Farewell :)

This is my last post on www.cannabis.com......yesterday despite the luscious growth i have managed to create the past few days, i have decided to give up growing cannabis....
I have put down all the plus and minus and i see more or less that it doesn't worth it.....
I am posting this thread as my last, a ''letter'' of goodbye to all those who helped me during my stay here....sorry guys if i let you down, with your help and advice i have gained invaluable experience and knowledge.....who knows, some day in the future maybe i will grow some bud again.....
Bottom line for me is that if you do indoors you must do it in your own property so as to eliminate many dangers of getting caught....that's it, what i was thinking and decided to quit.....
If i get caught i would lose everything i have and everyone i love...i would be a prisoner, lose all my liberties and privileges that i have now....my liberty comes first with the peace of my mind...
I can walk around and be as stupid as i would like now, at least they won't be able to imprison me for a reason like ''being stupid''......
Liberty comes first and this is something that money can't buy.....so, i prefer to buying bud instead of growing it, it's safer and wiser at this point of my life....
Take care everyone and thanx again for the company you have provided me with during my stay here....
I would like to apologise if i ever offended someone through my posts, especially on the politics section of this forum......


Goodbye everyone, time to start writting a new page in this book of mine called ''life'', time to become a daywalker again;)

NGOS:)

Allow HARD ON to Translate:

Possibilties:

1. NGOS had a bad dream where he was busted...and freaked out upon waking.
2. NGOS got really really stoned and a copter flew over his house and he panicked.
3. NGOS has all he needs and needs now to lay low and be cool and just grow.

I feel his pain and how sad it is that a fucking plant creates so much ruins for peoples' lives because of the repressive government dick wads who dont like it.

I have almost posted the same words in my times here.

He is correct, you cannot buy the liberties that this hobby risks.

I suspect I too will wake up one day and post the same. I have had all the dreams, panic moments and when high I tend to go to the dark side as well.

But cheers to you NGOS.

I forgive your misguided political views and wish you the best in your new daywalking :)

GOD BLESS you and may you find what is waiting :)

Take care.

I know exactly how he feels. I can hardly wait for harvest time, not only for the smoke, but also so thats it's over with and I can stop getting anxiety attacks every once in a while. The only place I have is my own yard. My wife is not too happy with my hobby but puts up with it anyway.
I have my local paper bookmarked and I like to check the police reports. It really grates me to read "a 34 year old man was arrested for possession of marijuana."
A couple a weeks ago some kid was killed in a driveby a couple of miles from here and they have the balls to bust some poor sap with pot? Who knows, maybe I might try the lowryder strain since its supposed to stay around 12' tall and I can relax more next year.

well it seems that i may have to complete 700 posts here and then leave quietly...in the dark...lol

well, i am the type of person who likes excess a lot, take my word for it.....i would never grow 1-2 plants or Lowryder.....i want plenty of bud, everyone who grows i know that can feel me...

it's not the first grow that i decide not to grow any further, i had another two so-called ''failures'' like that one in the past...i never threw the plants away with the fear that i would get caught....

this time is different though....i know i can grow cannabis, everyone can...i never said that i will never grow again....it's just that this point of my life is very crucial and important and after weighting the pluses and minuses and judging the whole situation from a wiser point of view, i have decided not to grow again before i graduate from the university...

yeah, i am still a student at the uni....getting the highest possible degree of education....it's just that i feel that my babies should be my books and not my plants, any type of plants.....

i will do great in my exams that follow up, as great as i did with the plants and even better.....so, i guess now you can understand why i have decided to give up growing cannabis...i am returning back to my priorities as when i finish i'll be earning enough money to set up a whole greenhouse equipped with the sophisticated equipment needed to grow fat enormous buds....but then again what would be the point of doing that?

i really have felt that i got obsessed with the cultivation of cannabis, days were passing one after the other and i would think of nothing else than my plants, i mean for god's sake i wasn't thinking of myself anymore....

i started feeling guilty when i saw this ''you're not addicted to cannabis until you start growing it'' which is rather true, don't you think?

more or less i have decided to rip apart the problem from the root.....no more growing until i finish my studies.....i have to have a peaceful mind, with no anxieties of any kind...in the fireplace there are 23 plants, drying waiting to be burned....when i burn them i'll make sure that every window is closed, i'll close even the chimney, time to get really stoned, hehehehe, it will be funny i think....

i needed some time to think what is important in my life.....i wanted to be alone and so i was left alone.....i broke up with my girlfriend and i feel good.....i disconnected the phone in my house and soon i will have no internet as well.....all these changes plus the stopping of growing cannabis have made me a different person...

i feel good, different, liberated from my old self, sure i still smoke cannabis but now it feels different, i do not care if the cops come into my house anymore looking for cannabis...i don't give a shit to be honest.....i have the lamps i have the equipment i have many many seeds....it is legal to own every one of them....it is illegal to grow it though.....

anyways, that's post 698......i am really done with the cultivation of cannabis...i had the idea of trying to grow into a closet or something but nahhhhhhh that's not for me.....i am the man of plenty as i foretold and i like doing things perfect.....so by the time i can not achieve perfectness because other variables affect my success then i should stop it and do something else.....i could still cultivate mushrooms which by the way are legal to grow;)



heheheheh.......take care.....

NGOS:)

new life here i come;)

it's fate, kismet...i really like number 7.....well that's times 100......take care all of you people...

special thanx to Zandor,Torog,Hardon,The happy chappie,Surrey BC for their help and advice and the people from the cannabis chatroom for keeping me company ....be well all....i am off...

this no smokescreen Hardon, i am really done man.....i will cultivate again in my own house or outdoors in my own big garden sourrounded by big trees, only!

Farewell people....

NGOS:)

Sad to see you go NGOS :(

Hopefully some day we will no longer have to look over our shoulders and fear for our freedom to grow this wonderful plant. Good luck to you and future plans! :cool: Peace.

No phone, no internet, no plants.....

Sounds like someone having a mid life crisis.

As for the anxiety attacks, fuck, just take another xanax.

Hello new life?

Everyday is a new life bro.....you dont need to throw out the kitchen sink to embrace it.

I too am an A type... :)

So I understand how you feel, completely.....

But life ebbs and flows and the trick is to not allow it to control you, but rather, your perception of it.

But you cannot leave. 700 is NOT the lucky number... Its 777.

So seems to me you got another 77 posts to run.

BTW....when you get around to growing agian, you current lights will be obsolete...

Why not donate them to HARD ON's fund?

:)

NGOS,
Sad to here that we have lost yet ANOTHER soldier to mindless regemented, idiotic, non-political, rightwing fuckers. Sorry to hear also that you are turning in your grow card (understandable, but sad nontheles). Good luck in your studies and welcome to another turn of them page. You will be missed, and when u do decide to retry the hobby that is growing this beautiful and mysterios plant.....remember us.

So long an good luck-emtpockets:)

Sad to see you go, you will be missed. I want to say thanx for some of the info you have gave me and good luck with your new and hopefuly happy life. See ya later.