cool...

[Drink the Bong Water]

cool, i get made fun of at school almost everyday by the same fuckin kids, i have no friends where i live, and i just got dumped, it couldn't be fucking much better, was hearing rumors that my girlfriend gets paid for doing favors for other guys, yeah i know was shocking to me, i asked her about it she of course denied it, but then i got her pissed, and i asked her about it, and she said she would consider it..yeah..awesome..i feel like shit, me and my parents with my brother moved from california, and i didnt have much friends there, i didn't really like it there either, maybe its how i act..i dont know, i mean im ODing on OTC's everyday, i cant even find a regular dealer that will not even rip me off, i know you guys dont want to hear about my bullshit life, but what should i do? i seriously feel like just leaving this town, just try and make a living somewhere else, my parents fight about everynight, either one stays on the boat or at the house, im looking towards the only thing i can really do well, cutting..yeah i know it has no point, but maybe ill go to far and get away from here..i'm gonna probably leave this site and i wanted to say good bye to you all, and even though i didn't know many of you, i felt welcomed a little bit atleast..all of you take it easy...and hope you have a good life, never give up

[Day Dreamin Faze]

i just wrote this bigg long thing then decided whats the point in me running my mouth tell you how to run your life, If u want to cutt yourself and try to kill yourself over not have a girlfreinds,people making fun of u,not having a reliable dealer,and your parents fighting.Let me tell you, ive never had a gf and im a jr in highschool and am not planing on getting one tell im out and have my shit straight,second who cares if people make fun of u thats life people will talk there shit but u know what just look at them and say FUCK YOU!,I never had a reliable dealer and im sure most of us on this board have as well we all have been ripped off and we all have moved and had to find new dealers i just happen to have freinds that deal and brothers freinds that deal and hook me up and i was lucky enouph to trust them but anyway,it all takes time,over time u wil make freinds,and your freinds will give u dealers.dont kill yourself and dont run away from these boards smoke some weed it will help.

good luck bro

[Drink the Bong Water]

yeah i know anyway im only 14 i have alot of my life ahead of me
but if any of you had been madefun of, you know it hurts
and im really getting sick and tired of it
its not only because of me not having friends, and my girlfriend dumping me and my parents, its basicly based on my personality and how wherever i go, it seems like no one likes me, dont you guys ever wish you could start over? just move away and start over? ive had the feeling for so long, i literally hate this town, especially on the weekends, while i sit at home staring at this computer, this is gonna be my last post, and i want to thank you guys for the entertainment you have given me, really did have a great time, i think its time when i find out what i should start doing with my life...hope you guys all find happiness and have a good time while finding it..

[RESiNATE]

I know you'll read this, even though you've said that you've quit this board - but hey, I have magical powers, and know these things.

A little story:

Once upon a time, there was a baby born.
It had a few problems, but nothing that a little medical care couldn't handle - oh, and some major facial surgery to correct a hare-lip and cleft palette.
As this child grew up, his days at school (and outside it) were filled with sadness. All the kids used to bully him about his appearence, and none of the girls would give him a second look. For manys years, this continued. Even worse, his mother remarried, and the new husband turned out to be a bit of a psychotic head case, and used to beat kid up for no reason whatsoever.
He was bullied at school because he was intelligent and ugly.
He was bullied at home because....well, fucks knows why.
And one day, all of this became too much to bear - no friends, angry step-dad, and a feeling of utter depression. He found himself stood beside an express rail-track, and waited for the train to come.

As he stood there, waiting, he began re-running all of the things that made him unhappy, and as he thought of all the wrongs done to him, he became angry.
He became so angry, that he forgot about the train and started planning.
He was DAMNED if he was going to allow these low lifes to ruin his life - what right have they to judge that which they know nothing about!
He was not strong enough to confront them head on, and so had to think of other ways to get through his misery.

He decided that school was important and that, even though he had no idea what to be when he left school, he would seriously knuckle down and do some serious learning - about anythinmg he could. Diversity, you see, is a good thing.

He decided to adopt a new persona in the 'real world' - a mixture of his real-self and the person he wished he could be - funny, witty, charming..but above all POLITE. Nothing annoys an arrogant asshole more than politeness, and you don't even have to be aggressive about it.

And then there are the dark times, which will never truly be banished from him, but are controllable due to his understanding of what they are.

He knew he would have to be subtle about his plans, because undue attention usually led to unwanted grief - better to remain demure, but smug ;)

He never caught the train, but his life changed from then on.

Life is shit, and just when you think it can't get any shittier, it will...and does.
I don't want to patronise you, ~Drink~, so don't take this in offense :)
Your body is currently going through some major shit, at the moment - probably the most traumatic time since your birth. Your head gets messed up, and you see issues where there are none.
Being popular at school is not as important as you think, but it is cool to have friends. Don't try too hard to be liked - it won't work, believe.
Rather, just believe in who you are. See those around you for the fools that they are, and have a quiet smile to yourself at your observation of them - and don't let them pressure you into being anything other than wqho you are - it won't suit you.
Adopt an enigmatic air about you (but not aloof), and soon you'll find that people will come to you.
Pretty soon, you'll be able to support yourself and do what ever you want, but until then, you have to learn as much as you can, whilst it's still cheap.

Rule#1: Always talk to people as your intellectual equal, until such a time as they prove themselves to be otherwise (then adjust your address accordingly - but remain respectful)
Rule#2: Always be polite. ALWAYS.
Rule#3: Knowledge is power, and it impresses the fuck out of people - but don't be snooty about it - no one likes a braggart lol
Rule#4: Have a clear idea of what you want to say, BEFORE launching into a reply on an internet forum lmaoooo

I dunno, dude, I know where your head is at, I've been there - but only you can turn things around.
I'm going thru a bad patch at the mo too, but I'm DAMNED if I'm gonna let the low lifes ruin my life.

Life is like a corridor of rooms.
You are in a room. There is a door that leads from your current room (situation), but you have to find it. And obstacles block your path to the door.
These obstacles are experiences (some good, some bad) that will aid you in some way, once you find the door and enter the new room.
The new room may not be much better, sometimes it will be worse - but there's always an exit, and you're the only one who has the key to open it.
Sometimes, the new room will be like heaven and you'llnever want to leave....but here's the real bitch - once in a while, we are puished through a door whether we like it or not.....
It's at this point that all those experiences (good or bad) will help you to deal with this unexpected phenomena, and show an easier route to the next door.

I dunno, I'm just rambling, I guess
Just know that there are people here that understand - it is something very precious, and should not be given up so easily...understanding is a scarce commodity these days, as you are well aware...ok?

And quit the chems, dude - they aint natural and cloud your otherwise sound judgement! ;)

Okies, sermon over...
Res...

[sToNeDpEnGuIn420]

I know you'll read this, even though you've said that you've quit this board - but hey, I have magical powers, and know these things.

A little story:

Once upon a time, there was a baby born.
It had a few problems, but nothing that a little medical care couldn't handle - oh, and some major facial surgery to correct a hare-lip and cleft palette.
As this child grew up, his days at school (and outside it) were filled with sadness. All the kids used to bully him about his appearence, and none of the girls would give him a second look. For manys years, this continued. Even worse, his mother remarried, and the new husband turned out to be a bit of a psychotic head case, and used to beat kid up for no reason whatsoever.
He was bullied at school because he was intelligent and ugly.
He was bullied at home because....well, fucks knows why.
And one day, all of this became too much to bear - no friends, angry step-dad, and a feeling of utter depression. He found himself stood beside an express rail-track, and waited for the train to come.

As he stood there, waiting, he began re-running all of the things that made him unhappy, and as he thought of all the wrongs done to him, he became angry.
He became so angry, that he forgot about the train and started planning.
He was DAMNED if he was going to allow these low lifes to ruin his life - what right have they to judge that which they know nothing about!
He was not strong enough to confront them head on, and so had to think of other ways to get through his misery.

He decided that school was important and that, even though he had no idea what to be when he left school, he would seriously knuckle down and do some serious learning - about anythinmg he could. Diversity, you see, is a good thing.

