Okay, I don't know why but I've been a little concerned to post this, but I have to get everyone's opinion on this. I used to be a HARD-CORE weed smoker. Many times a day, everyday. Well about 6 yrs ago my dealer had moved to another county so I was dealing with someone I didn't really know all that well. Needless to say he laced my shit. :(
I didn't know he did till after I took a single hit off a pin J. A single hit! It had this horrible burning sensation that burnt all the way down to my chest. Not like the typical "burn" this was different in a way that I don't know how to put into words. My heart started racing (normal), but then my throat went completely numb. Everytime I drank some water or anything I would choke on it somewhat.
This went from a bad trip to a panic attack very quick. Not only was my throat numb, but all tactics to break the buzz had failed. I tried working out, taking a shower, drinking VD Milk, and Vitamin C. Nothing was working so I tried to lay down to go to sleep. Then I started getting major chest pains. I finally took some Tylenol PM's and knocked myself out. The next day I was still feeling it. I hated it. It had been a horrible situation. It was so bad in fact I stopped smoking for 5 yrs.
I've just recently picked it back up. Now everytime I smoke I have that fear. I have to talk to myself so I won't go into a panic. I have to keep reassuring myself that it's normal to feel "high" while smoking. That is the point of smoking. I smoke alone too which really don't help situations. I just don't know anyone else that smokes to be able to burn one with. The only person that I know that smokes is the person I get it from now.
I love weed. I really really do. even when I wasn't smoking I have posters, blacklights, and even bongs depicting marijuana leafs. I wanna smoke and not worry about the panic attacks. I'm on anti depressants which supposed to help with panics, and the such but it only takes the edge off. Do you think I should talk to my doc about the panics or deal with them myself? I still smoke I just smoke TINY portions at a time. Please help me with this situation. It would really mean a lot to me. I'm kinda spilling my heart out to you forum. :computerlove1: