panic attacks are stopping me from smoking weed

im 18 and i have smoking since 13. i have never had any problems with anxiety after smoking pot until a couple months ago. it started with just always feeling anxious after smoking. that went on for a few weeks until one day when i smoked by myself and had a full out panic attack. it started by me just thinking about how i cant help getting nervous when i smoke pot and then suddenly it was like this nervous side of me took over my body and i lost all control. my heart was beating so fast and i could feel it through my body, my legs went numb and i couldnt stop twitching. i began to think i was going to have a siezure and though about calling a friend to take me to the hospital. it felt like i was having a nightmare but of course it was real life. i can honestly say this was one of the worst days of my life. when i would start to calm down i would think of what had happened and the panic would come back just as bad. this happened numerous time until finally i forgot about it long enough to fall asleep. i woke up about 6 hours later and i began to reflect on what happened. just that though scared me so much i began to panic again but i was able to calm down in a few seconds (just because i wasnt high anymore)

over the past month i have started smoking pot again. ill take small hits and will only smoke if im around people im confortable with. but never smoke if im feeling anxious about it because thats just settin myself up for a bad trip. i though that i was getting over this panic attack. i started to be able to take bigger hits and get really high without feeling anxious at all. maybe a little anxious now and then but i would just forget about it and enjoy myself. but a couple nights ago i took a bong with a friend just before he went home. my plan was to just go fall asleep. i had to go to school the next day. but i started thinking about my panic attack i started to freak out again. it wasnt as bad as the first time because i had experienced it before but it was still a panic attack. all i wanted was to sleep but just couldnt forget about panicking. evertime i though about it those horrible feeling would come back. eventaully i feel asleep at 5 in the morning. i still felt awkward the whole next day.

i hate to say it but i think its time to quit. i cant get high without thinking about panicking. i know its all in my head and the panic is created from within but im still afraid. its a fear of fear. i cant get over it. i used to LOVE getting high and i want that back but its not worth the risk of trippin out.

if anyone has had the same experience and got over their fears please help me. i want to enjoy pot again.