He decided to adopt a new persona in the 'real world' - a mixture of his real-self and the person he wished he could be - funny, witty, charming..but above all POLITE. Nothing annoys an arrogant asshole more than politeness, and you don't even have to be aggressive about it.

And then there are the dark times, which will never truly be banished from him, but are controllable due to his understanding of what they are.

He knew he would have to be subtle about his plans, because undue attention usually led to unwanted grief - better to remain demure, but smug ;)

He never caught the train, but his life changed from then on.

Life is shit, and just when you think it can't get any shittier, it will...and does.
I don't want to patronise you, ~Drink~, so don't take this in offense :)
Your body is currently going through some major shit, at the moment - probably the most traumatic time since your birth. Your head gets messed up, and you see issues where there are none.
Being popular at school is not as important as you think, but it is cool to have friends. Don't try too hard to be liked - it won't work, believe.
Rather, just believe in who you are. See those around you for the fools that they are, and have a quiet smile to yourself at your observation of them - and don't let them pressure you into being anything other than wqho you are - it won't suit you.
Adopt an enigmatic air about you (but not aloof), and soon you'll find that people will come to you.
Pretty soon, you'll be able to support yourself and do what ever you want, but until then, you have to learn as much as you can, whilst it's still cheap.

Rule#1: Always talk to people as your intellectual equal, until such a time as they prove themselves to be otherwise (then adjust your address accordingly - but remain respectful)
Rule#2: Always be polite. ALWAYS.
Rule#3: Knowledge is power, and it impresses the fuck out of people - but don't be snooty about it - no one likes a braggart lol
Rule#4: Have a clear idea of what you want to say, BEFORE launching into a reply on an internet forum lmaoooo

I dunno, dude, I know where your head is at, I've been there - but only you can turn things around.
I'm going thru a bad patch at the mo too, but I'm DAMNED if I'm gonna let the low lifes ruin my life.

Life is like a corridor of rooms.
You are in a room. There is a door that leads from your current room (situation), but you have to find it. And obstacles block your path to the door.
These obstacles are experiences (some good, some bad) that will aid you in some way, once you find the door and enter the new room.
The new room may not be much better, sometimes it will be worse - but there's always an exit, and you're the only one who has the key to open it.
Sometimes, the new room will be like heaven and you'llnever want to leave....but here's the real bitch - once in a while, we are puished through a door whether we like it or not.....
It's at this point that all those experiences (good or bad) will help you to deal with this unexpected phenomena, and show an easier route to the next door.

I dunno, I'm just rambling, I guess
Just know that there are people here that understand - it is something very precious, and should not be given up so easily...understanding is a scarce commodity these days, as you are well aware...ok?

And quit the chems, dude - they aint natural and cloud your otherwise sound judgement! ;)

Okies, sermon over...
Res...

wow that was a great post...if i only would have heard that about a year ago i would not have had to seen all that shit for myself, i use to be just like drink. like no friends, everyone made fun of me,parents fighting,parents hate me. but wow that was a great post and i hope anyone who even feels as i did or drink does reads it. im gonna smoke two just for you Res. :)

[KillaBuzz]

man wut do u do when theez kidz make fun ov u? juss put yer head down an walk away? keep yer head an an stand up fer yerself, ppl will start to gain alot more respect fer u. an so wut if u get in a scrap over it? ery fight makez u that much more strong, an beleive me, if u have anger in yah, u wont even care that yer gettin punched in the face. give buddy a good fuckin go even if the crowd sayz u lost when itz all over, at least u had the ballz to stand up an say fuck u 2 buddy. this mite sound like a bad way ta go 2 alot ov u, but it will only make thingz better in time. dunt say yer gunna go kill yerself, if u have the ballz ta do sumthin like that 2 yerself, y dunt u go find the guy, an take that anger out on him, not wit a blade, but with yer fistz. if yer not affriad 2 die then y be affraid 2 fight fer yerself?
juss my 2 centz but they worth alot more then 2 centz my man, good luck
PeAcE

