i cant sleep

[MastaChronic]

alone with nothing but my mind. not pleasant company, i try to sleep but demons from my past haunt me like they do every night i try to fall into peaceful respite, they wont allow me the tranquility of slumber.i tell myself theyre not real, but they wont leave me alone. i smoke a joint to try and make them go away but this time theyre here to stay, they whisper in my ear the wrongs i have done and twist the good into a sick caricature of what it had been. they torture me tirelessly with no cessation. i cry out to whomever might be listening to lift these demons from me but to no avail. the demons steal my strength away leaving me weak and helpless, wasted and hopeless. the demons put steel in my hand and tell me to end it all before they do, i resist and they set upon my mind, flaying it with the past and whispering they are forever, and with the breaking of dawn they are gone.

[PotHeed420]

Emo.

[MastaChronic]

blow me.
its not my fault im bi-polar.
im not emo

[wayoftheleaf]

It is obvious you aren't beating yourself with the bat hard enough.

[lardman]

Ah that sucks man. My step sister is bi-polar and shes always mad and shit.

PS. No offense, but that did sound a little emo. :p

[PotHeed420]

Nice current mood, emo.

[lardman]

Nice current mood, emo.

I'd rather be emo, than a homo. ;)

[wayoftheleaf]

When they start analy raping you, that is when you have some troubles man.


I am bi-polar psychotic, and they think i may be schitzophrenic.

I feel your pain.

[MastaChronic]

there arent any real demons, im using it as a metaphor for my conscience.

[PotHeed420]

I'd rather be emo, than a homo. ;)

That is impossible, emos are homos

[wayoftheleaf]

I hear people whispering just far enough away that i can't see them. there are hundreds of them, if not thousands. always one foot beyond the point that I can see them. All whispering at me. I can't make out the words. But their tone. They all want me dead. They all want to see the blood drain from my body. To hear my screams when I die a bloody death. They will feast on the sight. They will consume the pain And steal my soul and devour it.

[wayoftheleaf]

no, emo's are one step above transvestite. lol

[PotHeed420]

lol, i don't jump around when i go to shows, i must be eeeee-mo

[MastaChronic]

i dont jump around when i go to shows, but for a very good reason. last time i did that i got bit in the back of my head.

[RyanTheCaveman]

lol...dear diary...i couldn't get my hair in that flippy hair wave like i wanted.."

anyways...lay ff the weed for the night man? lol i think you've had enough..
*takes your weed* i'll just....justuh...>.>..*sniff sniff*....take a load off your hands
:D

[lardman]

That is impossible, emos are homos, which means i am a emo depressed homosexual love buckett. Hmm, that was gay, I guess I am too. Mmmm, I love a woman with a big penis.

Wow...... :confused: :D :p

[MastaChronic]

woah man, no need to be tampering with quotes and starting an argument, nobody here is emo and i dont think anybody here loves women with big penis'

[lardman]

Ha, dude there was already an argument, kinda. With him sayin youre an emo all that. HIPPOCRIT! Jk...Hmmm hippos.....Hippopatomus. I need to get high :p

[MastaChronic]

smokealotapotamus
sal'right its just a label......and over the internet at that.

[lardman]

and over the internet at that.

THE INTERNET..........MEANS............EVERYTHING!!!!!

Jk. :p

[wayoftheleaf]

no it is

Dear Diary: Mood apathetic.

[lardman]

Dear diary: Im going to go watch a movie about death while I slice myself with rubber razors....because you know Im too depressed to perish and leave these thoughts behind.

(P.S. By slice i mean eat and by myself i mean nachos.)

Peace :D

[MastaChronic]

nachos..........

[Cooler Then Jesus]

ever heard "demonz in my sleep" by woodie?

[MastaChronic]

ive never even heard of woody

[PotHeed420]

Originally Posted by PotHeed420 View Post
That is impossible, emos are homos, which means i am a emo depressed homosexual love buckett. Hmm, that was gay, I guess I am too. Mmmm, I love a woman with a big penis.

