Okay, this is my appology

[l3loody]

okay, i know that ppl on here dont really like me...and i know it doesnt really matter. but today, i realized that i pretty much dont have any friends at my school, and i am apparently annoying. i have no clue why and niether does anybody else...so..they say "ur annoying" and i ask why and they dont tell me why...im kind of thinking about killing myself, and im not saying this for attention, so please dont think i am. i really dont know wut to do. i really want friends, and i dont have many and i dont think ill get very many. so i wanna say im sorry for annoying anybody on these forums for talking about my mom too much or anything like that. i also realized that i will go nowhere in life because my grades are bad. i get d's and f's in highschool, and its my junior year. im 17 years old. i hate my life so much, and i know that i will nvr become wealthy or anything of that sort. i wont have a good job, a pretty wife (or any for that matter) and i wont have kids to continue my gene pool. so....im screwd for life and theres no sense in living any longer just to find out my predictions were true.

sorry again, bye

[friendowl]

damn kid, your right life does suck sometimes

instead of give up and die
why not just enjoy the pain
and see where you end up

things change so fast from one day to the next
just hang in there and maybe write down your thoughts
you might be the next kurt cobain

the way i see it , if your already at your rock bottom
and you have nothing to lose than everything should be better from this point on . killing yourself would be a very boring ending to your life

make a better ending and a better story

[iStaaHi]

well, ,,, dont kill yourself,, i have contemplated it sometime, its not worth it for u cannot see what the future holds for u and ur life,, or if there is a future for any of us, but think about it some more, its not worth it,, how about insted of killing yourself,, you should put on the song ladies night on a boombox and have this positioned on your shoulder, smoke some bud and boogie on down your street,,dont kill urself

[friendowl]

if i hear that song ladies night
i might just off myself

bad idea

dont listen to that song

[surreys princess]

suicide and suicidal thoughts are just selfish...get some counseling...

[slowburn420]

dude i know exactly how you feel. I have a friend that nobody like because people say he is annoying. His problem is hes too damn hyper all the time. if he would just chill and talk to people normally without pissing them off people would like them better.

And if people say you are annoying then dont even fuck with them anymore, just try to meet new people that have the same interest as you. And since you posting on cannabis.com im sure you wont have a problem finding people that have the same interest as you. :rastasmoke:

Whatever you do dont kill yourself.

Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. :)

[slipknotpsycho]

lol... from about 12 on up, i've had a total of 5 friends... 11 and younger, i had maybe 8? it's get lonely somtimes, but i just try to not let it bother me...

[napolitana869]

sometimes people suck and you just have to ignore them. I didnt have very many friends my last few years of highschool, and it really does get better with time. Right now just focus on school and do your best to get your grades up so you can try to go to a community college. maybe take up a hobby or something that makes you feel good about yourself.

[daima]

sometimes people suck and you just have to ignore them. I didnt have very many friends my last few years of highschool, and it really does get better with time. Right now just focus on school and do your best to get your grades up so you can try to go to a community college. maybe take up a hobby or something that makes you feel good about yourself.

friends are important. being wise about who you allow in your life is even more important.
you are only 17. friends will come. it is ok to have boundries.

dai*ma:stoned:
i got an old friend whose seen me at my worse
she cant tell if i'm a blessing or a curse
but she always shows up when the chips are down
thats the kind of stuff i like to be around;)

[delusionsofNORMALity]

as a child i had quite a few friends.
as an adolescent i had no friends.
as a young adult i bounced back and forth between the two.
now i'm an old fart with only a few good friends.

shit happens, things change.
i'm glad now that i didn't off myself during the low points and you will be too.


if not, you can always kill yourself later.
i did.

[Samwhore]

i love you<3

everything will be alright, do not apolgize for how you feel, its how you feel and you cant control it, hang in there :)

[SkatePopwar]

dont stress, i didnt have a single friend in 6th grade. i thought about suicide then, and thinking back on it that would be a pretty shitty end to my young life..

i dont want to die before my first shroom trip either. assuming you havent done them, do you want to either?
what im getting at is theres a shitload more for you to experience. so stop being foolish :D

[peaceandlove420]

I know how you feel. Sometimes having those thoughts are unavoidable. However my friend, I feel that dwelling on those thoughts is the absolute worst thing you could possible ever do.

Try to occupy yourself with something. Start reading a book, start working out, go surfing.

[big smoke07]

You have no friends so your going to kill yourself? Thats being stupid. Dont expect pitty from me when there are people with no mother or father and havent committed suicide.

[ericwt]

Yes life can suck and so do people. That is just the way it is sometimes.

You have not pissed me off, so you are okay with me.

Look some people are going to like you, some wont.

So what you may have pissed off a few people here. You may have no friends anywhere. You have no where to go but up.

People on this site are actually pretty forgiving. I have pissed off a few. If you tell them you screwed up and say you are sorry most folks here will give you another chance. If they don't who cares? This is just the Internet.

You might need to look at yourself and try to improve yourself. Honestly looking at who you are can help you start to make changes.

Truth is most people are not worth knowing. But hell they say your real friends you can count on one hand.

I have certainly been where you are. Thought of offing myself several times.

