How to get to Priest-dom as an alternative to Suicide...

If anyone has an idea on how I can take a vow of silence (I've already been working on the celibacy-part), I'd surely appreciate it. I have no intentions of causing physical harm to myself, but, being in my life is slowly killing me. My world has gone from daily hell to heaven, to daily hell to heaven (with the devil), to living in 1960 Middle-Europe (as an individual who deserves to live in 1912 Western New York), and, pretty soon, I'm going to lose the rest of my working brain-cells. I hope my heart can handle that. :stoned: