Life changing moments

[crudemood]

What are some things or events in your life that has turned you around completly, something or someone that has defined or influenced what you are and what you will be for the rest of your life?

Cmon, let it out. :)

[BabyFacedAbortion]

My parent's divorce changed me,
the day I got arrested,
the day I first smoked weed,
the day I met my exboyfriend
the last day I saw my exboyfriend,
12-01-06 (the day my boyfriend asked me out),
hmmm
A lot has changed me/made me who I am.
I'm still experiencing shit too,
I'm only 17!

[Nochowderforyou]

In junior high someone pulled down my pants, but not only did they get my pants, my undies came with it. After that everyone called me the Anteater. Due to not being clipped and having an odd shaped penis. :D It changed me forever.

[slipknotpsycho]

not having parents
having my brother murdered
having my son
having to watch my wife lay in pain with a broken leg (femur of all the bones... the fuckin hardest to break) after being slammed into a brick wall by a car
growing up
working (kinda goes along with growing up, learning what my actions ended up costing other people)
getting married
going from rich to poor (we were never really 'rich' as the money wasn't technically ours, but when i was way littler my grandma had over 10 credit cards... then a bunch more like the jc penny's card, sears card, conns card, lowes card, home depot card that type of shit, credit cards that only work in said store)

just a few.

[The Figment]

Going to a Charlie Daniles/Marshall Tucker concert back in 1977 at Raceway Park in Englishtown NJ, I turned the corner and saw Shakedown St for the first time...my friends did'nt tell me that the Dead was going to be there. Never Been the same. :)

[thcbongman]

I guess there's a chain of events that will forever change the rest of my life. I'm still going through the changes, but 2006 is a year of great joy, and deep sadness, but this is the year I discovered what it's means to really suffer, and finding gratitude of how life is wonderful and precious.

It all started back with falling back in love with my ex-wife, who has a deep impact on who I am. There is no other woman that knows me better than I know myself, and probably will never find another like that. After about 4 months, we parted ways. The things she said, it foreshadowed things to come, in a way, became true. I headed on a destructive path of partying, and stop looking at anyway to move forward in life, By then lost a clear view on life through doing too many psychedelics. I quit going to school, my work-ethic at work started to deteriorate. I started getting consumed by issues that weren't important.

The 2nd event was getting arrested in another state for poss. of marijuana and cocaine with a couple of friends and my brother. It couldn't come at a worse time since I needed my clearance for my job renewed. About 3 weeks later, the government found out about my charges because I forced to admit them filling out the form, and escorted me out of the building. My company put me on administrative leave without pay, which I thank god everyday or I would've been screwed because of what happens next.

I find out I have cancer a month later. Living through it, chemotherapy, spending all this time recovering gives me a newfound appreciation on life. I discovered peace in myself, and has given me an optimistic outlook on life. I stopped doing other drugs, just sticking to the ganja. It has given me an idea of where I want to go next, when all this is over, I'm going to find a way to help others, to make a difference even if it's a small one. Some way, some how, that's my direction.

[BabyFacedAbortion]

Figment = uber lucky!

[thcbongman]

Going to a Charlie Daniles/Marshall Tucker concert back in 1977 at Raceway Park in Englishtown NJ, I turned the corner and saw Shakedown St for the first time...my friends did'nt tell me that the Dead was going to be there. Never Been the same. :)

All I can say is, man you are lucky!

[Matt the Funk]

Uhhh some things off the top of my head
Parents working all the time-not seeing them much
First time I go high changed me a lot too
2nd time I did DXM-really fucked up my head and landed me in mental/drug rehab
3rd time I did acid kind of changed me.
Uhh I dunno a lot of little shit changes who I am completely everyday, i'm just not stable :p

[BizzleLuvin]

1. when i ran away from home for two weeks and ended up at Amber's Arms, a shelter for troubled youth. i realized that no matter how bad i feel, there's always someone who has it worse. and always someone who has it better.
2. my first 'true' acid trip when i relaized that its okay not to believe in god or have a religion. i've never felt more satisfied about my beliefs.
3. my senior year of high school when i met Beth, a janitor in my school. sshe taught me about socialism, marx, the economy, and utopia. she definetly wasnt a janitor, she was my sense. she taught me how to be an activist.