But a few years ago my brother blew his brains out. That changed everything for me. Suicide is a selfish act. My brother did not see beyond his pain to realize that so many others would be effected.

Regardless of who you are someone loves you. My brother hunt my mom and dad, me, his kids and many others.

About a year ago I met my father and we went to the grave yard for another funeral. When he walked by my brothers grave he looked it it and said "What a waist". But within his eyes I could see the pain and hurt that was there.

You cannot hurt yourself without hurting others.

[psychocat]

A couple of good friends is better than hundreds of fakes.
We all piss off someone sometimes, it's part of life , those who are petty about it hold grudges for the stupidest reasons.
You only ever realy need you.
Bollocks to what others think of you , what you think of you is more important.
You can be whoever you want to be if you're prepared to go for it and even if you don't get there you can always stand proud and say I gave it my best shot.
I left school with no qualifications but I worked hard and became a very skilled engineer , I earn more than enough and I have travelled far and wide.
I like being me and thats all any of us can strive for, liking ourselves.

PS I have absolutely no reason to dislike you.

[Skink]

could be worse,,,you could be my age and have no friends...

the answer to this is very simple... do nice things for nice people... even if you don't make a friend you will receive a nice gesture back... your life starts with you and you are what you want to be,,, so change and it's all good...

Your potential friend,,,

Skink

[Greenport]

bloody, i have barely anyfriends and im annoying. Im alive and everything. i dont do that well in school and frankly Fuck people. i like TO be alone. only 1 friend i love with all my heart and he lives in a diff state as of right now until hes 18.

[peacetrain]

Fuck high school...it's horrible for everyone, even when you have a lot of friends (I did).

Hold on until you actually get out of high school to judge how much of an effect your grades will have on your entire life. And people who say they don't like you without any explanation why are probably full of shit...I would find THEM annoying.

[Inferius]

A few things to think about if these types of thoughts ever come back.

Men, are lone wolves. Women have big support groups of friends but men are generally alone. We have friends and everything, but at the drop of a hot a man can move to another country and make a whole nother group of friends through work or school or whatever.
It's nice to think different when you're young, but in the end this is how it works out. (i'm not generalizing people, there are exceptions to everything, I'm just repeating something a lot of wise male adults have told me that i've found to be pretty true)

Also, People are numbers games. Think about this. Get a peice of paper and go outside. Make two collumns, one for people you like and one for people you dont. Look at every person who walks by. Make a check in either collumn. Don't think about what kind of person they may be, judge them entirely upon their exterior. Hooked nose? Ugly clogs? Stupid brand name sweatshirt? Everyone thinks like this. Notice how many people you actually end up making a check for in the good judgement box.
1 in 5? 1 in 10?
This means that on a very beginning impression, only one in ten people do you like. Works the same for you my friend.

Just put out what you'd like to receive and eventually your life will make sense. If you want caring, devoted, active friends, then be caring, devoted, and active with them.

Also, NEVER, EVER, EVER kill yourself.
I want you to REALLY think about this one.
Have you ever been sad and then something makes you happy?
Your negative moods LIE to you. They whisper little deceptions that have no basis in logic at all. Always remember that your unhappiness is temporary, that the lows are just moments in time, that in the big picture of things, they give you strength and teach you how to be optimistic about life.
I don't think I would have learned how to be self-reliant or love life like I do if I never became suicidally depressed. It taught me an immense amount about myself, and life.

Suicide is STUPID my friend.
Think of how much fun you're going to have in a few years when you go to college and people have grown up and matured and are generally more accepting. Or if you're REALLY in the dumps, just think about how much chemically induced pleasure you're going to recieve from your drug expirementation. This train of thought isn't very healthy, but it's better than suicide.

Something else I want you to do as well.
Go to school tommorrow. And instead of focusing on all the people that have made you feel negative about yourself,
be patient, calm, and look around the classroom. Think about all the people who have been friendly to you. Even if you might perceive them as losers or unintelligent or "the fat chick". THOSE people are REAL. Unless you're a total inverted loner, these people are going to exist for you. They may only be acquaintances, but they're there, and they're friendly. Talk to them. Find something in common. Meet their friends, becuase friendly people generally make friends with other friendly people.
And finally, just be yourself, but be a little reserved at first.
Smile and laugh at their jokes and share a story.
Eventually you're world is going to brighten.

Never give up.

And never forget how boring it was to not be born.
Isn't life GREAT?! Breathing! Sleeping! Smoking pot!
Feeling healthy! Making yourself dinner, choosing from all different types of tastes and being hungry and then sitting down and loving yourSELF!

[psychocat]

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-5621226325041057058

Watch this and count your blessings.

[Dro_Princess]

I think eveyone goes through a stage some point in highscool that is just like yours. I did. It can be very confusing, depressing, and frustrating, its something that we learn from and kinda like a right of passage. Once you get through this funk things will seem alot better. You just have to get motivated to better your self and your grades. You will graduate highschool and go on and have a wonderful life with a family and good job, you just have to want it enough.

Life is a gift and there are too many people who have theirs cut short. So live life every day with no regrets and to the best of your ability. Killing yourself wont make anything better, if anything it will make it worse for the loved ones that you left behind. When you wake up in the moring just look at yourself in the mirror and (I know this sounds stupid but its works.) and tell yourself that you decide how your life is going to be and wont settle for anything less.

