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Pipe Dreams
01-30-2007, 07:00 PM
Lately, everyone has been telling me Ive been changing. I didnt think I was, or even notice it until yesterday.
I just cant seem to shake the senseless anger I feel. Lately, I feel as if Im just kind of losing focus.
I cant shake the feeling that if I stab or poke or cut myself with anything, it will make the pain go away.
Ive been lashing out at everyone -- friends, family, even people I dont know. Hell, yesterday, I threw an assload of change at a truck, a lighter, and an orange, just because the lady cut me off and almost hit me. Then, the same day, I get in a fight with one of my best friends. Not an argument mind you, but an actual FIGHT.
I dont know whats happening, but I dont want to deal with this shit anymore.
angee pirate
01-30-2007, 07:58 PM
I just cant seem to shake the senseless anger I feel. Lately, I feel as if Im just kind of losing focus.
I.
I was and maybe still am an angree person.... getting older though, learning to deal with it, driving on the roads brings out the worst in alot of peops, but I will not let any a-h drivers ruin my days, when you go out expect the worst and accept it and stay calm, you'll probably end up in trouble and the others will be let go, How old are you?.... get a physical,
get the old blood pressure checked, don't wait for something to push you over the edge, to many good things in life to walk around agree over,
Pipe Dreams
01-30-2007, 08:00 PM
Nah man, its not just driving on roads. I can sit and have a nice conversation with you one minute, the next minute Im ready to put my fist through your face. Im tired of acting like this, but I have no insurance, not enough money to go to a doctor. This is going to be the end of me, I can feel it.
Maybe its time to lay off the reefer. Also try meditating. If you do it right it is very effective at clearing the mind and finding a balance in yourself.
Pipe Dreams
01-30-2007, 08:07 PM
Fuck man. Im hiding in my room right now from my friend, cause I know if we come face to face Ima punch that bitch OUT!
It sucks living in the same house with someone you just got in a serious fight with.
angee pirate
01-30-2007, 08:41 PM
Nah man, its not just driving on roads. I can sit and have a nice conversation with you one minute, the next minute Im ready to put my fist through your face. Im tired of acting like this, but I have no insurance, not enough money to go to a doctor. This is going to be the end of me, I can feel it.
Yea man I was in the same way, you definately need to do something to change your situation, if nothing else take some time yourself go for a long walk at a fast pace get the heart pumpin, if your physically fit already, go for a jog, clear your head, change up your diet, junk food makes anxiety worse,
find someone to talk, do some research on depression or anxiety on the net and find something that will help, there is alot of good info out there,
putting my fist through people was my favorite way for a long time, but it makes things worse
420izzle
01-30-2007, 10:55 PM
Good advice from Angee Pirate ^^^
Keep it in perspective man.
Love.
One thing that has helped me out with focus and overall well-being has been changing my diet, excercising, meditation (spiritual association), supplements like fish oil to help with my focus, and so many other things.
Take care and hang in there...sometimes it's hard to see the horizon beyond the storm.
Nailhead
01-31-2007, 06:44 AM
I've been feeling the same way myself too, but I'm also having some money problems so that is my only suggestion that maybe one cause. Most likely it is a number of causes, do you smoke? Shit I was hoping to start smoking soon to help with my anger issues, but if that doesn't help I might end up down the same road.
One thing I do know that really calms me down, something I haven't done in quite some time now that I think about it, is to simply drive around with nothing to do other than enjoy the scenery. It's best to get out of the city, on scenic roads. I live close to some mountains so sometimes I will just drive through the mountain pass with no music other than the natural sound with the windows down.
It can be very relaxing, you just need to set some time aside for that. At least that works for me, but if not for you just try to find something you can do without trying to hurry at it and just simply relax.
If that still doesn't work, maybe we can meet up and beat the shit out of eachother so we can each let off some steam lol
trynagethigh
01-31-2007, 08:26 AM
If you are having these feelings is there another underlying problem that may be causing all of this? divorce,extra stress, health, etc. I am the same way but I suffer from PTSD and severe anger with homicidal tendencies. I ended up being prescribed Zoloft, but me and that shit didnt get along. Maybe you need to see someone professionally, I am no expert but it almost sounds like bi-polar disorder. Again maybe you need pro help..look at it this way at least you are smart enough to recognize that there is a problem.