[sToNeDpEnGuIn420]

man wut do u do when theez kidz make fun ov u? juss put yer head down an walk away? keep yer head an an stand up fer yerself, ppl will start to gain alot more respect fer u. an so wut if u get in a scrap over it? ery fight makez u that much more strong, an beleive me, if u have anger in yah, u wont even care that yer gettin punched in the face. give buddy a good fuckin go even if the crowd sayz u lost when itz all over, at least u had the ballz to stand up an say fuck u 2 buddy. this mite sound like a bad way ta go 2 alot ov u, but it will only make thingz better in time. dunt say yer gunna go kill yerself, if u have the ballz ta do sumthin like that 2 yerself, y dunt u go find the guy, an take that anger out on him, not wit a blade, but with yer fistz. if yer not affriad 2 die then y be affraid 2 fight fer yerself?
juss my 2 centz but they worth alot more then 2 centz my man, good luck
PeAcE

man see why i go to these boards for advice, so mayn fucking smart people here. like shit i would ahve never thought about that. Killa also nicely done.

[RESiNATE]

lol Thanks,Ghost - but it's only the truth :)
The chances are that the ones who are doing the bullying are as messed up as thew rest of us.

~KillaBuzz~, I understand that there is a time to stand up and be counted, but it should always be the last resort.
Listen, I thought about doing the same, but then I thought about how I'd look to other people, and then about how I'd feel. Sure, there are limits - but one must know where tthose limits are.
If anyone bullied me now then they would find a very different opponent to the one they faced years ago......but I would STILL make it the last resort, even though I could probably dap them onto their asses before they knew what happened to them.

But I do appreciate your sentitment, ~Killa~ ;)

I prefer the Art of Fighting Without Fighting :)

And, mmmm..smelling those joints fron here, Ghost dude :) cheers!
lol

[sToNeDpEnGuIn420]

lol Thanks,Ghost - but it's only the truth :)
The chances are that the ones who are doing the bullying are as messed up as thew rest of us.

~KillaBuzz~, I understand that there is a time to stand up and be counted, but it should always be the last resort.
Listen, I thought about doing the same, but then I thought about how I'd look to other people, and then about how I'd feel. Sure, there are limits - but one must know where tthose limits are.
If anyone bullied me now then they would find a very different opponent to the one they faced years ago......but I would STILL make it the last resort, even though I could probably dap them onto their asses before they knew what happened to them.

But I do appreciate your sentitment, ~Killa~ ;)

I prefer the Art of Fighting Without Fighting :)

And, mmmm..smelling those joints fron here, Ghost dude :) cheers!
lol

god i get refered to as other ppl way to much...ITS PENGUIN DAMN IT PENGUIN!!!and if u dont get what im talking about Ghost has not said a single thing on this thread and yet i told res how great he is and now im ghost...grrr i need some way to be reconginzed

[RESiNATE]

lmfaooo...shit, dude, I'm so sorry (Penguin, that is )
hahaha...hey, I just woke up, ok?
I aint even had a cup of tea, yet :eek:
And I'mlate, which means I aint got time to go to the shop to get baccy, so am having to use some dried up dregs to make my first joint of the day,and it's a bit *cough cough* harsh on my throat.

But you know what I meant ;)

lol

I'm such a stoner, init! :rolleyes:

[KillaBuzz]

lol Thanks,Ghost - but it's only the truth :)
The chances are that the ones who are doing the bullying are as messed up as thew rest of us.

~KillaBuzz~, I understand that there is a time to stand up and be counted, but it should always be the last resort.
Listen, I thought about doing the same, but then I thought about how I'd look to other people, and then about how I'd feel. Sure, there are limits - but one must know where tthose limits are.
If anyone bullied me now then they would find a very different opponent to the one they faced years ago......but I would STILL make it the last resort, even though I could probably dap them onto their asses before they knew what happened to them.

But I do appreciate your sentitment, ~Killa~ ;)

I prefer the Art of Fighting Without Fighting :)

And, mmmm..smelling those joints fron here, Ghost dude :) cheers!
lol


well i can totally understand yer way ov thinkin. i dun go out lookin ta punch ppl out, if i can work shit out without violence then im even happier, yah kno? but fer sum ppl, thingz cant b worked out unless they stand up fer themselvez, an thatz when ya gotta do sumthin.
PeAcE

[KillaBuzz]

lmfaooo...shit, dude, I'm so sorry (Penguin, that is )
hahaha...hey, I just woke up, ok?
I aint even had a cup of tea, yet :eek:
And I'mlate, which means I aint got time to go to the shop to get baccy, so am having to use some dried up dregs to make my first joint of the day,and it's a bit *cough cough* harsh on my throat.