[peaceandlove420]

Human emotion is like the weather. Theres cold days, hot days, rainy days, gloomy days, sunny days. But its always changing. Its temporary. Sometimes storms last longer than others.

And remember, theres always sunshine after rain.

[suhl]

dont be a selfish self pitying prick. my advice is to try to do something about it

[mr_vega]

i know your down l3loody, but there's always someone who has it much worse.

[Inferius]

i know your down l3loody, but there's always someone who has it much worse.

And knowing that someones in more pain than me always cheers me right up!! :buzz_saw:

[Way2many]

im at this point in my life also, everyday all day i sit around smoking thinking about what the hell im supposed to do in life and always these thoughts race around my head bouncing off the wall's and the only thing i can think of is too shoot myself in the dome to stop it all....i always say life is hard and death is easy but god didnt put me here so i can later on end my life so i keep on keeping trying to find my place, god has a place for us all.

[Bob the Awesome]

[COLOR="Magenta"]suicide and suicidal thoughts are just selfish[COLOR]

That is by far the WORST thing you can tell someone who's suicidal. Please, don't say this to people who are emotionally unstable, things like that only make them worse. They need help, the last thing they wanna worry about is shutting up to make everyone else happy.

All I can say is, an objective mindset can help you. Find out what makes you annoying. Just straight-up ask: It'll take people off-guard, but as long as they don't hate you you should get some straight answers.

Then work on just changing. Get a haircut, spend a day reading and have a go at things, rejuvanated.

I know it feels like there's no escape or chance for betterment now, but there always is. Change is always an option. Just figure out what you can do to better yourself, you'll soon have new friends and things will be OK.

And this comes from someone who was gonna kill themselves 6 months ago. I'm feeling great now, so trust me, it's possible.

And the calls for counseling are another good thing, I know it's hard to start but most clinical psychologists can really help you.

[ipodguy]

seriously though dude everyone feels like that sometimes. ive felt like that before.
sometimes i swear i have no real friends except my best friend.
if you dont have a job i would suggest getting one because a few people i know made a lot of friends where they work and they hang out on weekends n stuff.
also if you plan on going to college (you can get into college with c's and d's) you can definately make a lot of new friends there too.

[SmokingPlatypus]

suicide and suicidal thoughts are just selfish...get some counseling...

Yeahhh.. that's probably the worst thing that you could have said with the possible exception of "grow up, you emo faggot." Please don't say stuff like that unless you know what you're talking about. Thanks.

These thoughts are normal, Bloody. A lot of people have them. Remember that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. For me, High School fucking sucked until I started smoking. Not gonna lie. Then I got a lot more outgoing and started talking to people. It's odd that people think that you're annoying.. seems like you may be trying a bit too hard, or you may just have some growing up to do. That's entirely possible.

Wait until college. Those shitty cliques more or less dissolve once you get to college, and then you can start getting a lot more friends... because everyone comes from a different place, different socioeconomic statuses, (statusi?).. and you simply can't have that with High School. So everyone is the same, and you're probably a little bit different.. so they treat you with hostility.

I mean.. if you're doing something that could be construed as annoying.. by all means, stop. You're not going to get friends that way. That's really all that I can think of now, good luck. Keep on talking about it, that's a great way to get stuff like this off your chest.

(by the way.. don't give a fuck what people think about you on an internet site. There's a lot of dicks out there, and frankly some people just enjoy making fun of others when there's no possibility of a backlash.)

Just my two cents.

[Wesley Pipes]

okay, i know that ppl on here dont really like me...and i know it doesnt really matter. but today, i realized that i pretty much dont have any friends at my school, and i am apparently annoying. i have no clue why and niether does anybody else...so..they say "ur annoying" and i ask why and they dont tell me why...im kind of thinking about killing myself, and im not saying this for attention, so please dont think i am. i really dont know wut to do. i really want friends, and i dont have many and i dont think ill get very many. so i wanna say im sorry for annoying anybody on these forums for talking about my mom too much or anything like that. i also realized that i will go nowhere in life because my grades are bad. i get d's and f's in highschool, and its my junior year. im 17 years old. i hate my life so much, and i know that i will nvr become wealthy or anything of that sort. i wont have a good job, a pretty wife (or any for that matter) and i wont have kids to continue my gene pool. so....im screwd for life and theres no sense in living any longer just to find out my predictions were true.

sorry again, bye

dude, to put it simply, life is hard, but u gotta atleast try...

friends come and go, but u will always stay true, u don't need to be wealthy, and a good job?? wtf is a good job anyway?? its called work for a reason... i dont have great qualifications either, but to me a job is a job, they come and go.... your only 17, how do u know you wont find a great girl that loves you?
stop looking for love and let it find you by itself,

nothing in life is a sure thing, make the best of what u got and MAKE yourself happy, others will notice this, and like it...

dont just live life... be alive with it

Peace and good will :jointsmile:

[tootsie roll]

So where the heck is the OP???!!!:(

And DAMMIT! Suicide IS selfish as selfish as it comes sometimes.
I am very familiar with suicide on a very personal level so I do what what I am talking about.

Suicide takes care of a short term problem. I am not talking about a terminally ill person comiting suicide. I'm talking about healthy young people who have momentairly lost hope. Death is forever and so are the after effects on the survivors. They end up in a living hell til the day they die.


Here is an old song



Through early morning fog I see

visions of the things to be

the pains that are withheld for me

I realize and I can see...

That.........

suicide is painless

It brings on many changes

and I can take or leave it if I please.

I try to find a way to make

all our little joys relate

without that ever-present hate

but now I know that it's too late, and...



The game of life is hard to play

I'm gonna lose it anyway

The losing card I'll someday lay

so this is all I have to say....................


The only way to win is cheat

And lay it down before I'm beat

and to another give my seat

for that's the only painless feat..........



The sword of time will pierce our skins

It doesn't hurt when it begins

But as it works its way on in

The pain grows stronger...watch it grin, but...


A brave man once requested me

to answer questions that are key

is it to be or not to be

and I replied 'oh why ask me?'

'Cause suicide is painless

it brings on many changes

and I can take or leave it if I please.

...and you can do the same thing if you please.



Wonderful song as far as I'm concerned!

[NextLineIsMine]

the common mistake of socially awkward kids to find a crew is that they often are exaggeratedly outgoing when they try to make friends. Take it easy, be the cool relaxed and unflustered guy you are within. Most of all find the kids you like not the ones you think everyone else likes.

[TokinAsianGuy]

What are some things you like to do that make you happy? i love movie marathons, they make me happy. it's the simple things.

You need to work on yourself before you work on friendships. cuz nobody wants to be friends with a suicidal guy, you know what i mean?

when people hang out with you, they want to hang out with the happy you, think about how you make people around you feel. are you draining their energy? are you overbearing or just too much maintenence?

i know these are alot of questions, but in order to improve your mental wellbeing you need to ask yourself these questions and more often then not, the answers are quite simple. no one here can solve your problems, but you know, even though theres flaming and light arguments, we're generally good and friendly people here.

my mind plays tircks on me all the time, jerking my emotions around and such. but then i realise i'm internalising all my thoughts when i should just get up and go... as in, stop thinking about how much your life sucks and just live life.

[LittLeWinG]

You need to harden the fuck up boy.

Life is hard. Deal with it.

I would be more nice, but im not in the mood.

[sgS2]

im sorry that ur life is that way,,
but in reality,
there are ppl far worse off than u...
thinkin of suicide over not having friends? r u kidding me?
yea its hard being the loner sometimes..but if a thing so little as this will have u contemplating on suicide...then u just arnt ready for the REAL world man...it gets a lot worse if things such as this bother u to this extent....wow..man...seek professional help...cuz yea...it seems u r very weak and have no will powrr...go find help NOW

[ValkyrieAg]

You need to harden the fuck up boy.

Life is hard. Deal with it.

I would be more nice, but im not in the mood.

I was starting to wonder if I was the only person on this damn board with a grip on reality and life. Everyone is always so understanding and forgiving and supportive. Some kids need a kick in the ass. I have never once in my life felt sorry for myself. For some, i can tell, thats Job 1.

In truth, I don't know if anyone had this explained to them. People die everyday. They get run over while on their motorcycles, they die from cancer, carnival accidents, old age....all sorts of shit. There are 6 billion people on this big ass earth. Noone cares more about yourself than you. Only you can help prevent forest fires and only you can get yourself out of the bottomless pit you are in. Everyone has had a time in their life where they felt like they sat back and watched the world pass them by. Well get over it, life is long and hard. I don't understand how such a young person could be so mentally clouded that they cannot see past their petty little situations...and jump off a building.

Everyone has their problems. Right now I have to find some $$$ to pay my electric bill. If your worse problem is you cant find a friend, get your ass off the computer and go find one....there are 6 billion people on this rock.

[HippyGoneWild]

with little wing and valkyrie,Life is a long and winding road(Beatles).Your in a pothole right now and you need to get out.Don't fuckin fret ,eventually the sun will shine again my friend.Been there ,done that.Tommorows another day...Make stuff happen, instead of whining.Get a fuckin backbone and be the man that You are.Finally ,repeat these words to yourself every morning"any day above gound is a good day":clap:* Hippy motivational speaker at your service*(live in a van down by the river).lol...1st post, peace:jointsmile:

[ValkyrieAg]

What you people with the choke hold on life seem to forget is that not everyone has a pair of vice grips. People get down to the point where they can no longer get themselves out on their own. If you think that all he needs is a kick in the ass, then you've obviously not been there and have no right to assume that's all he needs.

I can work with this this analogy.

When i was young, I didn't have vice grips, I had some tweezers. I gained some confidence in my younger days, realized that I am my own man. I can succeed without anyones help. I am more resourceful than I give myself credit for.
Then I graduated to pliers. I got down for a while during the beginning of college. I came back better than ever.....graduated to vice grips. I am now self sufficient, plenty of people around me, exciting times, unknown (but bright) future, alot of good pot. I realize that noone is my boss. Noone is trying to 'get me down'. The man sucks, but I won't let him 'get me down'. I was once one of those kids who listened to 'authority', which helped me by guidance.....but now I realize that we are all people. We all have the same issues and shortcomings. I also realized that no fairy comes out of the sky to help you out in tight situations.

