My dad died

[da haze meister]

well everyone
it happened
he died
i dont even know what to say
he was pissed at me when he went to sleep
cuz i was out almost all night
and then i get wakne up this morning
he isnt breathing
he is pale
i dont know what to do
b ye
im crying like a baby

[go toke up]

damn, sorry to hear that.

[Gothen]

I am so, so sorry, Haze. I can't imagine what it is like to lose someone that you love that much.

Don't blame yourself for anything, though! I hope you don't think you somehow caused this. You didn't, and I'm sure if your dad could tell you one more thing, it's that he loves you more than anything, and that he is really proud of you.

Cry as much as you want, crying always helps me, though I do it too much...

[SensiRide]

Shit Im so so sorry :(
My thoughts are with you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[friendowl]

damn lil haze
im speechless
sorry to hear that

in a way i kinda hope your just fucking around

[birdgirl73]

I hope you're just putting us on, too, Haze, but if you're not, I'm sure sorry. That's rough.

[Big Calhoun]

Sorry to hear that, that's some deep stuff. Whatever happened between you and your dad, take it and use it as motivation to go forward in life. Maybe some things can't be undone, but you can always shape the future!

[cannabis campbell]

I dont know what to say, there isn't really anything to say to make it better really

im so sorry thats happened.

our thoughts are with u.

[slipknotpsycho]

I dont know what to say, there isn't really anything to say to make it better really

unfortunately this is the most true statment said in this thread so far... and it just plain sucks... i know it's true because the family memeber i loved the most was taken away...

i don't know what to say either, i never do... we're a community and i do care, i know it hurts, even if we weren't a community, it still hurts anyone... and i just want to take that pain away, but i can't... da haze, just because your dad was mad at you when he went to sleep, doesn't mean he's mad at you now, very much the opposite this i'm positive of. don't dwell on the fact that 'it's your fault' or 'he hated me when he died' because it will eat at you and eat at you, til there's nothing left to eat and you're just a void of anger and hate, and i know you're better then that...

[Nochowderforyou]

He dies and the first thought that comes in your head is, "I must post at the cannabis boards...?" Like I've said before, when Zero Revolt did this, the last thing that would pop into my head if my father died, is to come on the internet and make a post about it. Plus, with your track record of 98% bullshit, I can easily guess this is the same thing.

[slipknotpsycho]

He dies and the first thought that comes in your head is, "I must post at the cannabis boards...?" Like I've said before, when Zero Revolt did this, the last thing that would pop into my head if my father died, is to come on the internet and make a post about it. Plus, with your track record of 98% bullshit, I can easily guess this is the same thing.
and you're going to feel like one huge ass if you're wrong... i've said it before, even if they've done it a million times, even if you're sure they're lying, you still express your sympathys, or keep your mouth shut, or whatever, this is exactly the type of thing that can drive a person the way wrong way when they're in this situation.

[Skink]

He dies and the first thought that comes in your head is, "I must post at the cannabis boards...?" Like I've said before, when Zero Revolt did this, the last thing that would pop into my head if my father died, is to come on the internet and make a post about it. Plus, with your track record of 98% bullshit, I can easily guess this is the same thing.
half the people here have no one else they can talk to...

[Skink]

Haze it six i know,,, but it is what was meant to be... Life has no guarantees!!! Looks like you need to be a lot more responsible now... Be strong for the funeral bro...

God rest the in peace,,, Amen...

[keywestcathy]

Was thinking about you yesterday and was going to post a message about enjoying your posts no matter how controversial. I was just too lazy to do it so here it is now and I feel bad for you that life sucks and things never go the way we planned.

[da haze meister]

no really
he did
im on the PC to get my mind offa shit
it was weird... i woke up at like 7 to put plates in the dishhwasher
and i saw him
but didnt say anything
next thing i know my bro is waking me up
saying that dads not breathing
im not fucking around with you guys
i swear on my moms life
it wasnt the first thing i did
we were waiting for the coroner

[sweetnsoberz]

i jus dunno what to say.......

