i took my drug test yesturday

so i had to take a ut yesturday for this job that i just got. b4 i even went to take the test i bought one of those inhome tests to take and failed it. this really shot down my confidence of passin. so anyways i go to take the test and about and hour b4 i do i drink some water and take some b12 vitimans to yellow out my pee and i drink some cranberry juice. when i took my ut my confidence of passing was shot down completely when the lady asked me if i took vitimans cuz my piss looked alil green :confused:. i just played it off to make it seem like i didnt. after that when she was fillin out the form she was tellin me how much she HATES stoners and that they are just throwin their lives away and people that do drugs shouldnt get help from rehabs or anything like that cuz its their choice to mess up their lives. i walked out of Quest so bumed out and stressed that i didnt want to smoke the blunt that i had rolled for after the test. after about 5 mins of stressin i couldnt take it anymore and i smoked.

the blunt was givin me a hard time too. it wouldnt like right and one side kept burnin down faster than the other. the blunt also taked like ass instead of the berry flavor it was and i didnt even have a drink for when i got cottonmouth. so i had to drive in my car in like 100 degrees sweatin my ass off with nothin to drink. i mean it was the worst day that i ever had cuz i couldnt stop thinkin about how i failed my ut. i kno its not a big deal i can take it over again but it just bothers me that i did fail one and if i dont pass the next time i would lose the job i just got that i need so i can go back to school. and i would also have to tell my mom that i failed the drug test cuz i smoked and she doesnt like me doin it.

i just feel so depressed that i think that im gonna stop smokin for awhile :( :eek:. its sad to say but i just might have to until i feel better or now that for some small reason i passed my ut. o well i stll have my fingers crossed just incase i did pass.