Now I have me a fuckin Pipe Wrench. If anyone threatens my alpha ass, I'll beat em with it. If someone bags on me, I'll beat em with it. Consequence? Everyone who knows me knows I have a pipe wrench. I am not afraid of my shadow, and I make clear and confident decisions.

Get yourself a pipe wrench and walk around with your head high and confident. You gain respect when you wield a pipe wrench.

[ValkyrieAg]

Well the tool was an analogy. I think you are mistaken if this 'kid' is having a rough time. So his grades are bad...he can't buy a friend....he probably smells and noone likes that. Thats not a rough time. His life sucks because he wasn't able to gain the confidence he needed. He isn't even in the real world yet. My mother died when I was 20...rough, yeah kind of....but I pulled through it no problems. Do you really think his problems are worth holding his hand and telling him he is special? No. He is just some punk kid who is feeling sorry for himself. He doesn't need a fairy, he doesn't need a psych evaluation. He simply needs a kick in the ass.

Btw, give me 5 seconds with my pipe wrench and those hands are gonna be broken hands.

[ValkyrieAg]

I have always seen the point you are trying to make. I understand that some people have issues and they need help.

But seeing above, you were defending this little kid whos smoking pot behind his mommys back while he plays with his xbox360. (read his posts)

Just because you say you are gonna commit suicide doesn't mean that you are. Do you *really* think this little kid is so bent up that he is going to post on an internet chat board that he is about to kill himself. Thats just fuckin stupid and here you are defending him like he is some suicidal mental patient that needs help.

You wouldn't get my pipe wrench. Judging from your posts and your general left wing hippy posts, I wouldn't be surprised if you have never even seen a pipe wrench before.

And conservatives don't run.

[ValkyrieAg]

Since everyone else is obviously stuck up, I'll be your friend.


End of story. If you want to defend kids stupid decisions, thats your own deal.

He doesn't need HELP. Its an attention ploy. He needs a kick in the ass. Period.

Being a conservative doesn't mean I am a Gdub supporter. Being conservative is a way of life. For example, when kids act up, they need to get whipped when daddy gets home. Being a left wing weenee, when kids act up, they get talked to and sent to get 'help'.

BTW, i like your little google'd pipe wrench. Thats alot different than your fairy's wand.

[Synthesizer Man]

suicide and suicidal thoughts are just selfish...get some counseling...

Suicidal thoughts are selfish to who? The person contemplating it or their friends and family?

[GaGrown]

Hey Guy!
I've never had any dealings with you 1st hand,but you sound as if your an intelligent fella! If you can figure things out on your own! Then there is no reason not to carry on! I have had 3 member of my family ranging in age,23,26,41 commit suicide.Gunshot,hanging and drug overdose! This is not something you are able to come back from! None of these family members were able to talk to anyone about what they intended to do! I WISH they would have!!!!! They would still be here today! Your sooooo young not to give life a chance! I can honestly tell you that if you can count the friends on 1 hand and still have fingers left for more,then you honestly have true friends! It's true when they say you can have too many friends! But,to have 2 or 3 true friends,is a God Send! You would not believe what kind of Hurt you would leave behind! I just ask you to take the time to talk to the few you have!! Even talk to your mom! That's the 1 you are gonna CRUSH! Mama's love their babies! Just Talk to anyone! You have so much to be thankful for!!!!!! What you should be most THANKFUL for is...... LIFE!


Ga Grown!

[ValkyrieAg]

Good post, but it falls on deaf ears. He is probably playing his xbox and smoking a joint having a good ole time.

[LIP]

If it's any concelation, i dont think you've ever annoyed me, or not that i can think of... although im sured i've annoyed you rofl... i have anoyed most people on these boards..

Look on the bright side of things...

If you kill yourself no more weed... That's the number one most important reason not to do anything like that.

Weed keeps this world spinning, and if you smoke enough, you'll be spinning too.... enjoy it.

[liberiamom]

I've been away for a week, and this is an interesting thread. I wonder what the boy who originally posted thinks? I'd like to hear from him again.

When I was 28, my friend blew her brains out. Her funeral was the saddest thing I've ever experienced. I think that is probably what sp meant by selfish. Even though in the midst of self-loathing we think no one else cares, many people actually do - and killing oneself critically wounds them.
I know how you feel; I felt that way when I was your age. It isn't as uncommon as you think. But you do need some help to get through it. Is there an adult you are willing to talk with?

High school is insane. Real life isn't that way. As an adult, I wouldn't have time for a lot of friends- I have a few great ones and that is all anyone really needs. You will find true friends when you find yourself. Until then, you need to talk to someone who can help you.