[rantingsweed]

im so sorry man. if you need to talk or something hit me up on msn or email [email protected]

[Pride]

I guess what pissed you off is the last thing you heard your dad say to you..
Keep in mind he yelled at you because he cares for you and was worried about you. His last words to you were not of anger and hate but were actually words of care and love.

2006 seems to be a bad year.
I got robbed, my dad went insane, my friend's mom died, my other friend's parents got divorced, my uncle's wife is cheating on him and his kid has anorexia, the list goes on.
2007 better be a good fucking year. At least for video games it will cause of those 2 new consoles coming out. But let's hope happy events follow up as well!
6 is truely the devil's number though..

[robert42]

im sorry but i understand nochowders reaction if you cry wolf when the wolf does gome no 1 will beleive you.

If your father passed away im sorry i dont know what to say, but times are tuff - lays of the drugs and drink..etc for a bit get over it in your OWN way.

Robert

[robert42]

2006 seems to be a bad year.
I got robbed, my dad went insane, my friend's mom died, my other friend's parents got divorced, my uncle's wife is cheating on him and his kid has anorexia, the list goes on.
2007 better be a good fucking year. At least for video games it will cause of those 2 new consoles coming out. But let's hope happy events follow up as well!
6 is truely the devil's number though..


hurray for the ps3 :rolleyes::p

[Pride]

stfu son and show some respect for da haze meister

we're all crying out for ya man.
ps3 ftw

[robert42]

;) thanks pride back at ya :)

[sweetnsoberz]

stfu son and show some respect for da haze meister

we're all crying out for ya man.
ps3 ftw


you just need to see where chowder and rob is coming from, there have been lots of threads where he cried wolf and its just hard to believe this one, im not saying its not true, but my deepest condolences are for haze, but i swear, if i find out your lying again i will never ever speak to you again haze cause this would be the last straw for every1 and you will lose respect from every1....but i pray in a way you are crying wolf again because i just cant imagine losing a parent.....:(

[Bong30]

Sorry to hear of your loss.......

Glad you went on that road trip with him.

My prayers are with you and your family haze.........

[BloodAngel]

I don't want to really say anything but you have my condolences...
I can tell this is real... when I'm really upset on the computer, I make a ton of typos and twitch and hit the enter button a lot, etc...
Pull through it man... I was really bummed when my grandparents died, but helping go through their house and organize stuff made me get some closure, just thinking about all the good memories of when I was a small kid...

And it really sucks that you guys were mad at eachother the last time you saw eachother... That's how it was with my mom and her mom (my grandmother).. But you just gotta remember, you were only mad at him for that night, you still love him as your father and he still had all the love for his son...

Sorry, I typed a lot... but I hope it works out for you man

[alexisonfire xo]

That's awful, man.

Pull through.

[orangeman]

....Omfg man. I dont even know what to say. It just didnt seem like it would happen. I thought he was ok from his heart attack. Damn man I'm really sorry, dont do anything crazy man. Just hang in there.

[Psycho4Bud]

Sorry to hear it dude. Keep in mind that your ma will need you now more than ever....be cool for her! You and your family have my condolences.

[Its a Plant]

Let Tupac's words offer some miniscule bit of advice:

"Keep 'ya head up."

Hang in there man.

[4252]

Sorry, didn't read the other posts, no time.

Be the man he wanted you to be, it'll happen anyway. Life goes on.

Regards,
Tom

[SmokingPlatypus]

Best of luck in dealing with this, DHM. I know that you and your family can get through it.

[3rdEyeVision]

Sorry to hear that man, it might not be the best thing to say at this time but just go talk to your bro and your mom, try not to talk to lots of people at school about it(friends,teachers,principles etc.) cause it can get really annoying and they wont forget about it for a long time.... my advice is just try not to think about it and when you do remember all the good times you had with your dad, theres nothing you can do too change what happened so just use it to make your life better.....is there anything in particular your dad wanted you to do, getting a job or going fishing with him or something, take this time to do those things with other people and "make a new family". Its just one of the things that people have to go through though so deal with it the best way you can and live your life the way your dad wanted you too.

