I feel like a horrible person...im so bummed

So lately ive been kinda obsessed about losing weight and working out. But im doing it for the wrong reasons. Lately all I can think about is John's friends. I kinda have a thing for one of them and I am in no way going to act on it BUT I want them, especially the one to think im sexy. That is, alot hotter than his girlfriend. I have no idea why im acting like this but its all I can think about. Im even going to join the freaking gym next week so I can loose weight and firm up. I just want his friends to think im hot. I know this is shady and horrible but I feel this need to be better than the other girls there. Even if I wont act on it. Ugh.

What do you girls and guys think? Am I going insane? Is this bad motivatation? I think it is but I think its going to work. This may just be the thing that keeps me on the right track. To lose more weight and improve myself.

And please, no mean comments. Its not what I need right now. I think im going manic (Im bipolar) and my mind keeps on racing about this. Nothing is helping. And I can't tell John so I just needed someone to rant to.

Well working out is never a bad idea so i say go for it! Your probly fine the way you are so either way its all good :)

Yeah bro.. Thats all good! Don't stress it, I've been in the same position (not the working out bit, the having a thing for my girls mates bit), it pretty much blows over really quickly, and you get to see that you'd much rather stay with your girl/boy in the long run. Sweet! :)

What girl doesn't want attention ya know?

I'm sure it's natural to feel that way. Don't worry about it.


(probably gonna get moved to sexuality forums soon)

well id never actually act on it but its still running through my head all damn day. Its like a drug...a bad drug. The high that I get just thinking about it is, well it doesnt really have a word for it.

Who doesn't like drugs... i mean honestly

I guess anything that motivates someone to workout is good, but you should explore your relationship with John a little harder. If you have a thing for one of his friends, how can you really be committed to him? My wife and I have been married for over 13 years now and even though she has some very hot friends, I can honestly say I've never had a "thing" for any of them. Looks are a very small part of a relationship, and if there is more to your "thing" than looks, then you seriously have some thinking to do. This is just my opinion and it is not intended to be a judgment of you. I'm just offering you my two cents.

Pretty much everyone I know haha.

Theres nothing wrong with my relationship with John. Ive never been happier in my life and I cant wait until we get married. Ive never cheated on him and I wouldnt start now. I think my "thing" for his friend is harmless and theres nothing wrong with thinking about other people than your signifigant other. As long as you don't act on it.

And I assure you, looks arent important to me. Its the inside of John that I care about. He's why im still alive and breathing. But I love how you would assume that im shallow and that since I have a slight crush im obviously not committed..nice

You obviously did not read my post very clearly...and that tells me all I need to know. Good luck!