[Breukelen advocaat]

Running around in the streets of Brooklyn at five years old, without adult supervision, got me off to a good start in the School of Hard Knocks.

[Markass]

Too many moments to name...the most recent..I quit smoking cigarettes after nearly 7 years or so. I work out/exercise now..am actually in shape, don't have that nasty cough..still have a cough, but only when I'm smoking weed..not anything like cigarette cough. Food tastes a lot better now I have a much better sense of smell...my hands aren't colder than the rest of my body when it's a bit cool outside...I'm hoping that I don't have cancer already and so long as I don't I could've prevented that...and I'm no longer going to die because I smoke cigarettes. Life changing moment if you ask me..already enough ways for me to die, don't need a guarantee from cigarettes as well..I'm done with em.

[Markass]

My parents were both alcoholics and beat the shit out of each other every night for the first four years or so of my life...can't say it changed my life much..but I can now look back on that..and to when I used to be a heavy drinker a couple of years ago. I never would want to do anything like that to my family..EVER. Which is why I don't drink...very occasionally..within the past eight months I've had probably three shots of rum and a couple of beers..nearly every day before then for quite a while.

Well, if that taught me anything, it's precisely how NOT to raise my children. I think I'll stick to marijuana...

[divestoned]

The most life changing thing for me is my boys.Now i have to live in constant fear that they may get hurt, get there feelins hurt, or that i may not be doin all I can for them.Kids make life alot scarier ...I have alot to lose now.

Dive:stoned:

[Wesley Pipes]

no one event has defined who i am.... but one day i will never forget, is the day i came home from college to the news that my Grandmother had been stabbed... thing is, i dunno if it made me a better person or not, cuz whenever i think about it, i visualize in my head, him attacking her, i'm filled with such a rage that i can't tell whats right from whats wrong.

i don't know if i want him to be released from prison or not, for fear of what I might do

[crudemood]

some good responses, i know there more than 15 ppl on this site, cmon let me hear more, its really interesting.

[conch420]

definatley the biggest change in my life was the first day i toked, i decided to completly turn into a stoner, and basiclly started a new life, i love it and have never looked back

[Goin_easy]

~My parents divorce, selling the house I grew up in, after the divorce.
~Getting my first car, a Camaro. Its been my hobby modding it and racing it since I was 16.
~Going on a school trip to Greece. It was the best trip Ive ever been on and will never forget it.
~Getting an apartment with my girlfriend.
~Smoking weed hasn't really changed my life style Ive always been a very relaxed & layed back person. Weed just enhances my everyday life, and I love it.

I think these are a few things in my life that have either influenced me or have changed my life. Some great some devastating.



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[Kid Dynamite]

The first day i smoked up..cant imagine what i'd be like now if i'd never met the herb...

[JohnGalt]

Going to a peace protest and meeting people who have lost everything to war. I've become a much more peaceful and nicer person since then.

When I gave up my faith. I realised I had been living a lie, and once I realised my true beliefs, I've been an overall nicer and happier person.

[Genuine17]

saving somebodys life

[CanaDanKs Inc.]

I find out I have cancer a month later. Living through it, chemotherapy, spending all this time recovering gives me a newfound appreciation on life. I discovered peace in myself, and has given me an optimistic outlook on life. I stopped doing other drugs, just sticking to the ganja. It has given me an idea of where I want to go next, when all this is over, I'm going to find a way to help others, to make a difference even if it's a small one. Some way, some how, that's my direction.

Wow, you sir, are a brave soul!


As for what changed me...

~ Parents' divorce;
~ Waking up in the middle of the night and seeing my home on fire;
~ The death of my Father, and all the unnesessary drama that came with it;
~ Moving to California from Quebec, Canada;
~ First taste of the Holy Herb;
~ First psychedelic experience--fall of Spirituality;
~ Finding my Personal Legend, and living it--finding Spirituality once again.

:jointsmile:

[friendowl]

5 of us were kicking back
we didnt even smoke or drink yet
but we did have guns around

one of the homies wanted to play russian roulette
i like my life so i chose not to get involved

one of the guys who i guess didnt know much about
how guns work put the bullet in the chamber and spun it

the bullet stopped just before the holeso he assumed
that when he pulled the trigger the hammer would hit nothing

but what he didnt realize was that when you pull the trigger
thebullet thing moves and he shot himself straight in the head

i wasnt paying attention but when i heard th shot my stomach dropped
i couldnt belive what my eyes were seeing

since that day ive realized how easy it is to die
that day changed me

[AsianStoner420]

After my grandmother died, shes the one who raised me..it changed me
Not seeing my parents for 14 years since birth,... after my grandma died my aunt took care of me,..then all of a sudden they moved me here on Japan, that shit really changed me i mean i dont even know who I am anymore,.. after getting here,a new lifestyle, new friends,new way of doing things,new everything but it seems to be that i dont wanna be like this 4ever, i want to be the old me, the old me sucked ass but i love it,... and yeah smoking weed did changed me,...

[Fengzi]

Some big impacts on my life:

12yo- The first time I smoked weed- need I say more

15 yo-My first Grateful Dead show-I had never even heard them before but became an instant Dead Head

15 YO- The first time I did shrooms and the first time I did acid- You can't do hallucinogens and not have it impact your outlook on life.

22 yo-the day I tried to give CPR to a girl who had fallen off a motorcycle w/o a helmet. She had blood coming out of her nose, eyes, ears and mouth. I'd breath air into her and it would come out as a bloody, bubbly froth. Worst of all was the fact that her eyes were open, staring up at me the entire time. She didn't make it. Those open, dead, eyes haunted me for months.

25 yo- The day Jerry Garcia died- The thought of not going to another Dead show was a tough pill to swallow. Being a Dead Head and going to the shows was a big part of my life, Suddenly it was over.

26 yo- The day I stepped off the plane in Shanghai, China for an extended stay. My first experience living in a radically different culture.

26 yo-The day I met my wife- Love at first site, seriously.

34 yo- The day my daughter was born- The single most incredible day of my life. Nothing before, or probably after, can come close.

[orangeman]

I guess the day I thought I was pretty much gonna die from an overdose lol. I thought I was smoking much more than just marijuana. Thought it was laced and started doing very deep research on weed and other drugs. As I began to read more I began to become very interested in Cannabis. I think if that day never happened I wouldn't appreciate Cannabis as much as I do now. Sounds funny but when I was experiencing it nothing was laughable about it. I was 100% positive I was out of here.

[Andrew Nguyen]

Got dumped by my ex.
Started smoking heavily

That's about it.

[Pipe Dreams]

The first time I stepped on a skateboard was a big turning point in my life
also, almost getting hit by a semi truck really fucked with me for a while
the first time I tried weed of course
Im still not right from all the acid

[skatin_foo15]

Had a stoner revelation after smoking alot with my homie, my whole outlook on life changed instantly and it hasnt gone back to the same. It made me start trying to straighten out my life and stop smoking so much, given i wasnt really smoking alot it just seemed dumb i was smoking that much haha.

[The Figment]

Some big impacts on my life:

12yo- The first time I smoked weed- need I say more

15 yo-My first Grateful Dead show-I had never even heard them before but became an instant Dead Head

15 YO- The first time I did shrooms and the first time I did acid- You can't do hallucinogens and not have it impact your outlook on life.

22 yo-the day I tried to give CPR to a girl who had fallen off a motorcycle w/o a helmet. She had blood coming out of her nose, eyes, ears and mouth. I'd breath air into her and it would come out as a bloody, bubbly froth. Worst of all was the fact that her eyes were open, staring up at me the entire time. She didn't make it. Those open, dead, eyes haunted me for months.

25 yo- The day Jerry Garcia died- The thought of not going to another Dead show was a tough pill to swallow. Being a Dead Head and going to the shows was a big part of my life, Suddenly it was over.

26 yo- The day I stepped off the plane in Shanghai, China for an extended stay. My first experience living in a radically different culture.

26 yo-The day I met my wife- Love at first site, seriously.

34 yo- The day my daughter was born- The single most incredible day of my life. Nothing before, or probably after, can come close.

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[BUZz UK]

until recently i was a mess. Taking every drug you could name and more (except crack and smack). took acid about a month and a week ago, and haven't touched anything except booze and weed since. I got a long way to go to get my life back together, but it's all good now. i think acid helped me get rid of a self destuctive part of myself.

[FlyGuyOU]

My buddies and I were driving down some country road through the woods and we got his moms pasatt up to 130...then the road stopped. We almost hit a tree but fortunately my friend swerved and we rolled the car 6times hit a tree, bounced up into the air and hit another tree. I had hit my head on the ground when we were rolling and all 3 of us were kinda outta it, then from out of nowhere this lady come running up to us screaming "OMG they're dead!!! they're dead!" right in my face. I was sitting there looking at here thinking "I'm fine. I'm not bleeding, nothings broken. Maybe I am dead?" it was pretty scary.
the car was all crumpled up like a foil ball but all 3 of us lived. I didn't even check myself into the hospital. Something I vividly remember though was about 30yards ahead of us was the car battery, and right next to it was a pack of smokes my friend had in his front shirt pocket. That shit boggles my mind to this day.

Wear your seatbelt.

[CanaDanKs Inc.]

Oh, just another quick one...I'm sure a lot of people can relate to this one.

The first time I hiked up a really high mountain and overlooked the vast horizon. That feeling of being on top of the world...

[Ganj]

Hmm...Life changing moments.
It's sad reading about the people who've been altered by circumstances they had no control over. Most of my misery can be attributed to the choices I've made.
I stole some candy from a Cub Foods grocery store when I was only eight years old. My brother still takes responsibility for sending me in there to do the deed. I got caught the moment I set my foot past the automatic doors. I was guilty of stealing candy and was ordered to rehabilitate myself (at eight years old) at a "clinic" for thieves. I was the youngest person in the room. Around me where people who were convicted of grand theft auto and elaborate robberies that I couldn't scheme in my wildest dreams. As the spotlight went around the room, I realized how petty of crime I had been convicted of and felt ashamed that I couldn't speak sincerely of operations of grandeur, even though I was having serious sugar withdrawals. I have always been very critical of myself. I remember throwing a fit and distancing myself from my peers when I contracted the chickenpox and no one wanted to play with me. I grew older, but with the same mind. As a teenager, I stole many things from my family, friends and other unsuspecting people. By this time I had been involved with drugs and most of what I stole was sold for ecstasy, bars, marijuana and other illegal substances. I spent all summer away from my home, only to comeback when the road was empty and I had nowhere else to go. I would eat at home, sleep at home, then when I got ready to get high, I would steal from home and share the benefits with the friends who were paying my way most of the time. Thievery is an easy method of acquiring what you want without any obligation to schedules and strenuous work. So I contributed to our high by doing what I was good at and what was easy. I forgot my family. I had my own family of drug-seeking addicts by then. It all came crashing down when my own father alerted the police of my absence, then he continued on to tell them that I had stolen a valuable ring of his and I was taken to jail when I arrived at my home. I lost touch with some very close friends because of my habits. I gave up on my family and the guilt that ensued caused me to give up on all my friends and myself. I've been a ghost to the world I used to know, nestled away in my room, only to rise again on those good days when I feel equipped to take on every day pressures. I can't shy away from the sunlight forever.

[LIP]

Watching someone get their brain blown clean out and the back half of their head go with it changed me - concidering i was about 7 or 8.

Smoking weed for the first time.

Finding out the one woman i love didnt love me.

Having 8 police officers with loaded MP5's pointing at me in my own house changed me - i got raided.

My friend commiting suicide on the London Underground fucked me up pretty badly - all over something silly. He'd had a brain tumor - he was a great soul.

Watching people who i've been around nearly my whole life go to prison.

The world is fucked - then you smoke a joint and realise it's not all bad [just 99% of it]



Being arrested and wrongly accused of an attempted robbery.

[JunkYard]

the first time I busted a nut, lol :D

[Metaphor]

When my ex girl moved to florida, and left me all alone in nyc. I knew it was comming for a while but i didnt believe it until she was gone.

Getting arrested with 4-5 grams of bud and 1800$ cash. dosent look good on, a 17yr old. Being handcuffed, waiting in a cell indefinatley, getting treated like a murderer or rapist.

The first time i heard Loveless by My Bloody Valentine. Blew my mind and totally changed my outlook on what music can be, and is.

All of my psychedelic experiences have changed me in ways i couldnt begin to explain, and you wouldnt be able to understand till youve tried it. (not saying taking psychedelic drugs is a good thing for anyone else, nor advocating their use, but simply that they have played a hue part in molding my mind).

The moment i comprehended how insignifigant a single humans life is and that no matter what we do we will still be subatomic organisms compared to the universe.