[puffpuffand away]

you just need to see where chowder and rob is coming from, there have been lots of threads where he cried wolf and its just hard to believe this one, im not saying its not true, but my deepest condolences are for haze, but i swear, if i find out your lying again i will never ever speak to you again haze cause this would be the last straw for every1 and you will lose respect from every1....but i pray in a way you are crying wolf again because i just cant imagine losing a parent.....:(

there r probably more than a few that have heard the cry of the wolf...

if ur father died im very sorry...

but...

peace...

[Its a Plant]

I still follow the good ole "innocent until proven guilty" policy. Sure he has cried wolf before, that was like once or twice, but come on, now our little wolf is crying..

B E H A P P Y

[sweetnsoberz]

i wasnt trying to be a bytch you guys im just backing up what some are saying....but yes innocent until proven guilty is the theory here and haze i feel for ya man, u need to stick with your moms and ur bro and dont do anything stupid since you may think he was pissed at u when he died, he just loves and cares for you man.....just gotta remember things happen for a reason in this cruel world, god has a plan for all of us, im still waiting to see wtf his plan is for me, but at least your dad maybe in a better place than seeing this fuked up world going to hell like it is already....

[Wesley Pipes]

Haze dude, i... dunno what to say man :( other than that i'm sorry for your loss.

Death comes for us all at some point, we can't escape it, only embrace that when it's time to go, it's time to go :(

Grieve whichever way you want man, but just remember to make the most of your own time left in this world, i'm sure your father wouldn't want you to dwell on something that would've happened eventually anyway. :(

And for what it's worth, i believe your telling the truth dude.

Hope you can make some sense of things and get on with life.

My thoughts are with you.

Peace

[sweetnsoberz]

too many sad faces in that shyt wessy poo, when yo ass gonna come back to chat? lol

[Wesley Pipes]

too many sad faces in that shyt wessy poo, when yo ass gonna come back to chat? lol
sorry bout the sad faces sweetnsoberz, but death is sad news, wether it's expected or not. :o

i been busy working lately (quite alot of long shifts) and have no weed so havent really been in the mood for the chatroom lately, and some things weigh heavy on my mind so i don't want to bring everyone down (my problems are miniscule in comparison to that of others), i'll pop in tomoro, but right now i'm goin to bed cuz its late and i have to work in about 6 hours :)

Peace.

[sweetnsoberz]

i understand wessy, much love to all

[dank ass nugs]

yeah man im sorry for your lose. my bro's friends dad died a few years ago and he handled it with drugs and it messed up his whole life so get high or whatever but becareful and keep sane about things nows your time to flourish and have inspiration for doing good so use it well.

[BuenoMota]

I'm so sorry, I hope as a community here we can help you. I know it sucks to have something like that happen. You will pull through, shit gets rough, but you can handle it. Take care man. I hope well for you.

[kiwi]

:( HAZE.....there are no words that I can say to let you know how deeply sorry I am to hear of the passing of your dad. Just know my dear friend that I am thinking of you and your family and you will all be in my preys. Be strong hun and just know that even though this is only the internet you do have friends here that care about you and we are here for you if you need to talk.

ALL MY LOVE
kiwi xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[smoke it]

im sorry. i aint guna type 400 words of mushy bullshit, but i will say remember the good times and forget the bad. good luck.

[da haze meister]

man... i still dont think this shit is real
it still seems like a dream
and i really feel sad but i knew he was gone
when i first saw him
pale skin... eyes wide open
just
damn man im just freaked out
i just wish i got to talk to him thats all
he was such a cool guy
i mean oh my god
and to those that pull the cry wolf card... only fukked aoroun once in 1700 posts
my mom is so broken up over it
i saw a box of golf balls and literally started crying like a little girl
even my dealer sent his condolences
showed up at my house introduced himself to my mom lol
but i just dont know how im gonna go on
im not gonna pass any of my classes
ever

[graph]

People never really die. I'm sure your father influenced you, and he lives on through you. Do the right thing, so he didn't die in vain.

