Thoughts...

It's over. All of the grief and despair I had held in for so long finally released like a good strong batch of duck butter. It was seriously ripping me apart. :D I literally feel like I have a new freedom.

I'm sure at one time or another, we have all felt like we have been trapped with no way out. Like there is no answer...
So many things in life are deceptive, so of course it's easy to get hooked into situations too quickly, without getting the chance to feel them out first.

I don't consider myself to be 'too good' for anyone in any way, but I know I have great pride and that I respect myself way too much to ever get into that kind of position again. The kind of position that makes a person feel bad about themselves... It's a terrible feeling. Everyone deserves happiness. What do you really have if you are not happy with yourself and your life?

So if it's on hand, take a toke for me. Today is the first day of the rest of my life. And the sun is out :)


~These are just thoughts I felt like sharing. I don't expect anyone to respond to this, but thank you very much if you have read this far :)

I'm not sure what the problem was for you Clev, but I'm glad a solution was found and you are feeling 100% better. :)

Thanks saw. I appreciate the fact that you responded. :)

Simply stated..I was in a relationship that was eating me alive inside. And I finally decided that it was time to stop hurting. Simple as that.


On that note, I have some lyrics that come to my mind:

Why do you tell me all these lies?
I just want to live my life
I don't want to leave my dreams behind

Tell me
Why am I only getting older?
My patience getting shorter
I'm running out of time
And I hope that I get what I wanted

This time's for real
Is there anything I wanted?
Is there anything I needed?
Anything at all?

Why do you make me feel denied?
Always pushing me aside
You do not decide what's wrong or right

Tell me

Why am I feeling so much pressure?
Am I searching for the answer?
I'm running out of time
And I hope that I get what I wanted

This time's for real
Is there anything I wanted?
Is there anything I needed?
Anything at all?




Hell yeah... :)

Yeah you have to make yourself a priority. When you are happy in life everything seems better. :)

I agree. I was in one of the worst relationships that I myself has ever seen. It's been over for a while now. And I'm much happier than I'd ever thought possible, partly in thanks to Mary Jane. This bitch wants me back... you know what? Too damn bad for her. I'll just smoke and..... hell, my mind went blank!!! well, you get the point. PeAcE!!

Congrats Cleve


i started in a thread recently that I used to be depressed, stressed, agrophobic, anxious, etc etc etc.. I hated myself, and I dont know why. I had no reason to, I just did. But one day, I was feeling like shit so I got high. I had a revelation. I put my whole life in perspective. I saw myself in 20 years, what would happen if I didnt get over this. It wasnt good. I saw myself now, how I was being stupid, Im a nice guy, I have alot of friends, I have nothing to be depressed or upset about compared to hundreds of thousands of people in worse situations.. After that, it was literally like the first day of the rest of my life.. im sure im going to feel down again in the future, but since that day ive been the happiest ever. I havent been depressed or down. Ive been revitalised. Like im a different, more fun-loving, happy, interesting, fun person and I love it, because this is my true personality.. being depressed doesnt suit me :P

anyway Cleve, congrats man, I hope this feeling stays with you, and I wish you luck

w0000000 h000000000 congrats babe :D:D

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Originally Posted by clevemire

What do you really have if you are not happy with yourself and your life?

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Those are some true words cleve. I think you opend some doors for me.

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Originally Posted by Omun

Those are some true words cleve. I think you opend some doors for me.

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Thanks guys. Thanks for your coments. I really appreciate them. :)

Someone recently told me that it's up to me. That I have to do whatever it takes to make myself happy, because I'll know better than anyone else.

She couldn't have been more right. She helped steer me in the right direction.

Thanks Lola :)

Makes me happy that you are happy:D




cheers babe;)