The following quotes were each spoken by my friends, and have seriously changed my life.
"Its amazing how the beauty of life can be so easily portrayed in something as simple as a flower"-my friend

"Frogs see in two dimensions, so just because we see in three dosen't mean thats all there is" - a friend quoting someone she met in rehab.

[Metaphor]

and the first time i actually got high.

[originalblu]

the first time I busted a nut, lol :D

lmao

the first time i got blazed.
my first job
when i got my dog
my freshman year of highschool

[Gatekeeper777]

The birth of my son. I nearly cried in the delivery room when i saw he was hung.... ITS A BOY!!!!!
When i tossed his mothers ass out the door.
When i got married to my current wife.
when i bought my house.

[Gatekeeper777]

Some big impacts on my life:


22 yo-the day I tried to give CPR to a girl who had fallen off a motorcycle w/o a helmet. She had blood coming out of her nose, eyes, ears and mouth. I'd breath air into her and it would come out as a bloody, bubbly froth. Worst of all was the fact that her eyes were open, staring up at me the entire time. She didn't make it. Those open, dead, eyes haunted me for months.

.

I know what you mean.
When i was 16 i was a member of a volunteer fire department and one day we wee called to a drowning.
I helped pull him out of the water. he was 16, it is now 23 years later and i can still see his parents on the shore line screaming and crying and i can still see the look on his(the victoms) face. his arms stretched toward the surface.

[GotWake88]

Hmmm... This one makes me think.
I would say:

-The day my grandpa died
-The day I met my best friend
-The day I learned my alcohol limit
-The first time I used cannabis, also the day I first researched it and realized that my government had been lying to its people for decades
-Going away to college
-Realizing that my ex and I were polar opposites
-A spiritual experience after eating 'something'

and others. Life is an ongoing journey, so I find it hard to find single individual events that shape me. Every second of my life has had some sort of an impact on who I am.

[birdgirl73]

The usual big life events have helped shape me, like marriage, the day my son was born, graduation from college, grad, post-grad school.

But the other big life-shapers have been:
- Witnessing the dirt-poor poverty, backwardness, and lack of civil rights in my native state of Louisana and seeing what a difference education can make in people's lives and futures (gave me a social and educational conscience)
- Recovering, psychologically and physically, from a brutal beating I received from a crazy state hospital patient when I was only 19 (confirmed my vulnerability but also helped strengthen me)
- The death of my grandparents, particularly my grandfather on my dad's side, who was a surgeon, and my grandmother on the other side, who was a school principal (my heroes)
- Seeing accidental death and other awfulness through work as a paramedic (always served to make my own life seem more precious)
- The divorce of my closest friend and her husband (gave me a new take on holding onto marriage through the rough spots)
- Volunteering to work with abused women and other types of victims and also interacting with their abusers/offenders at the county women's shelter (lessened my tolerance for jackasses)
- Coming close to dying from a ruptured appendix/peritonitis and having the second-chance at life re-align my priorities
- The death of my older sister (similar re-alignment of priorities)
- Interacting with babies and children over the years under various circumstances (affirmation of what matters in life, which is family and love, not material stuff)

[Ganj]

On a less touchy subject, this place has changed my life. I'm not a marijuana enthusiast like I'm sure this board was created for, I mean we have a spirituality section here and no one talks about marijuana spirituality. This place is for us to get high and share laughs, tears, good times and bad. I've never been more grateful for anything in my life. I like being able to smoke a fat bowl and sit down and read about other people smoking fatter bowls, or being high in the background of your local news station's cameras (It still tickles my side, Sweeney). Here I am free to express myself, much like in the outer world, but it's different here because we've all flocked to cannabis.com together. And you know what they say, "birds of a feather flock together." I love escaping into your personal stories. I'm a part of the your harvest, your lament and your high. We get stoned together and there's no denying the spiritual satisfaction I get from knowing that elsewhere in the world you're lighting up a spliff and sharing your experiences here. I'm forever changed by this place and will keep evolving as a person as long as I keep coming back for more.

[40oz]

I have been through many things but one of the most positive changing experience of my life was the first time I ate shrooms. It changed the way I look at beauty in the world. I can find it everywhere now.