Even this shall pass away.

[cannabis campbell]

Let Tupac's words offer some miniscule bit of advice:

"Keep 'ya head up."

Hang in there man.

yes! you can quote tupac for probably everything in life :D

[WhiskeyGirl]

man... i still dont think this shit is real
it still seems like a dream
and i really feel sad but i knew he was gone
when i first saw him
pale skin... eyes wide open
just
damn man im just freaked out
i just wish i got to talk to him thats all
he was such a cool guy
i mean oh my god
and to those that pull the cry wolf card... only fukked aoroun once in 1700 posts
my mom is so broken up over it
i saw a box of golf balls and literally started crying like a little girl
even my dealer sent his condolences
showed up at my house introduced himself to my mom lol
but i just dont know how im gonna go on
im not gonna pass any of my classes
ever

You have to pass your classes, your 16 right? Dont you think your dad would want it that way? Please do it for him , if not for yourself ok? And your mom she needs you , you need her, I know its rough, it will be for a while but you will get threw it, its a part of life--- same as being born, you will be a dad one day, remember the good times, I am very sorry for your loss, even though I do not know you , my mom died at 60, and I am not the same without her, but time heals all wounds and you have to go on....... you just do, you have lotsa support!
take Care Hun!
WG :)

[da haze meister]

im just fuckin broken up over it
last time i talked to him
i was saying bye as i left the house to go get POD'ed
and i just cant fucking understand
the motherfucking paramedics were moving as slow as possible even when our neighbor told them code blue
made my fucking blood boil
a man not responding in cardiac arrest and they waltz their asses in?
i had a thought in the back of my mind to go get my gun but that wouldnt have saved him
i honestly am in denial
i jsut cant believe hes gone
its like the look on his face
when i last saw him
its just killing me
we will never golf again
drive again
shoot again
talk again
laugh again
and its just
im a wreck
im not goin to sleep
its over

[LittLeWinG]

Oh man thats horrible, im feelin so bad for you dude. That is such a fucked up situation for a 16 year old (your 16 right?) to be in, if that was me in your situation i dont know what id do. Life is fucking unfair. Life's a bitch man, but make the most of it, you only live once.
Death is everywhere dude, he is behind us breathin down our neck....be strong man, show him you aint scared.

if you want to talk, add my msn ([email protected])

[LittLeWinG]

You know what, how many Matts are on this board? My name is Matt too...

My name's Matt too man :thumbsup: Damn

[yabatab]

Sorry to hear that my friend, and try to do what your dad would have
wanted to see you accomplish. He is still around just not in a physical
form.

And to the people that want to poke fun and make comments......well you
are some heartless son of a bitchs find another thread to spew your arbitrary
juvenile bullshit.

[LittLeWinG]

add my msn haze, have a talk ay

[go toke up]

Im with you on this.....


I cant believe you people actually eat up this pretentious bullshit.

I read just a fraction of his posts and im actually suprised he is not banned....

Its actually sad to see a bunch of stoners being empathetical about some kiddy bullshit....
lol.. i have to agree.

[LittLeWinG]

Give him the benefit of the doubt, you'll will feel like assholes when you find out this shits for real and you make haze feel like shit. I wouldnt want people making conspiracy theorys about my dads death if i was in haze's position.

Fuck all you skeptical assholes :mad:

[3rdEyeVision]

whats FFS mean??

[LittLeWinG]

Does it matter what he has said or done in the past? forget about it man. This aint a topic to laugh at, if hes lying then thats fucked up, and im takin into opinion that most people in their right mind would not lie about this shit. So shut the fuck up and give some respect, you motherfucker.

[LittLeWinG]

Damn, some people in this world make me want to be sick.

