A secret life?

I'm new to this forum, however, I am an old man of 39. I am wondering and have often wondered how many people out there really smoke weed and how often.

I love smoking and have since I was 12 years old. I've never been busted and I have a great wife and family. My wife and kids know how I feel about pot, but they don't know that I smoke it as often as I do. I get ounces when I can find them, and smoke out of a one hitter to make it last. I get high at every oppurtunity, my goal is to attend all of lifes functions buzzed up.

My problem right now is that I have no friends that live close by that I can smoke with. That really sucks, I am constantly putting out feelers to see if I can find some smoke, but keep coming up empty or to damn expensive. I've thought about growing my own, but can't figure out how to do it on the sly.

Why doesn't this country get there shit together and just legalize possesion and cultivation? I am a productive member of society that just wants to smoke a little weed to take the edge off of my life. The laws as they are, are turning me into an alcoholic. I would much rather smoke a little shit than drink enough to get buzzed every night.

Can anyone out there relate?

Thanks for letting me get this off my chest!!

Drew

whats up drew.im the same as you.i get high everychance i can.i work at a hopital and am surrounded by the public as well as doctors and nurses and everybody else.noone knows that im high.i have a 9 year old and an 8 year old and 2 year old and i smoke openly.i have no shame.just cuz someone says its wrong dont make it wrong.when i smoke a bowl in front of my nine year old he dosnt even care.i recently started growing and it is the best.you dont need much.maybe an extra closet or just make a box from plywood.there only plants.on this site if you establish yourself their are good people who will send you thru mail.but i suggest growing.im hooked

When I don't smoke herb, resonating affects from an 11 yr-old Brain Injury hamper me, and if I have to be legal, I'll get drunk so I won't notice them. But that's the problem. I was an alcoholic, so it takes me a lot to get drunk, but because of my T.B.I., only a little to act or show signs of being overintoxicated. It's destroying me. Herb should be handed out, by the government, to Severe Head-Trauma victims and paid for by Medicare.

Thanks brother for your words,
Growing would be great, but that doesn't help for now. I'll have to see if I can make some old contacts.

The thing is, that you and I wouldn't be surprised about people who smoke, but others would be REALLY surprised to find out that community leaders, church pastors, politions, business leaders, alike smoke dope.

Jonesin like a m f er, here.
Drew

ive been smokin weed for 4 years now and i smoke 4-5 times a week, sometimes less, sometimes way more

i dont have to hide anything really cept my mom doesnt know really how often i smoke

but she doesnt care if i smoke as long as i dont abuse

where you live.i can probobly send you a dime or so to help out.

Thanks, but I can't think of any way that would be cool. The last thing i need is for the feds to come knocking the door in for a dime bag. Not that they don't have more important things to do, but they would probably think it would be a good way to make an example or some shit.

I live in north west Indiana, so if anyone is near there, and has a connection let me know, thanks!!

Drew