[Metaphor]

I have been through many things but one of the most positive changing experience of my life was the first time I ate shrooms. It changed the way I look at beauty in the world. I can find it everywhere now.

amen.

[Skrappie]

sticking knife in toaster
sticking fork in socket
middle school first smoke,
high school personal discovery
army,
sticking knife in shit again,
going to college
growing up finally.
a few countries and love stories later, i'm still me, without the ego, and learning a whole lot more.

life is constantly changing my life.

[slipknotpsycho]

sticking knife in toaster
sticking fork in socket
middle school first smoke,
high school personal discovery
army,
sticking knife in shit again,
going to college
growing up finally.
a few countries and love stories later, i'm still me, without the ego, and learning a whole lot more.

life is constantly changing my life.

damn.. i'll give you this, you age very well... i had you pinned for 18-20... but you say you've gone to college, and gone to the army? unless you failed/quit both miserably.. . you age very well lol...

[Skink]

the asshole cop that wants to see me in jail for doing what is considered the right thing has changed my life forever...

[Skrappie]

damn.. i'll give you this, you age very well... i had you pinned for 18-20... but you say you've gone to college, and gone to the army? unless you failed/quit both miserably.. . you age very well lol...

lol, you got my age almost right,

i joined the army when i was 17, and this is my first semester of school. I'm still pretty young dude. No kids like you papi :)

[kingjustin]

Growing up on the streets of Cincinatti with absolutely no money.
Seeing my friend shoot himself in the face.
The first time I got high and then studied an ant hill for at least an hour and realized it's a lot better for everyone if you just do your work and shut up about it.
The first time I read Of Mice and Men.

[ThatTexasTip]

ill say losin my parents

[Dr.Hashman]

I forgot about all the other key moments in my life:

12- smoked pot for the first time at the Warp Tour in Boreal, California.

15- Best friend died of Heroin overdose.

17- Realizing that getting with a different girl every other night won't really make me happy

17- Finding out the Cannabis cures my Tourettes and muscle spasms.

more to come!

[crudemood]

i guess its my turn here
it all started at 16, i realized i was bisexual and i had all these bursts of anger .. uncontrollable hormone raging.
i got depressed, went to the hospital 5 times that year, all depression related.
all my friends left me.
i made some new friends.
one baited me out to their parents about smoking them up
another used me and manipulated me for my money and everything i had.

those are the most life changing moments that led me to how i am today.

[Dr.Hashman]

Crudemood, I had a experience like when you were 16, except that I was on some crazy laced marijuana and I thought I was gay but then I realized I could never be gay because that would involve touching a guy in a sexual way, that ended my 15 minutes of gayness where I sat stairing at a wall.

Raging anger- I got that from ignorant people. I got in trouble because a girl asked where Canada was (we live in the US), she was a sophomore in highschool too. I got in a bit of trouble for telling her that she was insulting her sex by being so stupid and blonde.

This site has really been a change in my life. Finally somewhere where I could be me and not have to shield my love of Cannabis! My best friend knows I smoke alot, and we can talk about it, shielding nothing, but then my other friends, I don't tell them about any of my smoking things. I am just really happy that I found a place where I can be who I truely am!

18 years old- The roadtrip I am going to take this summer across the USA. If it doesn't change my outlook on life, well, then something went very wrong, but that would probably change my life too... hmmm...

[MinusRyan]

Seeing my dog get injected with death-serum and dying before my eyes. She held her urine in and released it as she passed.

That moment was the most degrading moment so far.

[LuckyNiner]

My life has been pretty fucking tame as of yet, and especially compared to what I've read here and the things so many millions in the course of human history have gone through, and are still going through right now.

A few of those moments, though:

Watching my grandfather die peacefully. I remember my father picked me up and lifted me over his bed. I kissed his cold, white forehead as soon as his heart and breathing stopped. Seeing the men who came in the somber white van carry out his body between them, wrapped in the bedsheet. I could see and feel the weight of it. I was 9 years old.

Hearing that my older brother had nearly destroyed his liver binge-drinking before a suicide attempt. Watching him get his life together. Inspired.

The almost painfully tangible sense of growing self-awareness and depth of thought and feeling that slowly began building when I was 11. Not any particular occurence, and something that everyone goes through during that time in their lives, but there were shocking moments of revelation, if you will, that felt like a new pair of eyes had opened deep within me, and I was finally seeing a bit more of the world. I miss that feeling.