[yabatab]

Hey man, you're just asking to start a flame war. Nobody has posted anything bad, just some were skeptical, since Haze has done something similar in the past. I believe Haze, I don't think he would joke about something like this.

No, to start a so called "flame war" was not my intentions at all.
Just speaking my mind.

[puffpuffand away]

is ur dad gonna have an obituary in the papper??

u should post it ...

[puffpuffand away]

who the hell writes something like this when they have just lost a close loved one? Sorry to call you out dude but i see right through you and it's not fair cuz there are alot of kind hearted people on this board.
your the biggest attenton whore.

I know your full of it. Everybody who believes you is just too stoned to remember anything beyond the past 10 days. You really are pathetic dude. You need to go to a therapist and talk to him about your self esteem issues and compulsive lying.

u really do need 2 seek some kind of help...

[rhino44]

u really do need 2 seek some kind of help...


why for having half a brain? it was just so painfully obvious i had to point it out.

[puffpuffand away]

Does it matter what he has said or done in the past? forget about it man. This aint a topic to laugh at, if hes lying then thats fucked up, and im takin into opinion that most people in their right mind would not lie about this shit. So shut the fuck up and give some respect, you motherfucker.


yes it matters what he has said in the past...


he had people scared 2 death , on that suiside shit...

then his little trip capper...

no this is not 1 bit funny...

i only give respect, when respect is due...

[rhino44]

oh yeah i see what you mean puff puff. I just had to call him on it cuz i see so many kind people wasting their time and emotions on this, when i can tell it's a load of crap. I have lost loved ones and let me tell you i wouldnt go post about it or write a gangster rap when most people would be in mourning. I know everybody mourns differently but having followed some of hazes charades in the past i quickly realized this was just another ploy for him to get attention.

[PsychedelicSins]

Does it matter what he has said or done in the past? forget about it man. This aint a topic to laugh at, if hes lying then thats fucked up, and im takin into opinion that most people in their right mind would not lie about this shit. So shut the fuck up and give some respect, you motherfucker.


This kid is in no way shape or form anything that could be closely concieveable as a right mind. This kid is an abnormal bi-polar wreck, and you gullible people just feed into it. I guess some people here just dont see obvious clues and patterns that predict a lie......

Save yourself some dignity....

[LittLeWinG]

Im losing my dignity because im stickin up for a kid whos dad just died? yeah man good work :thumbsup:

[PsychedelicSins]

Fool me once shame on you, Fool me twice shame on me...



Have a good one :)

[rhino44]

you can bring a horse to water but you cant make them drink

[yabatab]

It is better to show compassion for someone even if you doubt they are
telling the truth. If the story turns out not to be true, so what you
showed that you actually respect human life and other peoples feelings.

[LittLeWinG]

It is better to show compassion for someone even if you doubt they are
telling the truth. If the story turns out not to be true, so what you
showed that you actually respect human life and other peoples feelings.

true, follow this dudes example :thumbsup:

[Psycho4Bud]

NO MORE personal attacks!:mad:

Have a good one!:thumbsup:

[LittLeWinG]

sorry. but come on man, those guys should cut haze a bit of slack this time...and if we find out he's lying, then they can give him what he deserves.

Put everythin aside, shit will get better haze

[Psycho4Bud]

Nothing on you LittLeWinG.....there was two others that pushed it a bit far so from here on out...IT COMES TO AN END!

If you don't have something decent to say...keep it to yourself people.

Have a good one!:thumbsup:

[JayW]

lol.. i have to agree.
How about you shut the fuck up you faggot asshole. Go run into a knife. I'll get the party hats out.

Neither me or Matt got much sleep last night. It seems like it was my fault. My mom woke me up yesterday morning to clean the kitchen, then I went back to bed. I thought to myself, "Maybe I should sit and eat breakfast with dad", but then I realized how tired I was. I got up at about noon and went to go 'wake' dad. There he was. I felt his skin...ice cold. Mouth open, eyes glazed, skin white. I was so scared. I called for mom. She screamed for 911, but I felt it was too late.