Tom Swierzbinski
02-03-2007, 04:09 PM
A good idea for anger management is to smash ice cubes. Ive tried it, it really does work because watching the cubes smash against a wall is destructive. I HIGHLY reccomend it to anyone who gets pissed off at times.
Demeter
02-03-2007, 04:57 PM
Hi Pipe Dreams- If I knew a bit more about your circumstances, your age and things you've been through, it would be easier to discuss possible solutions, but all the suggestions about diet and exercise really work, they reduce stress no matter what, and that is something you can control, so start with one diet change like cutting out sugar and then add a walk several times per week (don't walk near traffic lol). These small things don't seem like they could make a big difference, but in time they do.
I had serious anger issues for many years myself; when I got sober over 20 years ago it all came bubbling up like lava, so I totally relate to that feeling of wanting to rip apart someone's head like a head of lettuce (and if you do rip apart a head of lettuce, it's pretty funny).
The good news is that there are behavioral adjustments you can make through consciously releasing anger. I learned that first you have to believe that you can release anger as easily as you can drop a pencil from your hand. Once you know that you can do something, you are able to do it- kind of makes sense, doesn't it? I used the Sedona Method, but many people use other techniques to the same end. Just remember -you do not have to be a prisoner to your emotions. Do some research on the internet about anger management, and you should find some resources that would help. You just have to do the footwork and make a commitment to change, and it will work, it will get better, I promise.
I commute two hours per day, and it could make me furious if I let it, but I don't want to be furious. It's too exhausting. I have a hit, listen to music, and relax. Those are my two hours, I am not willing to give them up to every wacko driver in Massachusetts:D
Anger, no matter how "justified" is so toxic, and it's actually wonderful that you have reached this point, the turning point. It sounds like you have hit bottom. Now you can work on letting it go. I wish you the best- stay in touch! :lovestruck:
delusionsofNORMALity
02-03-2007, 05:11 PM
i am the angriest person i know. years ago i realized that nothing was going to make the anger go away and something had to be done. that was when i developed the concept of zen rage (no it isn't really new i suppose, but it was to me at the time). swallow the anger and hurt and hide it away, it can be a source of intense power. yes, it is highly destructive and it has a tendency to eat you up; but the alternatives are worse.
it's quite fulfilling to be able to control what would otherwise be wasted emotions. of course, the whole concept is beside the point if you can find the cause of your anger and put an end to it. my problem, one of many, was that there was no cause, so i took this route.
notransfer
02-03-2007, 05:22 PM
go to a hardcore show haha
nah, maybe yer on the brink of psychosis..
im bipolar and in my 'times' i was snapping at the people i cared about the most
i take antipsycho pills and mood stabilizers..
try to vent away from people, concentrate on your thought process, listen to whats goin on inside your head..dont let emotion overrun you
lay off weed
uhh...
i was flippin out i was basically insane it wasnt only anger i had, short temper but a volley of other shit ive been problem free for 3 years
abilify or geodon or somethin might help, but im not a doctor
moshpit.
Storm Crow
02-03-2007, 05:40 PM
Advice from Granny- Get a lot more exercise. Jog, get a punching bag, what ever, but MOVE! Maybe take up yoga or read a bit on Zen. Watch your diet- you may not be getting enough "B" vitamins and lack of them can make you crazy. Fish oils are good for your mind and body.
You are like a man on a runaway horse- time to rein the beast in! Your emotions can carry you anywhere you want to go, but they can also take you where you don't want to be, when they get the upper hand.
Sit down and see if you can trace the path of your anger- WHY are you angry? What was the trigger and why was it a trigger? Most folks just look at the surface of their anger. Dig deeper- see where your anger is coming from. Only you own your emotions- others can not "make you angry" - only you do that.
Be here now. It will get better. - Granny:stoned:
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