This forum helps me in other ways now

I've been almost a life long smoker, at least since I was 14. I used to smoke daily, hourly, till I had a headache some days.

I recently had a drug test and I was freakin pretty hard, I've been at my job for ten years and have established myself as a top notch employee, without even the slightest blemish on my "report card".

I thought I was dead meat when the Dr. called me and told me that my UA tested positive for THC. When he told me his next call was to my supervisor I knew I had to do something fast.

So I made one of the hardest phone calls I've ever made to my Executive Director (who outranks my supervisor) because when all is said and done, my E.D. makes the final call. I told her that I had abused some marijuana, and that my UA had proven that fact.

She was actually very cool about the whole deal, and didn't really want to penalize me, but DOT regulations required some type of action. So now I'm jumping through the hoops, spending all sorts of money on an evaluation, and some minor drug therapy class.

That being said, I have had an overwhelming urge to smoke down. I mean a REALLY overwhelming urge. But I have been stopping in on this forum to see whats up, and I see (read) the threads about "what can I do, I have a drug test", and it really helps me deal with my urges, and keeping whats really important (my family) in perspective.

I'm can't guarantee that this is the end of the road for me (especially since I bought a fat sack the night before I was popped for the UA). But I have cleaned all my parafinalia out, stored my fat sack, and am at peace with the fact it could be awhile before I ever am able to smoke again.

So even though the dilution method and all the other stuff I tried didn't work for me, just reading the "Oh S***t threads has kept me from letting the cheba take hold again.

Thanks cannabis and keep those "what can I do!" threads coming. I think my sobriety depends on it!

Peaces.

Although weed is not physically addictive it can be psychologically addictive as you are experiencing. Basically you are quitting a habit and lifestyle that you have had for many years and that's hard to do. Focus on your goals understand what and why you are choosing to not smoke right now.

You may want to consider taking up some exercise, running, getting on a treadmill, basketball, whatever. It will help keep your mind off it. I found that going to a spa and doing a hot tub/sauna combo was very relaxing for me when I was getting clean for a job offer. An occasional massage didn't hurt either.

You will have some irritable days and some sleepless nights until you get used to not smoking daily. I went from a daily smoker, 1-2 joints a day to 1 -2 joints a week now. It can be done and I am very happy with the amount i smoke now.

Stay strong, brother and good luck with keeping the courage to do what you see as best for your family. There ain't any drawbacks to sobriety. :)