It's so hard for me to relate back to this because it seems so fake and so scary, like it was a dream when you're half-asleep.

And for all you non-believers, go fuck yourselves. I was there.

[Nylo]

Sorry to hear that, man. It's good that you guys had time to spend together, even if things fell on an unfavorable note the last time you talked. That's just a part of being a family, it's not natural to never have conflicts with parents.

People have to move on, and it's rough man. Really rough. I wish there was some quick answer to get your mind off of the whole thing. His consciousness will always be with you, and no amount of time can take that from away.

Don't beat yourself up, gotta keep moving man. Keep moving and make your dad proud.

[MaryJaneintheCloset]

I know words can't heal, but I am so sorry for your loss. Things will get easier as time goes by. :(

[LittLeWinG]

How about you shut the fuck up you faggot asshole. Go run into a knife. I'll get the party hats out.

Neither me or Matt got much sleep last night. It seems like it was my fault. My mom woke me up yesterday morning to clean the kitchen, then I went back to bed. I thought to myself, "Maybe I should sit and eat breakfast with dad", but then I realized how tired I was. I got up at about noon and went to go 'wake' dad. There he was. I felt his skin...ice cold. Mouth open, eyes glazed, skin white. I was so scared. I called for mom. She screamed for 911, but I felt it was too late.

It's so hard for me to relate back to this because it seems so fake and so scary, like it was a dream when you're half-asleep.

And for all you non-believers, go fuck yourselves. I was there.

I feel so shitty for you and haze, best of luck you two.:(

[da haze meister]

yes it matters what he has said in the past...


he had people scared 2 death , on that suiside shit...

then his little trip capper...

no this is not 1 bit funny...

i only give respect, when respect is due...
wait wait what?
are you saying trip CAPER?
i was fucking there you insolent motherfucker
rofl i posted my god damn boarding pass
and all my IPs matched the places where i said i was
punk motherfuckers
jesus this is not the way to treat this issue
insensitive punk motherfuckers (rhino44)

[da haze meister]

i cant fucking believe this shit
why would i lie about this?
the suicide thing wasnt meant to be posted
'twas a joke btween friends
im just fuckin freaked out
moreso for my brother cuz he found the body
we go to the funeral home in 30 min to pick a casket
and then the cemetery to get two plots.
i will scan his obituary. i will do that if you sick fuckers dont believe me
really saddens me

[Az.]

Dude!
Im sorry to hear the news!

My best wishes are with you and your family!

you know we will be here if you want to talk

All the best dude
Az.

[LittLeWinG]

i cant fucking believe this shit
why would i lie about this?
the suicide thing wasnt meant to be posted
'twas a joke btween friends
im just fuckin freaked out
moreso for my brother cuz he found the body
we go to the funeral home in 30 min to pick a casket
and then the cemetery to get two plots.
i will scan his obituary. i will do that if you sick fuckers dont believe me
really saddens me

man, dont go to the lengths of scannin your dads obituary just to proove to some assholes that your dad is really dead, like serious man if they dont beleive you then FUCK THEM. They are insensitive assholes and they arnt worth even bothering with, forget about them man

Keep ya head up

[BobBong]

i cant fucking believe this shit
why would i lie about this?
the suicide thing wasnt meant to be posted
'twas a joke btween friends
im just fuckin freaked out
moreso for my brother cuz he found the body
we go to the funeral home in 30 min to pick a casket
and then the cemetery to get two plots.
i will scan his obituary. i will do that if you sick fuckers dont believe me
really saddens me

Man.. you need to walk away brother. This shit.. these people that are trying to throw it in your face, are stupid. You hear me people? I'm really fucking disgusted that some people would believe that this is nothing more than a joke.. *spits*

da haze,
I'm sorry your father died man.. i can only imagine how it feels and frankly, i'd rather not even do that. I was really hoping he'd pull through because i know how much you were hoping for it too.