Let me know how you are doing-

[thcbongman]

okay, i know that ppl on here dont really like me...and i know it doesnt really matter. but today, i realized that i pretty much dont have any friends at my school, and i am apparently annoying. i have no clue why and niether does anybody else...so..they say "ur annoying" and i ask why and they dont tell me why...im kind of thinking about killing myself, and im not saying this for attention, so please dont think i am. i really dont know wut to do. i really want friends, and i dont have many and i dont think ill get very many. so i wanna say im sorry for annoying anybody on these forums for talking about my mom too much or anything like that. i also realized that i will go nowhere in life because my grades are bad. i get d's and f's in highschool, and its my junior year. im 17 years old. i hate my life so much, and i know that i will nvr become wealthy or anything of that sort. i wont have a good job, a pretty wife (or any for that matter) and i wont have kids to continue my gene pool. so....im screwd for life and theres no sense in living any longer just to find out my predictions were true.

sorry again, bye

Many people walk on this earth lonely. We all had thoughts that we want to die, but really you are just overwhelmed. You aren't believing in yourself. If you think you won't get a good job, or a pretty wife, you won't, because you already made it clear to yourself you can't. Don't do this to yourself man. Don't self-inflict harm on your confidence.

We all have a point in life where everything is a dark cloud, you can't see the light. Suffering is all around us, while you are lonely, there are others who are the same. We all have our problems, don't allow yourself to drown in them.

Be positive. End this cycle of negative thinking. Seek the things you enjoy and love and most of all, love and believe in yourself.

[Skink]

Well if he was looking for friends he found them here... If he was looking for sympathy he also found that...

He needs to come back and thank everyone here that has shown compassion...

[partyguy420]

FUCK SUICIDE!!! if your even thinking about that shit... your parents should of worn a fucking condom... i hate people who think about inflicting harm opn them selfs... yea, sure, i have a few self-inflicted wounds on my body...

but, i live in a small town, so one persons death preaty much affects everyone...

a few years ago, a young beautiful(i mean she was fucking hot, and damn near every guy would have done anything to be with her... and even the homophobic girls would have loved to go out with her) anyways, she was dumped by her boyfriend, she absolutly loved this guy with all of her heart, and she wanted to marry this guy... anyways, she was dumped, she was 17 years old, all A's and B's threw out middle school and high school, she was on the soft ball team, and the basketball team, and she was one of the top 5 girls for our team... anyways, she had a good looking life, and her boyfriend dumped her, she was already on anti-depresents, her parents left to go to a bigger city to get food and what ever cheaper, anyways, her boyfriend dumped her while they were gone, and she broke into the gun cabbint that she had built in shop class(i guess she was a fucking good in the shop class, and the pictures i saw right after she had finished the prodgect was just beautiful) and she took out her dads 12 gauge sawed off shot gun, and stuck it in her throat, and blew the back of her skull out...

now this girl affected everyones life... my girl, even knows who im talking about just by saying the words "she" ''her'' ''boyfriend'' and "suicde", and my girl dosent even go to the damn highschool... nor did she know the girl or her family all that well... it brought damn near the entire town to tears... there were guys crying that you will never see a shead a tear, until there mom dies...

anyways... just kick it with the other annoying kids... its what the other annoying kids do... or just learn how to not try to immpress people by arguing, or doing stupid shit..

and dont fucking kill your self...

[l3loody]

yeah, i dont know how some of u can act the way u do. u dont care about others...u dont believe me that im having a horrible time in my life and i just hate it so much...but for the ppl that tried to help me, thanks, and the ppl who were trying to be assholes, i hope u get whats coming to u. whether its good or bad. i guess i understand that u dont want to believe that im having a bad time in highschool, but i dont really care. i just want to get it over with. i still dont know wut im going to do, but i might just give myself a month and if things dont start to shapen up, then ill off myself. whether u guys beleive me or not. the reason i tell u guys these things is becasue i told u...i have no real friends. so dont think im just "chatting with internet ppl to get sypathy" or w/e u think. i just dont have friends that would care about it and i have nobody to go to for it.

bye

[Skink]

Happiness is a state of mind... you must learn to love yourself then it spreads,,,trust me...

[Matt the Funk]

Don't kill yourself. Try to graduate man. Most people fucking suck anyways, you have always seemed somewhat cool to me. I hate pretty much everyone I know even though most people like me. Nothing wrong with oyu, it's just other people. Also, suicide is not a good option. When I have clarity in my mind I realize how stupid it is. Life is beautiful. Try to stay alive as long as you can. And try to cheer up.

[Samwhore]

yeah, i dont know how some of u can act the way u do. u dont care about others...u dont believe me that im having a horrible time in my life and i just hate it so much...but for the ppl that tried to help me, thanks, and the ppl who were trying to be assholes, i hope u get whats coming to u. whether its good or bad. i guess i understand that u dont want to believe that im having a bad time in highschool, but i dont really care. i just want to get it over with. i still dont know wut im going to do, but i might just give myself a month and if things dont start to shapen up, then ill off myself. whether u guys beleive me or not. the reason i tell u guys these things is becasue i told u...i have no real friends. so dont think im just "chatting with internet ppl to get sypathy" or w/e u think. i just dont have friends that would care about it and i have nobody to go to for it.

bye

now what good will killing yourself do?
ive questioned my existence many times

my advice, find someone or something to love,
i found someone and something to love, they are the reason why i breathe and wake up in the morning, if you cant find someone to love, just love cannabis,,,, a pet, even loving something that cant love you back is worth it because youll find yourself in a state of awe, love is a wonderful thing, find it

[geonagual]

Dude, you need to pick yourself up and take a long walk, a really long one. A walk till you can walk no more and then stop, and think.

