Why

[Ammie]

why did he do it?
what was his reasoning?
is life really that bad?
to ended it before it has begun?
I just dont understand.
He was so young.
had so many good times left.
But he took his life. y?
I will never understand.
He had so much goin for him.
a fun person, charming personality.
Great listener, and now hes gone!
Im so mad.
So hurt, and confused.
I walk out side and screamed to god.
"god if u are real then y did this happen"
"why did he do this, y didnt u stop it"
"ur the almighty, but u couldnt stop this"
I watched as he slowly took that knife to his wrist.
I sat there helpless with no way to get to him.
I seen his mother drop to her knees in pain for her son.
And all for no reason. just because he thought he couldnt handle life.
How many other people are we goin to lose like this?
We have to do sumthing to reach these kids.
Or we will have to continue to see this happening more and more.
I feel so angry with him for makein me watch it , and seein him suffer.
With no way to reach him, no way to get to where he was and get him help.
Life is so precious yet we take it for granted.
Its time to stop diein and start living.
Stop feeling sry about our lives and do sumthing to change them.
Its time to stand tall, stand strong, and make life better.
We have to stop makein excusses.
We are the only ones that can make life better for us.

[Stingray]

That one hit a sensitive nerve that's been burried by the past and present...In this new world of comunication we still manage to feel alone and lonely...Makes you question everything we have come to know as life...

[geoffrowley19]

awwww, im sorry that happend to u ammie and to the kids family and shit, but life goes on :)

[RESiNATE]

Your post reminds me why I don't/won't/can't do it, Ammie.
Sometimes people can't see beyond their own despair; it consumes them to a point of madness and confusion and hurt and pain...we ask ourselves those same questions that you asked your God...and we hear no answers, get no comfort, and the will drains a little more each day.
Sometimes, we ask ourselves why we continue to put ourselves through the same old routine every day - why we wake up feeling sad, and go to bed feeling no better.

It is easy for those outside of the depression to say "Pick yourself up, make your life better!"...it isn't always that easy, I'm afraid...and some succumb to their darkness.
I try my hardest to bury my darkness...try so hard to see the hope of my dreams...I count my blessings, and scorn myself for being so damned self-pityfull, when I see people in a far worse state than I....and yet, each person's darkness has it's own degree of pain that noone else can truly understand.

It is those that are left behind, that have to carry the guilt and pain.
Those that remain have to ask the questions; Why did it get so bad for them? Why was I so helpless to offer them comfort? Why did I let them down?

You didn't let them down, Ammie.
You did all that anyone could have done.
It's not your fault, you aren't to blame :)

Sometimes, things get a bit weird....and there's nothing that anyone can do :o

We're here if you need to scream...just holler, ok?
Res...

[Imotep]

wo-serious?
shit.

[GooseBear]

I'm here to talk........my boyfriend watched his best friend die in an accident that his friend's dad caused that killed. He had to watch as the father ran and threw his body ontop and cryed out WHY.....even now when I think of him telling me it makes me cry and I wasn't even dealing with that it's just that I care for him so much......maybe I can help?

[Day Dreamin Faze]

I can never imagine being in that type of situation having to watch another human being do somthing like that to themself's,it really is putting chills down my spine and making me think of how i would feel in that situation but my mind cannot imagine it its somthing we all hope we never see.God bless his family hope you feel better.

[BigVTDave]

Why? Because God is God.

He has his master plan for us all. It is too large to see or comprehend.

Life happens. Most of it is good. Some of it is fucked up.

Realize, I mean this in only positive ways of support... a different perspective perhaps. I'm am so terribly sorry for your loss and words can't say enough.