I suppose we really do go on...Forgiveness

Sorry kids, no talk of spraying sperm on some girls face here.

I have always told others that time cures a broken heart. Yet in my own world for the last 2 and a half years I have been holding on to anger about the destruction of a relationship.

I have always known that forgiveness is important for a persons spiritual heath and general well being. But I was unable to forgive my ex wife.

Our relationship went to hell after 10 years. It was a very bitter parting. I felt betrayed and enraged at how things happened. I considered her my best friend turned into my worst enemy.

I was having a rotten day earlier. I was getting some things together for my CPA and tax advisers.

I found this notebook and was just skimming through the pages and I found a section she used as like a journal. The first thing I read was something to the effect that "I will never show or talk to Unknown American about this anyway". I see this and I am like "Fuck, I do not want to deal with this right now, I have enough to deal with now."

So I close the notebook and grab my other things and the notebook and head off to my accountant. I get there and my CPA had got called away on some family business. So I am pissed, it is raining and I am exhausted because I have been under some stress.

I go back to my car and sit down. The notebook is siting there mocking me. I figure what the hell, the day cant get worse.

So I start reading it. I don't agree with what it said, but I understand what she said. I did not take it personally. It did not make me pissed. Nothing she wrote changed any of my views on the situation that we had. But the strange thing was, it did not bother me or upset me.

I closed the notebook and looked out at the rain pouring down and I actually felt at peace with it. The drive home was surreal.

It was okay what she said even though I did not buy what she was saying about me. The whole thing was cool.

I accept that our relationship is over and we will never be friends or lovers again. But I let her go today with no anger or hate.

It was cool. I am free now. I guess even I can learn things every now and then.
:)

weird how random things like that can help you let go....

dont forget to stop and look around once in a while. life will pass you by..:thumbsup:

That is nice...when finally it is gone..pure serenity..

I'm glad you've found peace at the end of that.

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Originally Posted by Unknown American

Sorry kids, no talk of spraying sperm on some girls face here.

I have always told others that time cures a broken heart. Yet in my own world for the last 2 and a half years I have been holding on to anger about the destruction of a relationship.

I have always known that forgiveness is important for a persons spiritual heath and general well being. But I was unable to forgive my ex wife.

Our relationship went to hell after 10 years. It was a very bitter parting. I felt betrayed and enraged at how things happened. I considered her my best friend turned into my worst enemy.

I was having a rotten day earlier. I was getting some things together for my CPA and tax advisers.



I found this notebook and was just skimming through the pages and I found a section she used as like a journal. The first thing I read was something to the effect that "I will never show or talk to Unknown American about this anyway". I see this and I am like "Fuck, I do not want to deal with this right now, I have enough to deal with now."

So I close the notebook and grab my other things and the notebook and head off to my accountant. I get there and my CPA had got called away on some family business. So I am pissed, it is raining and I am exhausted because I have been under some stress.

I go back to my car and sit down. The notebook is siting there mocking me. I figure what the hell, the day cant get worse.

So I start reading it. I don't agree with what it said, but I understand what she said. I did not take it personally. It did not make me pissed. Nothing she wrote changed any of my views on the situation that we had. But the strange thing was, it did not bother me or upset me.

I closed the notebook and looked out at the rain pouring down and I actually felt at peace with it. The drive home was surreal.

It was okay what she said even though I did not buy what she was saying about me. The whole thing was cool.

I accept that our relationship is over and we will never be friends or lovers again. But I let her go today with no anger or hate.

It was cool. I am free now. I guess even I can learn things every now and then.
:)

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If after reading something like that you feel peace, then you're on the road to recovery. Keep looking for the Horizon, my friend.