[ValkyrieAg]

If a person were to live for 70 years:

A month would be .01% yes....1/10th of a single 1 percent of your life.

Do you really think thats enough time for things to get better?

[TurnyBright]

I like you.

[psychocat]

You have to ask yourself what you can do for you too, don't expect something for nothing.
Give it your best shot and see where it takes you.

[Wesley Pipes]

yeah, i dont know how some of u can act the way u do. u dont care about others...u dont believe me that im having a horrible time in my life and i just hate it so much...but for the ppl that tried to help me, thanks, and the ppl who were trying to be assholes, i hope u get whats coming to u. whether its good or bad. i guess i understand that u dont want to believe that im having a bad time in highschool, but i dont really care. i just want to get it over with. i still dont know wut im going to do, but i might just give myself a month and if things dont start to shapen up, then ill off myself. whether u guys beleive me or not. the reason i tell u guys these things is becasue i told u...i have no real friends. so dont think im just "chatting with internet ppl to get sypathy" or w/e u think. i just dont have friends that would care about it and i have nobody to go to for it.

bye

are yoou being bullied or beaten up everyday?

[l3loody]

UMM...im looked down on by almost every body in my grade and seniors....and i know they talk about me, becuase when i walk by, they just snicker my name...i just wish i could shoot them assholes, because i dont do anything to deserve ppl to treat me like shit.

[Samwhore]

hold your head up high, no one can touch you if you use your self confidence as a protector, just stop thinking about them, it will pass

revenge is sweet, just dont do anything stupid

[Skink]

read my post about loving yourself... self confidence will allow you to see how petty these people are...

[justBLEEZY]

smoke a bleeze and chill dude.

[GaGrown]

UMM...im looked down on by almost every body in my grade and seniors....and i know they talk about me, becuase when i walk by, they just snicker my name...i just wish i could shoot them assholes, because i dont do anything to deserve ppl to treat me like shit.

If they are talking about you behind your back,then just think????? They are leaving someone else alone!!!!! So...... I see you as a protector of others! In my book your some type of super hero! You keep protecting us,Dawg!

Ga Grown!

[Nochowderforyou]

I think most teenagers go throught this point in life. Even the popular ones go through this stuff. I know I did. When I hit high school, I had moved away from a small town of 1600 people, in a school with 300 kids. I moved to a bigger city, with 80,000 people, and 1500 kids. I knew not one person and I got it rough. I didn't speak much english and kids mocked me about our wooden shoes we wore in Holland, and we were a "dirty"c ounty due to loose laws. Sure, it bothered me at the time, but high school is nothing man, fuck them. Focus of graduating, shwoing half those losers who will probably drop out, that you're better than them.

Popularity means nothing. You're in school to learn and get out there on you're own. I say, screw those kids, and if they mock say, tell them off. Give them a piece of your mind, in sensible words, and you night be surprised on how they react. Taking in all of the abuse witll build and build, until you snap.

That's what happened with me anyways, so don't fight! Love, not war. :D

[ValkyrieAg]

Confidence comes in a .38 caliber.

[lil josh]

Take Charge of your life, about a year ago i was in ....'s crew i was one of ....'s friends, i decided i wasnt going to be .....'s friend it was going to be josh and his m8 and its happend, i am now the clear leader of my groupe of friends and i know alllllot more people now that would do things for me out of respect. i know it may sound like i am trying to big myself up but its true if you are not a little bitch and actually stand up for yourself, speak up for yourself and dont take shit from anyone you will be respected and people like being with someone they respect.

basically get yourself respected and friends will come to you

[le vallette]

l3loody my friend there are times when we are all down in the dumps its how we come out of it that defines us and make us stronger.
to solve a problem first you have to admit that you have a problem.
You seem to have done that.
If so called friends seem to be making fun of you & they say nasty hings to you , why do you want them to be your friends.
with friends like them who needs enemies.
coming out off this will make you stronger & maybe one day you will be able to give advice to someone thats needs it and you can says that you know what you are talking about.
it's up to you to get out of the downs that you are feeling now.
keep yourself busy. go out join a club,get a hobby do something apart from sitting there on your own.
You know that you are selling yourself short you know that you amount to something otherwise you would not be feeling like this.
For others to help you, you have to start by helping yourself.

As for suicide no mate thats not the way about it.
I said earlier your life is worth more than that.
take heed there are people who have been in worse situations than you described in fact what you described is part of adolescence.
Talk to people that you fell confident with take it from there it's a start.
I wish you the best of fortune.

[SmokingPlatypus]

I say don't try to fit in with your fellow high schoolers. They're probably not worth your time. Just stick it out until college (and try to get your grades up to at least a C and above) and then you can start having real, meaningful friends that are actually cool.

High school is shit.

[smoke it]

dude, its never to late to change. and suicide just makes you a pussy who cant deal with life. try, talking to someone, or change the way you act.

[EbelEyes]

suicide and suicidal thoughts are just selfish...get some counseling...

I disagree.

I think its selfish to keep people when they don't want to be.

Just my opinion.