1.That was the worst attempt at I guess trying to make a joke, after all anyone can clearly see I didn't type any of that.
2. I was just joking around I don't think he is emo.
3. I think you got a hard on for him or some shit

[MastaChronic]

"women with big penises"
lol

[CanaDanKs Inc.]

alone with nothing but my mind. not pleasant company, i try to sleep but demons from my past haunt me like they do every night i try to fall into peaceful respite, they wont allow me the tranquility of slumber.i tell myself theyre not real, but they wont leave me alone. i smoke a joint to try and make them go away but this time theyre here to stay, they whisper in my ear the wrongs i have done and twist the good into a sick caricature of what it had been. they torture me tirelessly with no cessation. i cry out to whomever might be listening to lift these demons from me but to no avail. the demons steal my strength away leaving me weak and helpless, wasted and hopeless. the demons put steel in my hand and tell me to end it all before they do, i resist and they set upon my mind, flaying it with the past and whispering they are forever, and with the breaking of dawn they are gone.

Well technically, there aren't many signs of emotions in this text...seems to me that these "demons" (yes I realize the metaphor) are making it hard for ya to even feel emotions. Perhaps not, maybe I'm just relating to it too much and turning it into my story, damn gotta stop that.

good luck man

[MastaChronic]

Well technically, there aren't many signs of emotions in this text...seems to me that these "demons" (yes I realize the metaphor) are making it hard for ya to even feel emotions. Perhaps not, maybe I'm just relating to it too much and turning it into my story, damn gotta stop that.

good luck man

damn dude, right on the money.
i swing from intense emotion to no emotion, although im more in the latter state than anything

[CanaDanKs Inc.]

damn dude, right on the money.
i swing from intense emotion to no emotion, although im more in the latter state than anything

Aye I entirely feel you on that. I find myself constantly wondering why I'm that way and what I could do to feel better in a long term way ya know.

The drugs...they certainly didn't/don't/won't help...but at the same time they really do, how ironic eh? You ever picked up on meditation? I'm not talking Buddha worshipping meditation, I'm talking breathing exercises and the clearing of the mind. Making these overwhelming thoughts (the nice and the evil ones) shut the FUCK up! The best way to go at it is to start off easy with proper technique, and it definitely helps man, I kid you not.

I never seem to have the willpower to meditate when I smoke lots of buds, but when I don't, I do that and I find myself wondering why I was ever depressed in the first place. But the circle always starts over...

Best of lucks man, let me know of any updates on your status. :)

[Skink]

ive never even heard of woody

I get woody's all the time...

[MastaChronic]

wow, last night was pretty bad for me.
im feeling better now though.

[Domiko]

Dear diary: Im going to go watch a movie about death while I slice myself with rubber razors....because you know Im too depressed to perish and leave these thoughts behind.

(P.S. By slice i mean eat and by myself i mean nachos.)

Peace :D


You're going to eat nachos with rubber razors?

[Trip06]

If your panicn to much, get fucked up or try buyn new shit, always makes me feel better. Try n stay away from situations or people that cause you stress and anxiety....for now.

[MastaChronic]

..........................................
your confused

[partyguy420]

woah man, no need to be tampering with quotes and starting an argument, nobody here is emo and i dont think anybody here loves women with big penis'

i love women... and i love big cocks... why cant i injoy a women with a big cock...

anyways... i hate emos.... my sister hangs out with them, and when they are around my house, i want to pull out the shot gun, and shoot them all, but then i rember, they are emo, they want to die, but its not worth the jail time for killing an emo...

besides that... in this day and age, no one knows what a emo kid really is anymore, other then the fact that they are at the bottum of the high school food chain... and the fact that they are just a shitty rip off of goths...

and anyways... gay people are perfectly fine... they dont hurt anyone... they arent gay just to be cool, unlike those stupid emos...