But you know what I meant ;)

lol

I'm such a stoner, init! :rolleyes:

im straight out ov tobacco myself. havnt had a smoke yet 2day an itz showin in my spellin...i juss noticed i said the same word twice in my first post, meant 2 say keep yer head up...but anywayz, im resortin 2 the old baccy soon i think hahaha cuz i need 2 wake up.

[sToNeDpEnGuIn420]

is baccy diff then cigg baccy? jw cuz i mean i smoke ciggs on occasion but thats like only after weed and when someones got some jw, and lol Res its ok we all make mistakes but that happens to me so much i get called osmething else lol

[RESiNATE]

fer sum ppl, thingz cant b worked out unless they stand up fer themselvez, an thatz when ya gotta do sumthin.
PeAcE

Yep, that is true... there are always limits.

One day, I was at school.
There was this kid who was intent on making my school-life hell. He would call me names, try to trip me up when I was walking, he would do nasty impressions of me... it was constant. It just so happened that this particular kid had a twitch - so my retaliation was easy. Thing is, he went and told his older brother that I had laced into him.
Later that day, I found myself surrounded my this kid's big brother - and 5 of his mates - and was told to leave the kid alone... whilst a Bowie knife was pressed against my throat.
I learnt a valuable lesson - know the limits.

[KillaBuzz]

tru enuff rez, tru enuff
baccy iz cigarette tobacco penguin
PeAcE

[RESiNATE]

is baccy diff then cigg baccy?

Yeah, man - baccy is LOADS better (I use 'Cutter Choice', is less harsh than most) - cig baccy is dry and doused in all sorts of chemical shit (so is the other, but not as much :)). Plus, because it aint so dry, the joint burns longer, thus ensuring that all the dope is burnt properly. And it's cheaper.


we all make mistakes but that happens to me so much i get called osmething else lol

:rolleyes: yeah, know what ya mean there lol

[KillaBuzz]

or not hahaha....round here we call any baccy cig tobacco, an im too hgih ta remember wut we call the good mixin tobacco....therez a word fer it godamnit hahah.

[RESiNATE]

Is it SHAG, Killa?

lol

[KillaBuzz]

maybe lol...im havin 1 ov those dayz where it takez 3 minz fer u ta figure out how ta spell "the".

[BOgart.bitch]

everyone lives
and
everyone falls

get over it
get up
and move on..

thats really all that can be said.

[Kronik Bagz]

i jus want you to know that everyone gets shit talked about them behind their back, especialy in highschool where gossip and people who want to sound important iz at itz peak. but fuck it, fuck these people who are shit talkers. if you have to crush some skulls, and no thats not symbolic, im serious, if people drive you to the edge then dont fall, knock their asses down. maby its not the best idea but ive found that people who talk shit never do shit, its the ones who just walk up an deck you in the face that u need to watch out for and i bet you anything if you show up with a bat ready to fight, they will take one look into your eyes and piss their pants. if you think im jus spittin shit, well i been there too, i know how you feel. all i had to do was show that i dont take shit an that im a crazy fuck and from then on noone fucks wit me unless they are realy ready to throw down. remember, tha crazy one aint tha one alwayse winnin tha fight, its tha one who alwayse comes back for more.

i know how it feels and how much it hurts to have all this rage, anger, and hostility built up for a long time but it has to come out sooner or later and the sooner the more you can control it, so make sure u can take it out on the ones who deserve it, dont make friends or family suffer by alwayse takin it out on them.

