My thoughts for the evening

Weed helps me forget my position, rather than fortiy it.

Weed has contributed towards my depression. Not a cause by any means but certainly a factor which has negatively affected it or affected the healing.

This is not a physical, or psycological effect, on the contrary I enjoy both areas of weeds effects and believe it has expanded my mind and the way I perceive reality in a good way.

A realisation that I use weed as a crutch, to put off dealing with my problems has led me to believe this about weed's affect on my life.

Whether this will lead me to quit..or cut down...or smoke more..I don't know. The positives and negatives are too well balanced.

Maybe approach weed in a different way.

Maybe an entirely different area of my life is lacking leading me to focus on another outlet (weed) and abandon the search for the true problem.

Its all too ying and yang.




On a largely unrelated note. I was in a really bad mood for about two hours today until I thought back to before the bad mood...when I was relatively happy and realised nothing had happened to put me in the bad mood.

I thought this was a nice showcase of the power of retrospective and I believe this will lead me to analyse my emotions, conversations and experiences more effectively by thinking of the causes and influences of a situation and its journey to the present.



Incidently, believe this or not. I am not under the influence of anything tonight.


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yeah......

Just remember, that when you're struck down by God, or someone other than God, Weed will always be there to provide a crutch. Sometimes it is backwards, and, you don't need to push anything off because Pot is there to help you push it. Life can give you problems that only the Earth can comfort.