Hi, I'm first year university student who goes to
university in Canada. First I'm asian and came to
north america for education since grade 10 without proper knowledge of enlgish so please understand some errors.
Anyways i had few times to toke before came to university.
But i refused all the offers because in asia u cannot even imagine the existence of cannabis so culturually i couldn't accept. Who would believe if i tell my friends in North America that u get jailed for openly telling that u've toked before even if u were famous singer.
Anyways i started smoking in university and so far i think i smoked around 8~9 times. Each time it was diffrent yet shocking experience.
To give some background i was somewhat trained in Buddhist philosophy. So when i get high i find some kind of spiritual enlightening moment that fits well to Buddhist doctrines.
Anyways, last time i toked i smoked one whole joint by myself. This experience brought me life changing moment and since then i threw all the left over weed which amount to $40 bucks, 7~9 joints... By this time people
will wonder what really happened to me. Oh well I experienced my existence starts to dissolve into nothingness as well as i was feeling total amnesia. Can u belive that i couldn't remember my parent's face, phonenumber, my face? It did happen... and layers of any logic just disappeared...
I don't understand.. can this happen? does this happen to anybody who smokes?
if this can happen how can people be not nice to each other and have narrow minded selfish thinking system even after the experience??
Now even sex does not interest me.. it is just physical binding between two different sexual bodies for pleasure which essentially does not exist by itself. Because if i believe my body exist... then sex can exist... and thus pleasure from it.
once you believe something exists then it exists...
Nothing can exist by itself. Everything is all interdependent.
Please leave some responses... i want to feel human again
