Well me and my mom got into it today and she wants to send me to boot camp to fix my problem..I dont have a problem, she just picks to get pissed off at me at the wrong times...well actually I'm not doing well in school so I guess thats an issue. I really didnt have a really good day today and as soon as I got home I had to stay there instead of coming over here because she wanted me to wash her fuckin truck..."The god damn $2 car wash is right around the corner, take $2 out of your fuckin weed money and get it washed in less than 30 fuckin seconds" is what I was thinking, so I had to sit at home and wait for her to pick my sister up to come back home to wash the truck..I know they dont want me over here because they are jealous about my privledges they never got but damn, how low can you go to try to keep me home an extra fuckin 2 hours..anyways my mom came home and she kept gettin on my ass about washin the truck, every 2 fuckin seconds, I couldnt even get a chance to get up without her keep coming back in the living room "come on, get your ass up it's time to wash the truck", "hurry up dammit" just pissin me the fuck off. When I got outside all I heard was "nagnagnagbitchbitchbitchcrycrycrymoanmoanmoan " and I was already having a bad day I was just like "FUCK" in my mind and went inside...
I must remember to never get fucked up if I'm gonna be around some one that I'm really not liking at the moment because I was so fuckin mad, not just at her but at everyone that made today a bad fuckin day, so I'm sittin in my room, didnt even open the window I was so pissed and smoked in my fuckin room, it looked like a steam room when I was done, I opened my window and hopefully by now all the smokes gone (dad doesnt like smoke lol) but anyways I didnt plan on gettin that high but I planned on smokin more than I usually do in one go. Usually I have enough to listen to my fav song, chill out, eat food and go to bed with my complex dreams but today I smoked enough to face the madness but I smoked enough to face the insanity lol. Note I forgot when I get that high I be who I am inside, I dont think with my brain, I think with my mouth and really just turn into who I am really on the inside which is a fuckin animal lol....so I get back outside and I'm trying to tune out everything and just relax and not let her nagging get to me. But she just WOULDNT shut the fuck up, kept telling me "Oh you missed a spot", "stop bein so damn lazy!", "Shut the fuck up and do what I tell you", "Get yo ass over there and finish" "blahblahblah" everything she said felt like it was in a small word ball, and it just kept growing as a ball with all this nagging that she's doing and I felt like that word ball was an asteroid and I had to break it into pieces or it would kill me if it fuckin hit me so I kicked the damn bucket of water over punched the truck and said "SHUT THE FUCK UP!" then she got up and said "Who the fuck you think you talkin to?!" And she pushes me, I pushes her back and really just growl like a gorilla with it because I'm pissed the fuck off. You would've thought I was gonna have a heart attack with how much my arteries was pumpin..so she swings at me and everythings really in slow-mo so some how I duck and I'm on the back side of her, I could've busted her in her fuckin head, thank God I was high and not drunk, but I just realized that even though I'm really pissed off, I'm not gonna hit my mom and just said "I'm not gonna put my self on your level" and I go in the house, change clothes and walked over here"...I've been smokin too much and I feel like I'm gonna pass the fuck out lol, but all I know is if they wanna send me away, let 'em..if everyone agrees that I should go, I dont care..I just hope they really hate me because I'm definately not comin back after 1 and 1/2 years...If they send me away I'm gonna cause even more hell when they bring me back so they can send me away again, one more sentence and I'll be legally grown here and they'll never see my face again. So if they decide to send me away you all who actually like me being around wont see me for about...maybe 4 more years because I'm not comin around this place, not even here where I like it because when they know I'm out the first place I'm coming to live is here and I dont wanna fuckin see 'em so I'll be havin my own place and if I can afford it a little e-Connection so I can stay in touch lol.
