12hr high

I'm not sure if I should continue using mj. the thing is when i smoke it i feel paranoid, anxious, and i get little muscle jerks through my lowed body, toes, and fingers. however i also get awesome auditory and visual hallucinations. although the trip is alright... not fantastic...sorta plastic....fake...i do it to escape reality. even 12 hours later my mouth is still slightly dry and my toes are still jerking. since my first hit ever i noticed that i still get little muscle spasms when im in bed that i can sorta control. the last time i smoked it resulted in a very slow subsiding of confusion and paranoia. i mean this was at least 18 fucking hours later! the trees still seemed ot breathe, and when i was driving i was still confused. then 48 hours later im still not sure about the trees and am feeling euphorically indifferent (not just plain iapthetic). i probably have something of a depression (i mean for the past 4 years or so) or just general indifference and apathy to life. so perhaps i am one of those who is susceptible to psychosis w/ mj? my whole immediate family has some sort of mental illness and both my grandmas too (and it's not senility for sure). anyways, when i am high i feel like some fucking schizo. i mean i checked it out on the web today because it felt jsut like it and the reasearch i came along pointed towards a link w/ schizophernia & mj. before i started smoking mj i felt already paranoid.... like i would shudder or shake when someone would call my name an dthen the person would say sorry that they didn't mean to scare me and plus when i was like 8-11 years old i used to think i heard a group of older men in the room next door and someone calling my name. i never minded the auditory hallucinations cause they made me feel less alone. so i don't know if i should continue. im afraid if i do it again it's goin gto take a long time to snap outa it and i don't even know if i will get over the high.... i mean on the one hand i can't imagine my life being anything worse than it is cause it's not gettin gbetter. and don't think im self-pitting myself im not just being honest. and don' t give me those self righteous comments cause u might as well talk to a wall. im just being logical and totally honest here. sorry for the length and horribly written comment but please let me kno wehat u guys think. thanks. by the way my email is

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damn i forgot how to edit my comment. i wanted to add that perhpas i am feeling so great now... i mean i can play piano now like i've never played it w/ memorization and feelings, and can sing like i haven't in 4 years,.... due to the fact that i have something so great to look forward to. i mean i haven't felt so much excitement about anything in years. i am looking forward so much to my next high. perhaps that's why i feel mildly euphoric or maybe it's still that pot?

With your family's history of mental sensetivity you may just have a low tolerance for weed. Try to smoke a little less next time and see if the anxiety is less and the musical appreication is more. :)

Best of luck!

Yea u prolly smoke 2 much buddy, When ur first starting u need to start out with lil bit and work ur way up. i wish i still got high for 12 hours, i mean sometimes i'll feel stoned for 1-2 days just not as strong.

Alright, I've been paranoid and spasms. The best thing to do about them is not worry, just relax and don't think about them. Concentrate on something fun intersting, or relaxing.

As far as the super extended high, its hard to say without more info. I always feel different for about 2 days after I smoke. I usually have a new outlook on some aspect of life, my mind is operating in a slightly different way, my body feels weird. Everything about me seems changed, but eventually things get back to normal. This is not a high, but it is kinda interesting and fun to me anyways. If thats what your feeling then cool. I would say in general its highly unlikely unless you smoked a shitload of weed to be high for more than 5 hours.

Concerning your schitzo-ness, don't know what to tell you. I guess experimenting to see if there is an increase/decrease in the abnormal thought patterns when you smoke would be a good thing to figure out. If you find that things get worse when you smoke, and you value your mental health then as much as I hate to say this maybe smoking isn't for you. Or maybe you should keep your smoking to just the occasional session. Sorry things aren't working out for you bro. Good luck with that.

yea the crazy lower body spasms will go away afew u get more used to the weed.id say i had nutty legs for 3-4 other times when i was still a newb

Just have like half a joint, and chill until it starts to ware off, then smoke some more, dont smoke too much until you are very used to it.

Whatever you do, DONT let your mind race about paranoid thoughts, watch tele and mong out, if you think about throwing up, you will go on a para and probably throw a whitey.

Smoke with your mates in a friendly atmosphere, even if you think to yourself shit my mum might be back soon, it can set you off on a para.

hi again. thanks all of ur comments were useful. the friend i smoke pot w/ is extremely laid back he doesn't really explain everything or maybe he's smoked os much he doens't know/remember anymore. yup, nice to know those muscle spasms will decrease once u get smoking more RidingHigh and that the 2 day pleasant "hangover" is not abnormal mono repin. Ill smoke less next time and probably @ home so that I don't have to drive 30 mi probably those 30 mi freaked me out w/ the prospect of uncontrolled driving while I was still high.. i suppose I shouldn't drive while high? I almost ran a red light and htought while driving that a wheel had been burst whereupon i stopped the car to see if it was ok which it was . ok, thanks again.

Instead of smoking at your house, where you might be freaked out about your mom finding you, just spend the night at a friends house. You can smoke in peace and not worry about your 'rents or anything. That's just me, though.