Signing off...for now...

Hey Everyone.

I need to take a break. Cannabis and Cann.com have been consuming far too much of my time and thoughts. I've been very lazy and uncaring at work and i really need my job. I'm a state employee fighting to survive all the state budget cuts and my recent pot-abusive behavior is not helping. I could get into it more, but i'm sure you all understand.

I was going to post this in the "i'm such a F@#$ stoner" thread, but seeing how that is more of a light hearted fun thread i didn't want to bring it down. But anyways...i'm such a fucking stoner...and i spend so much time smoking, posting, and growing, that i completely forgot my dad's birthday 2 weeks ago. That's hard considering my sister's birthday is 3 days before his and we had a party for her...

anyways. i'm totally burnt out. My work, home chores, and family are suffering because i can't get a grip on this. I love cannabis, and i wish to fight for what is right. But i'm not doing the community ANY good at the moment. I'll finish out my current grow with pics (found here: http://boards.cannabis.com/growing-i...ack-bloom.html ) and then you probably won't see me for a while. I love this place and all the people who have helped me. I'm sad that i have to leave for a while, but i need to get myself straight before i fuck everything up.

Thanks for reading, good luck. i'll see you all soon, hopefully in about 12-16 weeks...i'm taking a break from smoking until my NEXT grow is cloned, vegged, flowered, and harvested. (can't quit growing! it's the only thing that makes me feel organized and in control at the moment.) haha. so prepare for a cool scrog grow log that will be posted in it's entirety upon my return.

Thanks again.
Skeet.

Mary Jane never forgets a friend....:thumbsup:

Good luck Skeet, way to keep your priorities in line- you are a credit to stoners everywhere!
See you soon, and don't be TOO much of a stranger!

Hey Skeet... I gotta give you credit. It's a big thing to admit on a Cannabis site. I've been taking some time off the site (mainly because my babies are curing and I am out of questions) and it gave me some time to step outside my box and have a look around. I realized that I have been investing a LOT of time into all aspects of Cannabis, whether it be research or "clinical studies." ;)
I think this is a true credit to our lady Mary. She is spiritually intoxicating. Anyway, I have (in the past week or so) restricted my smoking to after 5pm. This is usually UNHEARD of for me... considering I would sleep with a bowl next to my bed so I could get that first sweet kiss of the morning...... then I remembered that I have a girlfriend for that. Haha.
I have serious.... serious anxiety problems. To the point where I couldn't leave the house or even take the trash upstairs because I was afraid to talk to my neighbors. I can say something now that I have never been able to actually verbalize... "Smoking during the day makes me ANXIOUS!!!" Haha such a simple phrase, but sooo hard for me to utter. I LOVE Cannabis, because she has helped me through too many hard times. She showed me the way to an alcohol and hard drug free life. She helped me stop my pack a day habit of cigarettes. She replaced about 5 expensive medications that I simply could not afford... BUT she was also making my anxiety spike dramatically.
Long story short... me and Mary finally found a common ground. Thankfully, I have found a medication that eliminates my stomach symptoms... so I no longer NEED to smoke to subdue my nausea.
I guess, what I'm trying to say is... I feel ya. Sometimes you have to take a step back in order to go forward. Like Dutch said... "Mary never forgets a friend," and neither does Cann.Com. We are all on this journey to find peace and happiness WITH or WITHOUT Cannabis. As much as I love and promote Cannabis... I promote individual happiness above ALL else. I respect the dedication to your job and your family... and hope you find that common ground that I have. Trust me, no matter how long you are away from Mary Jane.... her kiss will be just as sweet when you meet back up.
Good luck Skeet... your post meant a lot to me this morning.
:hippy:

Much respect! Peace and good wishes :)

verry big to put ur priorities str8:D

seeen many ppl put there 'drugs' befor there jobs and befor there children

big respect

have a happy 'vacation', God bless you and yours :thumbsup:

Skeet, a very insiring post... I too have been poring alot of my time and thought's into cannabis and growing research and these forums...so I know the feeling... I've to recently thought that maybe my priorities were getting a little outta wacked...so I applaud you:clap:... Good Luck in your journey through this crazy roller coaster we call life...

D:thumbsup:

Heh. Thanks for all the positive replies. i'm slowly weening myself from the boards. I only check them now when i get an email notification and i'll only be checking my email on lunch and after 5 pm.

