up sober and depressed
cuz these dreams werent true.... so i smoked the roach of that spliff
im pretty stoned

Crying actually makes everything better...
If you broke you favorite bong, cry.
If you just got beaten up by sum loser dumbasses, cry.
If your just really sad, cry.
If you wanna cry then cry!!! Don't be ashamed!

Trust me, youl feel better.

And if you don't, cry sum more...

Last time I was really moved was when a girl gave me a blowjob after I hadn't showerd for 4 days.. She didn't say ANYTHING!!:p

lol.. :)

Nasty yes, but damn.. That must be love!!:p

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Originally Posted by PaRaNoIa

Last time I was really moved was when a girl gave me a blowjob after I hadn't showerd for 4 days.. She didn't say ANYTHING!!:p

lol.. :)

Nasty yes, but damn.. That must be love!!:p

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yuck...im surprised that she wasnt moved to vomit....


my 2 year old(he'll be three on saturday) is speech delayed because of constant ear infections...on friday he had tubes put in his ears, and that same day he said oran-CH(orange) that CH was huge because his ending sounds were missing...it was amazing! actually choked me up...my children keep me moved...they do or say something cool everyday...:thumbsup:

That's brave of you to admit to crying in my opinion. I definitely know how relieving a cry can be if it isn't something that happens very often. I hope that makes sense... Anyways, I'm glad that you're life has seemed better since you woke up and I hope it continues to go in a positive way.. peace

Finding Tim, for some reason I think you're Shelbay's alias. Tell me I'm wrong.

Last time I cried, I was writing an email to MJITC explaining my son's condition. He's autistic. The email got lost and was never sent.

No sympathies, please.

Watched someone die...