[Skink]

I disagree.

I think its selfish to keep people when they don't want to be.

Just my opinion.

I never thought of it that way but,,,You are just talking about a certain situation,,,Right???

[EbelEyes]

I never thought of it that way but,,,You are just talking about a certain situation,,,Right???

no man.

Sure I'd be sad if someone I knew commited suicide, but when it all comes down to it, its their choice. And I don't find it selfish at all. If someone wants to die, I talk to them about it sure, but I will not try to stop them (like telling parents, calling police, etc).

Saying "you can't go" is selfish to me.

[l3loody]

okay, well..i took my anger into my own hands and hopefully now ppl will stop messing with me. this morning i went into school with problems cause my parents yelling at me....and i was minding my own buisness and this kid joe calls me a faggot. hes in my study hall and always talked shit on me. so this was my chance to get back at him. i walked up to him and punched him in his nose/eye area and broke his nose (i felt it crack)after that he stood there holding his nose. thats when i hit him as hard as i possibly could on his chin and he just fell to the ground and i didnt see him move for about 30-40sec. i think my knuckles broken too..but i didnt go to the doctors yet. his friend jumped in to help him (freakin idiot) i punched him in the gut as hard as i could and then joe was still laying on the ground as i walked up to the side of him and got down and started nailing him in the face and stomach. i must have had about 1 1/2 min to woop his a$$. ppl like him deserve this and i dont feel sorry at all for him. hopefully this will show ppl that im no a defensless kid that has no friends and cant stick up for himself. thanks for telling me to stick up for myself sometimes.

[ValkyrieAg]

Excellent.

Next time someone gets in your face or talks enough shit to warrant an asswhoopin', say "Thats it, get ready, Im gonna whip your ass."

Get to swingin'....even if you don't win, its still a moral victory. Don't take anyones bullshit, you don't have to.

[marvelous22]

My brother didnt have many friends hjis whole life... then he reached college. He was like the life of the party. Don't worry man things will clear up give it time.

[JunkYard]

okay, well..i took my anger into my own hands and hopefully now ppl will stop messing with me. this morning i went into school with problems cause my parents yelling at me....and i was minding my own buisness and this kid joe calls me a faggot. hes in my study hall and always talked shit on me. so this was my chance to get back at him. i walked up to him and punched him in his nose/eye area and broke his nose (i felt it crack)after that he stood there holding his nose. thats when i hit him as hard as i possibly could on his chin and he just fell to the ground and i didnt see him move for about 30-40sec. i think my knuckles broken too..but i didnt go to the doctors yet. his friend jumped in to help him (freakin idiot) i punched him in the gut as hard as i could and then joe was still laying on the ground as i walked up to the side of him and got down and started nailing him in the face and stomach. i must have had about 1 1/2 min to woop his a$$. ppl like him deserve this and i dont feel sorry at all for him. hopefully this will show ppl that im no a defensless kid that has no friends and cant stick up for himself. thanks for telling me to stick up for myself sometimes.


Way to go Ali! :thumbsup:

Fuck talking shit, tho! Don't say a word and just start swingin if need be. It will get their attention a lot quicker, and make them think twice about messin with you again.

I love hearing about kids standing up for themselves, man.. ..you just made my night, and I'm non-violent nowdays! ;)

[geonagual]

The best part is that you will never have to do it again, or at least for awhile. Now, nobody will mess with you. I hope you don't get suspended.

[Skink]

one shot would of been enough,,,why did you feel you had to do more than break his nose???

[ValkyrieAg]

I think if you just start going crazy and swinging without warning, you'll just be looked at as unstable. (which if you are looking for friends, isn't good)

Don't come across as some looney ass kid who can't control himself. Come across as someone who doesn't take shit off noone. Confident, not crazy. Warn no more than twice. But definately warn....but no empty threats.

[JunkYard]

I think if you just start going crazy and swinging without warning, you'll just be looked at as unstable. (which if you are looking for friends, isn't good)

Don't come across as some looney ass kid who can't control himself. Come across as someone who doesn't take shit off noone. Confident, not crazy. Warn no more than twice. But definately warn....but no empty threats.

If the kids getting punked then he's already been provoked enough to end it with a couple good blows to the head. I've never given warning when provoked like that, and I've always had plenty of friends. Besides, if you warn the better chance they have at defending your advance. If they are bullying you, they deserve a quick retaliation, and one w/o warning. (IMO)

Of course, I never could fight for shit, so I needed to be quick, and direct, lol! :D I never liked talking shit for that very reason I guess. You might be different.. ..


Junk~

[ValkyrieAg]

Well I did forget to say use some discretion.

If this is a big dude, don't give him a warning...noone can fault you for that.

And...if its a big dude, I suggest getting close before you fight. Give him a good kick to the inside of his knee. (ya know, like stomp right on his knee, but from the side)

He won't be able to move and he'll be slim pickins....

[l3loody]

umm..he wasnt that big..he was about 4 inches taller. but he slouches. so hes basically the same height as me (5'10") my knuckle is starting to hurt....

[geonagual]

umm..he wasnt that big..he was about 4 inches taller. but he slouches. so hes basically the same height as me (5'10") my knuckle is starting to hurt....

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