[KillaBuzz]

i jus want you to know that everyone gets shit talked about them behind their back, especialy in highschool where gossip and people who want to sound important iz at itz peak. but fuck it, fuck these people who are shit talkers. if you have to crush some skulls, and no thats not symbolic, im serious, if people drive you to the edge then dont fall, knock their asses down. maby its not the best idea but ive found that people who talk shit never do shit, its the ones who just walk up an deck you in the face that u need to watch out for and i bet you anything if you show up with a bat ready to fight, they will take one look into your eyes and piss their pants. if you think im jus spittin shit, well i been there too, i know how you feel. all i had to do was show that i dont take shit an that im a crazy fuck and from then on noone fucks wit me unless they are realy ready to throw down. remember, tha crazy one aint tha one alwayse winnin tha fight, its tha one who alwayse comes back for more.

i know how it feels and how much it hurts to have all this rage, anger, and hostility built up for a long time but it has to come out sooner or later and the sooner the more you can control it, so make sure u can take it out on the ones who deserve it, dont make friends or family suffer by alwayse takin it out on them.
u shood listen 2 this guy

[clevemire]

Wow, well I don't really have anything to add. Everyone so far has made great points, and I agree with them.

Just be yourself, and never change who you are. If everyone was the same, how boring would this already boring world be? As Res said, violence should be a last resort but never be afraid to stand up for yourself.

If you show others that you have self confidence, they will naturally respect you more.

[bowlsnapper2012]

k well once ur parents are dead u get ur money taken every day at school and havent been able to smoke for six month then talk to me cuz thats my life and to top it off im 15 and a father

[AbbaZabba]

All i can say about the kids saying shit about u is fuck them dude. Where they gonna be 10 years from now? you got a whole life ahead of ya dont let some assholes bring you down. I had a girlfriend that i thought i loved at about your age and she dumped my ass because i smoked herb and now she's a slut bitch that i don't give a shit about. You just gotta forget about them watch man 2 years from now no one will be saying shit to you at all. Life sucks for a while but just wait it'll get better. You'll be suprised how life changes within a couple years. 2 years ago i wanted to die and i was hooked on drugs. I got kicked out of school and was sent to a school for troubled kids and i had no friends for that whole year there and all the kids i thought were my good friends never talked to me. I kicked my drug habit got out of that shithole and now i'm back were i was with different and cooler friends, have a good girlfriend who i actually care about and i party every weekend. Don't run away dude you'll have no where to go and just keep your head up for brighter days

peace

[juanskee]

wow,some real good fucking advice guys. listen up drinking. I'm 28 and still deal with shit that happened many years ago, everyday I deal (way more intense nonetheless). Try and find an angel man. If god thinks your ready an angel will fall in your lap. love will make sense of anything. For god sakes "if you can" kick some ass man. Find the speed in your fists son.

[koshea]

we had to read this book for english called black boy, its accually a really good in depth novel if you want a book to read, but there are parts where the main character always moves and every school he has to fit in and he knows how to do it...he knows if somone fucks with you, you gotta stand up fer yerself. iono...just...



self confidence thats all it is

[KronicKing]

back when i was younger(1-5 grade) i was in a simaler situation i grew up way to fast for the people around me it was like being 15 armound a bunch of kindergardners it helped me strive to be what i am now i have a few freinds but all of them are the best of freinds populatity means nothing to me because i relized its just another useless concept, freindship is rudimentary to easy to acheave(sp) now in highschool(15) i see that nothing can ever change from the way it is and i find i dont want it to i have a good life i smoke a joint and let all my problems float away i feel everyday that i hate school more and more because its so useless its just a waste of my time maybe ill go to collage and get a fresh start but i dout it maybe haveing 10 freinds is a good thing? its keeps u isolated from all the drama and regulare everyday bullshit of haveing to many freinds things become complicated and u have to worry about ploting people talking behind yore back,or maybe you do maybe i should have to worry about my freinds talking about me but why should i care? if i have a good book and a fat sack im happy no matter wot,i supose the point of this long post is to chill forget about it all when ur 18 u can go to collage or you can leave it all behind im moveing to europ right after i get my AA im leaveing it all to never come back i know its hard to and in a way impossable but dont pay any attention to what people say or you can go the other route and start wooping some ass if its the only way to stop it all than it has to be done,and btw never take shit from ur parents always fight back if they go out of their way to make yore life shit

[geoffrowley19]

how do i delete my messge?