You need to spend time with your family. As hard as it'll feel and as much as you want to distract yourself from this... you can't. Nor should you. Do not hide your feelings from this because in the end that is all you really have. Forget what anyone says, anyone types or posts.. I can hear you saying "fuck them" and that's exactly what i want to see.. the "fuck them" attitude.

Please don't post proof of this haze... you'll regret doing so in the future.. these people online and not actually a part of your life don't really care... that and only that is the reason they would even attempt to say otherwise.

I'm not saying nobody cares, i'm simply saying you shouldn't care if people believe you or not...

Take care man, help your family and keep movin' forward...it's all you can do.

Cheers man...Hope this helps,
Bob.

[latewood]

Sorry da dude...Hate to hear about anyone losing there Father...I am getting to the age where it is inevitable, that I am going to lose a parent in years to come...God forbid; Hang in there, Life goes On, and the 'ol Man would've wanted you to Live that Life...so be it. Latewood


chowder, chowder, chowder...hmmm sad

[smitty420]

damn stay strong and i send my condolences. Maybe lay off any substances for awhile they can make u feel worse

[latewood]

I wouldn't sacrifice my privacy by posting up your Dad's personal info.

On another note...I am sure I would post something here if one of My loved-ones died. Cdot is a part of my life, as well as many of you posting here...despite DHM's past history; I think all you naysayer's are Assholes...peace

and yes, I do have a life and a business or 2 and a farm, and rebuilding a house and still find time to help out here.

[Fengzi]

Sorry for your loss Haze. I know from personal experience that it is very hard to deal with your parents mortality. If it makes you feel any better, it sounds like he died painlessly in his sleep, and you can take some comfort in that. At least he didn't suffer from some painful, long term disease. Hang in there bro.

[cani]

hi haze, sorry bout your Dad. one of the worst things to go thru in your life. lost my Dad, seemed all of a sudden, little did I know bout his health. plus my son just lost his Dad. you have a lot of emotions go get thru, along with the rest of your family. we will be here when you want to come back in chat. pm me any time. xoxo

[FunkyMonkey]

Haze, I feel for your sense of loss. I know the feeling of losing a father. I lived it myself when I was 14.
I wish there was some way I could provide some comfort to you but all I have is words. We have words, and a feeling in our heart that we want to share with you but that alone will never heal the wounds you have right now.
Time will do that, time and understanding and above all love.
We can try to share our love with you with our words and hope that somehow it may reach the part of you that needs it most.
Words cannot truly express this but we will try. We will try because we can all relate on some level and those of us who have not lost a parent or a close loved one can imagine the feelings you must have inside you right now.
We all feel connected to something like this.
So even though some of our words might seem hollow and empty and meaningless compared to what you are facing, know that they are sent to you with a deep sincerity.
Read our words when you are able and imagine that your circle of support grows with each word you read. Each word represents love for you and a desire to take some of your suffering from you.
Use us as a place to speak the things you might not be able to with your friends and family. Use us to vent the darkness if you wish.
We are here for you to help you in whatever way you feel we can.
Ask and you will recieve my friend. We are not all just strangers on the other end of wires and cables, we are people who care.
We are here man, with our words, our hearts and our souls.

peace and love and understanding.

I will say a prayer for you and your family.
Know that oyour father can still hear you and feel you and his love will never be gone from your life. You are his child and that bond can never be broken, and that relationship is everlasting.

FM

[sweetnsoberz]

hit me up on msn tonight lil haze, we shall talk if you want, you have soooo many people who care about you in this community whether you realize it or not, you are well taken care of my friend, god bless.....

[kingjustin]

Yeah HAze- don't worry what the asshole kids say. You do what's right for you, and don't let anyone tell you otherwise.
I know the feeling- if you need someone to talk to, we're all here for ya.

[spacelamb]

Haze....I've never met you and probably never will, but I've enjoyed "seeing" you around these boards.

