I was at a girlfriend's house with her friend - both from my university. Anyway, like idiots, they wanted to smoke a bowl, so they decide that, instead of the spacious backyard with swings and a swimming pool (all this on a warm summer evening), they want t smoke in a compact car in front of the house - not even in the garage. So I stayed in there for a little while, smoked a few bowls and was overcome with crippling paranoia. My heart began to beat, and I looked down the darkened street, almost certainly expecting a police cruiser to pull up and bust us. I'm on a full scholarship, and if I get busted, i'll lose it. Anyway, I jumped out of the car, and stayed away from it. My friends were freaked out, but I told them I was feeling sick from the gin we were drinking earlier, so they bought it. Since then, I let them know that I think it's very stuipid to smoke in front of the house, and that we should keep it in her yard, where no one can see because of the fence.
A few nights ago, I went back to this girl's house, and she said that she was going to have a friend drop some smoke by, and that we'd chill out. Turns out, the guy wants her to drive to the ghetto to get some. As we prepaired to leave, two of her punk friends came by with some crown royal and beer. So she, like an idiot, starts drinking and decides that they'll go along with us. There I am, sitting in the backseat. I'm 19 years old, so if I get busted with alcohol, i'm seriously fucker. So, when she got in, smelling like alcohol; and the other guys came in, drinking CR out of plastic cups, cut with pepsi - Ewww - I just let myself out and left.
I am so fucking paranoid. This is a good thing, I think, because it will protect me. God only knows, Jail is not for me. I couldn't live with those fucking animals. All over weed? Fuck that.
See my cousin used to have the hookup, but now he's hit a dry patch, and I can't even go down to his house because his fucking cunt girlfriend gets on my nerves. So I've had to foster conacts, but this girl, who has quite the reputation as white trash, is the only way I can get weed.
I don't like her, and think she is a moron. Sure, i'd like to fuck her (she is cute), but she's a whore who's had abortions. Several. What I think i'm going to do is just to buy like 2 oz from her and just gradually break away. If she calls, i've got schoolwork. Perhaps she'll get the idea.
Anyway, it just sucks that there isn't some kind of delivery service for weed, so you don't have to establish false relationships with people for weed. God, I don't fucking care about her stupid whore republican mother - a pro choice right winger who broke up her marraige because of fucking another man - and her faggot friend who works at Blockbuster, and is a fucking loser. He just got picked up for Minor in Possession the other day, and I laughed my ass off.
In fact, I like seeing people go to jail and get fucked up. I think I enjoy the failure of others more than anything else. I have no real feelings of love or respect for anybody, and laugh at everyone.
It's been fun!!!
