Lifes a Joke

Well i dont know if its cause i feel really depressed,
But im starting to give up on life,
Im almost graduating and I'm being pressured by my mom to either work or go to collage, Thats where im still confused, because I dont know what i want to do with my life.
High School is a complete joke, I learned nothing being there, except learning how to socialize. They force you to learn math that is for engineers, and when not everyone wants to become a engineer! The school system is filled with lazy teachers that are doing a horrible job and are just in it for the money and the benefits.

My family is a fucking joke, theres Tension between relatives, and we all live in one home. I think my mom and brother are hiding conversations from me. I just feel like an outcast and not welcome, IN MY OWN FAMILY!!!
Maybe it was because i fucked up in school and I'm a year behind my original graduating class, But I've turned my life around, but i just dont know which direction i want to go. Also to mention i grew up most of my life without a dad, Even though i know he's scum.
Its like my mom is wanting me to be the MAN of the house, which im not ready for, Going to school and having night classes is hard enough, shes pushing me to work. I want to work, but i get no calls back.
Life is shit, I know people out there got it worse and i shouldnt be complaining, but venting this out here is a good way to stress it out.
I dont want to commit suicide, i just want to be able to lay back and think of what my next step in life should be.
I wouldnt mind dying right now, but i wouldnt do it to myself.

just tell your mom to fuck herself and take a year off, sounds like you really need it man

I'm sorry you're going through a hard time right now... as my very wise Grandmother used to say, "This too, shall pass". I know it doesn't seem like it now, everything will work out for the best... you're going through a huge transition period, and no one likes change. Good luck to you, and hang in there! :)

dude you should be pumped to finally be graduating and getting a chance to start your life.
i would go away to school, away from all the bullshit, or just take some time off to do whatever. its up to you.

as far 'hating' your life and what not, man you gotta suck it up and do something, whether it's seeking therapy or changing up your life / lifestyle.
take some actual time to think about this, and don't just resort to something as hurtful as suicide.
that is by far the worst thing you can do to your family, no matter how much you think they hate you and isolate you.
my dad recently tried committing suicide for various reasons, and it has been almost impossible to deal with, and that's with him failing in his attempt.
imagine if no one walked in on him drifting off to sleep in the garage?

but most of that rant about the school system is flawed.
in it for the money? what money?
not all schools and teachers are shit, and I've always said whatever you put into something is what you get.
you feel me?


keep ya head up bro.

I dont want to commit suicide, And I am PUMPED that im graduating,
But I dont have time to think, I've been thinking this whole year on the next step and going to school at the same time.
A year off would be great, but that year off would mean me working for that whole year, which im cool with. But right now im just confused and I need like a month to think a Month of just nothing but thinking. But I know that would piss my mom off, since we are living very poorly. I actually have Hate for my mom, but at the same time thank her for all her hard work, but sometimes i just wish i wasn't born, so i wouldnt have to deal with this bullshit

Dude I don't wanna come across as a priest but you ever go to church or anything man? I mean seriously give it a chance and it will change your life. but anyways don't give up on life, trust me ive been in your shoes. Iam out of school 2 years now and ive been going to college. I thought I would hate it but its a totally diff. experience w/ people who know their shit and you have a chance to get away from home and be yourself as well as get to know what you want. so try it out man. but anyways hope all goes well.

take it easy.

Welcome to the enlightened world.

And your family isn't the only joke. They all are, in one way or another. ;)

Life is pain, and then youre dead... I hate goths but you dont seem like one

well if its a positive thought things arnt exactly going to get any shittier are they. The more miserable your perspective on something, in this instance your life, the more miserable you feel about it. Happiness really is a state of mind not a condition you live in.

table spoon of LSD does the trick.

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Originally Posted by Doctor mj

Well i dont know if its cause i feel really depressed,
But im starting to give up on life,
Im almost graduating and I'm being pressured by my mom to either work or go to collage, Thats where im still confused, because I dont know what i want to do with my life.
High School is a complete joke, I learned nothing being there, except learning how to socialize. They force you to learn math that is for engineers, and when not everyone wants to become a engineer! The school system is filled with lazy teachers that are doing a horrible job and are just in it for the money and the benefits.

My family is a fucking joke, theres Tension between relatives, and we all live in one home. I think my mom and brother are hiding conversations from me. I just feel like an outcast and not welcome, IN MY OWN FAMILY!!!
Maybe it was because i fucked up in school and I'm a year behind my original graduating class, But I've turned my life around, but i just dont know which direction i want to go. Also to mention i grew up most of my life without a dad, Even though i know he's scum.
Its like my mom is wanting me to be the MAN of the house, which im not ready for, Going to school and having night classes is hard enough, shes pushing me to work. I want to work, but i get no calls back.
Life is shit, I know people out there got it worse and i shouldnt be complaining, but venting this out here is a good way to stress it out.
I dont want to commit suicide, i just want to be able to lay back and think of what my next step in life should be.
I wouldnt mind dying right now, but i wouldnt do it to myself.

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