Lost 5 friends in Seattle shooting and 5 plants

I'm new on this board. I'm also new at growing my medicine. A short while ago I started to learn about cocotek (coir) as a media. I started 6 seeds the day I lost 5 friends in the Capitol Hill Shooting in Seattle. On sunday I learned the news. I went to the shrine to comfort my friends. That day I found out that the media was changing things at the shrine to get a more presentable shot! I was pissed. So like most of my friends I camped out at the shrine. I've been in newspapers, TV, print. I have tried to mourn my friends for a week now and only when I'm at home do I not have a camera in my face. They have camped out at our shrine, homes, and at the funerals. We have had to call police on them and finally now we have hid.

I've been a patient for less than a year, but like many of you I have been in pain much, much longer. At the shrine I had my medicine stolen. And when I came home....5 of my plants had dried up and died. All of my money has gone to gas for going to funerals and memorials, and feeding those that have stayed at my home so they can pay their respects also.

I didn't know if there was anyone out there willing to share a couple hours with me to help me medicate. I'm not looking for a giant donation. I just hurt so bad from the emotional side, and mostly from sleeping on the ground on a blanket in the rain and cold, to protect my friends offerings. I'm in the Seattle Area.
I desperatly need a couple of small pots to transplant some seedlings in. I'm dead broke. These 9 seedlings are my only hope for any future medicine. They are rootbound terribly. I have soil and most everything else, but not even a two liter bottle to put them in.

I don't want a handout. I'm just looking for a patient willing to share a circle with me, understand quite a few tears, and be safe from a camera when it happens.

My heart is breaking so badly. I don't know how to explain any of this to those that wern't connected. I just hope that I can find a new friend and start to heal.

-Winks

Also I'm willing to present a copy of my Dr letter with anyone that is willing to share a moment with me.

PS If Media has found me here, YOU MAY NOT reprint, quote or use anything I have said in any context without my expressed written permission.