[Esmada]

Life changing momet?.......
Thats a though one.There are so many off them. Hmmm...
Mabye the day i realized that it's true what people say. Those you love will hurt you,Meaning the first time my EX- and soon to be f........ boyfriend almost beat me to death and every day thereafter that I continued to live with him.
And the day I discovered that those who say money can't give you happiness are liars..
The day I found truel ove and discovered that the love I hold for my familly exceeds everyting I have ever beliveed in and that life will fuck you over and over again.

[crystallinesheen]

My most influential moment would be the time some unidentified craft passed a hundred feet over my house one night. Talk about a major life-changing event! I had always been a fan of sci-fi and whatnot, but believe me, seeing a saucer 100 feet across skim right over your house makes one hell of a believer out of you.

Here's a link to my UFO report I filed on UFO Evidence.org for those who are interested:

UFO Sighting Report: Harrisonburg, Louisiana, United States - April, 11, 1994 - UFO Evidence (http://www.ufoevidence.org/sightings/report.asp?ID=7979)

After this experience, my entire paradigm of existence had to be reconsidered. I went from wanting to be in the military, and being generally a crude, right-wing redneck (for a fourteen year old) to smoking weed, questioning authority and growing my hair long. Now I have gone to college and traveled the country living life as a questioning, rational, capable adult. Overall, I am very grateful for the experience, that craft was just so amazing to behold.

Oh yeah, the first time I did acid made an enormous impact on my life, as well as the first time I brewed and consumed ayahuasca. The experiences opened my mind and soul up to the universe and revealed a bit of the eternity beyond our mortal coil........

[Purple Banana]

Life changing moments:

-My first spinal tap
-Being diagnosed with juvenile leukemia
-House getting struck by lightning
-Living at the ocean for 9 years
-Going to college
-First time smoking
-Getting diagnosed with Schizophrenia
-Diagnosis of PCOS
-Fibromyalgia
-Learning that ganj could help chronic pain
-Seeing my first patient give birth
-Doing CPR for the first time... Not a pretty sight...
-Listening to Pink Floyd for the first time
-9/11 and The War On Terror
-First time doing acid
-Some unspeakable events that happened during my Sophomore year at uni

[Dr.Hashman]

Today, my stepmom found a cannabis leaf that got blown off of my plants and asked where it was. I asked what she was talking about and she said my marijuana plants. So I took her to my 2 male plants that were lanky and had balls that were blowing pollen everywhere. I told her that they were hemp plants.

So my punishment for growing hemp is that I have to trow away my garden and supplies, but I can keep the lights and maybe the nutes (I hid my 5.5lb tub of big bud just incase). At most, I will be throwing $150 of stuff away. I am kinda relieved to a point now. My stepmom and I talked for a while about the commercial possibilities of growing hemp because I said that I was "experimenting growing a plant I was curious about."

So my punishment is I have to destroy ALL of my plants (My tomatoes, Zannias, Sunflowers, and Snapdragons). My tomato plants were doing so good too! Snapdragons were looking great, and the zannias were doing ok. My Sunflowers already flowered and they were already cut except for like 2 of them.

They are not going to tell my mom luckily. I don't have to do anything so far other than put up a fence I had to do anyways. So I am going to dump my seedlings tonight and dismantle my grow. After all this is left I will have 5.5lbs of Big Bud, about 8 42w CFLs in my lamp sockets, and a empty closet with just clothes :(

Moral of this post: Thank god that I only have to kill my garden, get rid of all my gardening things, and promise not to start another garden until I go off to college.

So until then, I will be designing my DIY Homebox so I can have a veggy garden in my dorm. I would say I ended up being REALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLY lucky about the punishment. I just really hate to have to kill all my beautiful flowers.

[40oz]

Yea that punishment sucks.

[thecreator]

My father dying when I was 9
Having my brothers and Sisters turn there backs on me
The first time I feel in love
the first time I fell out of love
the first time I was diagnosed
the time I found out my brothers and sisters are only half brothers and sisters
oh and the time I found out the girl I skipped my college interview for blew me off (in a bad way)

[make it legal]

My mom dieing when I was little. All the different nannies I had to deal with. My dad remarrying when I was 6. Suddenly having and older brother and sister. Whoo... soo much more too...