crf250smoker
11-11-2006, 12:12 AM
no one has to read this, i just had to vent it, and im nto the best speller or anything.
ever seince i was forced to stop smoking, ive noticed im getting violent, and pissed at people for nothing. i need to smoke, its what kept me peaceful, why cant i just smoke, it effects no one but me. i ahte this stupid shit. ive gotta do something or im afraid ill freak on some one and everyone will abandon me, ive got allot of problems, and no one understans how much weed was to me. it was a friend, a comfort, recreation, a hobby, something i knew would always be there, something i knew i could rely on, something i could never get mad at, something to look forward to everyday. i live for my dirtbike first, and weed second, but now without weed, my dirtbike doesnt seem to fill the void enough. now i know the first thing coming to most is, man that kid needs a g/f, ive gone through girlfriends liek underwear, i need a perfect girl that understands my lifestyle. eather they want me to quit riding, or quit smoking, and that just doesnt go well with me, and im not a person to keep things hidden from my girlfriend, i dont think i should ahve to. idk, my life feel liek tis falling apart seince ive been put on probation, and i dont knwo waht to do with myself anymore. my life is like a building. you cant jsut rip out a floor, and expect it to stand. idk i needed to vent this out before i went crazy.
ever seince i was forced to stop smoking, ive noticed im getting violent, and pissed at people for nothing. i need to smoke, its what kept me peaceful, why cant i just smoke, it effects no one but me. i ahte this stupid shit. ive gotta do something or im afraid ill freak on some one and everyone will abandon me, ive got allot of problems, and no one understans how much weed was to me. it was a friend, a comfort, recreation, a hobby, something i knew would always be there, something i knew i could rely on, something i could never get mad at, something to look forward to everyday. i live for my dirtbike first, and weed second, but now without weed, my dirtbike doesnt seem to fill the void enough. now i know the first thing coming to most is, man that kid needs a g/f, ive gone through girlfriends liek underwear, i need a perfect girl that understands my lifestyle. eather they want me to quit riding, or quit smoking, and that just doesnt go well with me, and im not a person to keep things hidden from my girlfriend, i dont think i should ahve to. idk, my life feel liek tis falling apart seince ive been put on probation, and i dont knwo waht to do with myself anymore. my life is like a building. you cant jsut rip out a floor, and expect it to stand. idk i needed to vent this out before i went crazy.