Love to grow but...

Gosh I'm so sick of being scared my babies will be discovered. Its just not fair. All I want is a few plants for my own personal use no selling or dealing. And I'm so sick of getting ripped off with wimpy pot that barely or doesn't even get you stoned. I have about 12 plants going already and will proably start a few more because this is just bagseed I'm using and its been my experience that about 1/2 or a little more will be male, then I may lose a few to bugs or diseases so I start more than what I think I need so I will end up with a decent crop to smoke, at least for a few months. It seems so not fair when I see the TV shows that people are making a living growing (actually making a profit from what I can see) and I can't even have a few plants in my state. I know things will eventally change but I don't think it will be in my lifetime. Meanwhile as my plants get bigger so does the chance of discovery and law enforcement being involved. I keep doing it tho as the other option is to deal with unsavory dishonest people who are selling shit. Then my money is gone and I'm kicking myself for even going that route. I have good luck in the last couple of years but have kept my grows small and I must say it is all gone quickly. But I do know one definite thing I will share with new growers: TELL NO ONE!!! Ihaaven't been busted or had my stuff stolen because no one knows and no one has happened on it. So I say keep on growing and good luck. And good harvest.