I tend to be a touch dramatic. My wife has heart attacks when she hears "OH FUCK!!!" from my back room only to find out that all the fuss was over a paper cut or some totally stupid shit. Someday it'll be serious and she won't respond...

I've dealt with a few of my immediate issues and things are coming into a more realistic perspective. I need to be more attentive at work. I need to regain my short/mid term memory...i need to keep a calendar of important dates and events...and i need to restrict myself to maybe an hour a day to the boards...later in the evening if possible.

I'm not backing out of my original post. I do have a problem with cannabis consuming my every waking hour and i need to back off and get my ducks in a line. But coming on today to see all these kind words and seeing that i have stirred a few people made me realize that i have made a few friends here that share a very important common interest. You all have inspired me and i'm glad that i've inspired a few of you.

I have some self esteem and confidence issues in many aspects of my life. But on here and in my grow room i feel great. I feel like i have valuable input and i feel confident. and that's thanks to all of you.

I would really, truly like to meet my forum friends. I feel great when Stinky gives me a thumbs up. I laugh my ass off when Dutch spits one of his classic one liners. Every time i see a white van i think "hey maybe that's image Reaper." D4Twamp...i'm just getting to know you...but your user name is always stuck in my head...i don't know why...but i'm always saying to myself "D 4 TWAMP" it has a rhythm to it that seems infectious...weird...i know.

If there ever comes a day when everyone has a picnic or whatever...PLEASE let me know and i will be there with open arms and handfuls of buds for you all. And if a get together is a real possibility, let me know what i can do to help. it would mean the world to me.

anyways...i'm getting long winded here...

This is my hobby. everyone needs a hobby. I just can't let it control me.

a HUGE thanks to everyone who responded with encouragement. I will be around a bit less as i try to save it for my true free time and I will be taking a break from smoking for a few months (it's been 36 hours so far!).

Peace, Love, and all that other stuff that means the world but is often thrown around like a petty catch phrase.

Skeet.

PS - this was in my news paper today:

Marijuana smoker gets 30 days in jail

LOCKPORT â?? Danny Chapman, of Goodrich Road, Clarence, says he has been smoking marijuana for 30 years and doesnâ??t plan to stop now â?? even if it means going to jail.

Thatâ??s where City Judge William J. Watson sent him Monday, sentencing Chapman, 52, to 30 days for violating his conditional discharge for attempted seventh-degree criminal possession of a controlled substance. He was arrested in May in Lockport with crack cocaine in his possession.

Chapman said heâ??s not going back to crack, but in a lengthy argument with Watson, he defended his use of marijuana and his drinking as good for those around him.

Watson said, â??They like him when heâ??s drugged up better. Heâ??s easier to get along with.â?� But he repeatedly urged Chapman to comply with the requirement for drug counseling.

Chapman said he could obtain prescription drugs for his problems, but â??nobody can guarantee theyâ??re safe.â?�

â??You think marijuanaâ??s the safer drug?â?� Watson asked.

â??I have 30 yearsâ?? experience,â?� Chapman replied.

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Marijuana smoker gets 30 days in jail

LOCKPORT â?? Danny Chapman, of Goodrich Road, Clarence, says he has been smoking marijuana for 30 years and doesnâ??t plan to stop now â?? even if it means going to jail.

Thatâ??s where City Judge William J. Watson sent him Monday, sentencing Chapman, 52, to 30 days for violating his conditional discharge for attempted seventh-degree criminal possession of a controlled substance. He was arrested in May in Lockport with crack cocaine in his possession.

Chapman said heâ??s not going back to crack, but in a lengthy argument with Watson, he defended his use of marijuana and his drinking as good for those around him.

Watson said, â??They like him when heâ??s drugged up better. Heâ??s easier to get along with.â?� But he repeatedly urged Chapman to comply with the requirement for drug counseling.

Chapman said he could obtain prescription drugs for his problems, but â??nobody can guarantee theyâ??re safe.â?�

â??You think marijuanaâ??s the safer drug?â?� Watson asked.

â??I have 30 yearsâ?? experience,â?� Chapman replied.

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"I have seen what happens to the proud...when they take on the throne"-Loki......:buzz_saw: