On April 19th, 2008 My Father Died of a Heart Attack
While attempting to get his boat into the water to fish.
My 4-20 was laced with grief and the worst saddness I'll ever have. I would gladly have cancer again a million times to get my daddy back.
He was cremated and we have his ashes on the mantle. I have his ashes in a bracelet on my wrist.
He was 45 (his birthday was on April 25) and he was a healthy and active man. He was 6'0 foot and 190 pounds. He was an avid fishermen and a hunter.
He was also my smoking buddy. In the mornings he would come home from his job and we would watch Fox and Friends, talk politics, and smoke a bowl.
He was my best friend. He made me into the person I am today.
He taught me to never accept handouts and to have a strong work ethic. He made me interested into politics and it's still a passion of mine. He got me into great music like Zeppelin, The Doors, Floyd, Jefferson Airplane, and many, many more.
He was the best dad ever. I can't even begin to tell you all of the great stories.
I'm just glad that when the cops found him and searched his pockets, they didn't find his weed or his bowl. It's mine now.
Here's the obituarie,
Obituaries for Pittsburgh, Greensburg and southwestern Pennsylvania - Tribune-Review
On April 19th, 2008 My Father Died of a Heart Attack
Christ, your dad's younger than mine, and in better shape...
My heart goes out to you and your family, I can't imagine what I'd do. Your dad sounds like an exceptional man. I hope I get to sit down and toke at least just once with my father in my lifetime (he used to smoke, but now doesn't).
Once again, I'm so sorry for your loss, I can't imagine.
On April 19th, 2008 My Father Died of a Heart Attack
Thanks.
The whole situation is absolutely fucking killing me. It's like this intense hole has taken over my body. I keep on thinking he's gonna come right on through the door, ready to tell me about his fishing trip and ready to bitch about Hillary Clinton.
It hurts so fucking bad.
On April 19th, 2008 My Father Died of a Heart Attack
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Originally Posted by rebgirl420
Thanks.
The whole situation is absolutely fucking killing me. It's like this intense hole has taken over my body. I keep on thinking he's gonna come right on through the door, ready to tell me about his fishing trip and ready to bitch about Hillary Clinton.
It hurts so fucking bad.
I can't even imagine, I'm scared for my mom, she's going in for emergency hysterectomy in like 20 days.... She's got tumors in her uterus up to her ribcage, along with spinal stenosis (the discs in her neck are growing bone spurs on the inside, shearing the nerve cords). That's why I'm trying to make cannabis painkillers for her instead of vicadins and shit, that's why I'm growing even though it's a huge crime here.
But damn if she's dead ... I might as well die too...
I'm almost crying thinking about what you're going through. I've lost a lot of loved ones... I know what it feels like to picture their smile, and laugh, thinking about the last time you've seen them, expecting to come home and have them ask how your day was...
Fuck if I could I'd give you a hug or something, shit must be so hard.
On April 19th, 2008 My Father Died of a Heart Attack
While I could never fully understand what emotions you are going through at the moment, I do know what it's like to lose a loved one. While the pain is immeasurable at this point, focus on the good things. Remember all the wonderful times you had with him, cherish those memories for ever. You said he made you into who you are today, so in a way he is still living though you. Surround yourself with loved ones, be it family or friends, or even an animal. It helps. Remember to keep your chin up, and do whatever you have to to come to some sort of closure...
My deepest sympathy goes out to you and your family.
On April 19th, 2008 My Father Died of a Heart Attack
Thank you both so much.
I'm just glad the last thing we said to each other was:
Dad:Okay I love you, have fun and be safe, call!
Me: Haha okay Dad, I love you too!
Me and him are alike in so many ways. So I'm proud of that.
John and I have decided that when we have children I will name one of my sons after him.
It was because of him that I am a cancer survivor. He worked two jobs to pay for my hospital care, THEN drove me to Pittsburgh EVERY FUCKING DAY FOR 2 YEARS. Stopping on holidays and my birthday. He sat beside me when I lost my hair, and he had to shave my head. He offered to cut his own hair so I wouldn't feel alone. And when Make-A-Wish gave me my trip to New York City and Comedy Central he was there beside me the whole time.
On April 19th, 2008 My Father Died of a Heart Attack
Dear T, I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I know what it is like to lose a parent at a young age, and I know that this was a shock to you and your father's loved ones, but I can assure you that while the grief you are experiencing will gradually fade, the wonderful memories of the time you spent with him will remain. My deepest condolences. BA
On April 19th, 2008 My Father Died of a Heart Attack
Thank you for the nice words BA.
On April 19th, 2008 My Father Died of a Heart Attack
That's devestating, i feel for you with all my heart rite now. There's really nothing i can say to ease this tremendous pain. This won't be a one post and forget, you're in my thoughts. You don't deserve this. Stay strong and carry on in his memory. May he rest in peace.
On April 19th, 2008 My Father Died of a Heart Attack
Hi Rebgirl,
It is a great loss when someone close to passes away and what makes it worse as in your case when they are so young, but life go's on so just remember the good times that you had with your Daddy, also you know he would have wanted you to be happy not sad.
Your sense of loss will pass in time but you will never forget your Daddy.
Please accept deepest sympathy for you great loss and keep your chin up and be proud of your fathers memory.
Yours sincerely Greenthing.