I am so sorry about the loss of your dad. There has been lots of good advice and offers of shoulders to cry on given to you. Some of the best support will come from your family, hold onto each other. Take as much time as you need to mourn your dad. Cry and then cry somemore. Your dad DOES live on in you, conduct yourself and live a life that both you and he can be proud of. I do believe this should mean finishing school. It may suck now or not seem worth it, but short-term suckage will pay off with long term benefits.

God Bless you and your family.

[partyguy420]

usaly, when some one dies, they dont get on the internet to post it, so i dont think he realy just died, but anyways, if your telling the truth, im sorry.

[Torog]

Howdy da haze,

Man...I'm really sorry to hear of yer loss:( You and your family,are in my thoughts and prayers..I wish that I was there for ya at this difficult time. Be strong and helpful in the coming days,for yer family..and keep yer chin up.

Try and Have a good one ...

[Dutch Pimp]

Death. It stalks us everyday. I have to attend my brother's funeral Saturday morning. 07/15/06

[pokin smot]

i hope u get through this man. i think u should have a huge party celebrating all of his good qualities and accomplishments. my dad always told me that if he died party for all the things he did with his life.

[smitty420]

o yea and anyone that is saying your bsing or w.e is a fucking prick

[da haze meister]

usaly, when some one dies, they dont get on the internet to post it, so i dont think he realy just died, but anyways, if your telling the truth, im sorry.
see, i would though
i view you guys (at least most of you) as my friends
just as much as my real friends in life
and i just felt the need to let you know
and im looking for anybody to talk to

[smitty420]

haze dont even answer people who are being assholes its a waste of your time and is probably taking a toll on u emotionally having to explain yourself time after time. Just know that the majority of us feel terrible for you and want to help u get thru this

[partyguy420]

see, i would though
i view you guys (at least most of you) as my friends
just as much as my real friends in life
and i just felt the need to let you know
and im looking for anybody to talk to


ok, yea, im just saying, it would take a while for me to post a thing on here, but, im sorry to hear about your dad.

my homies girl got in a car crash yesterday night. she was drunk driving, and smashed into a tree, and died instantly. and ive been sort of low lately, due to the fact that, my homie is down, and he aint happy, cause he realy loved her, and didnt know how to show it properly, so hes all torn up.

[mrdevious]

DaHazeMeister you have my deepest sympathies. As a few here have already said, there is nothing to say to make you feel better. However, I think the best advice I have to offer right now is to be true to yourself and your feelings. Seek out and acknowledge everything you are feeling and let it out as needed. When you are ready to be happy again one day, don't try to force the happiness to come, nor should you supress the sadness. Only do what needs to be done to feel happy, and let it come as it does.

[Psycho4Bud]

see, i would though
i view you guys (at least most of you) as my friends
just as much as my real friends in life
and i just felt the need to let you know
and im looking for anybody to talk to


You got my e-mail....anytime bro!:thumbsup:

[m.g.]

well, it's so easy to check i'm surprised no one thought about it...just look in the obituaries for cleveland, oh

[klonopin]

well, it's so easy to check i'm surprised no one thought about it...just look in the obituaries for cleveland, oh
im sure people ,,,,,,,actully what happens if its real, then you gonna give condolenses:(

[BobBong]

well, it's so easy to check i'm surprised no one thought about it...just look in the obituaries for cleveland, oh

Yes.. under the listing for "meister"? Or maybe under "da haze"....

give it a rest please...i'm pretty sure it's safe to say this isn't a joke...and if you think otherwise, you can keep it to yourself.

just makes people look assholes that's all...

[klonopin]

100% true bobbong

[Its a Plant]

Lol. Yeah, all these asshole is starting to stank this thread up!

Haze, pull through and don't even bat an eye at the hate.

It's all love here.

[Bong30]

Haze, hows your little bro doing?

[m.g.]

yes bob...which is why i posted that so people bitching about his credibilty can take it off the boards and do their own investigation in private instead of speculating about it here. they have already posted their first names and obits list immediate family so it's not that hard to figure out.

relax

[da haze meister]

Haze, hows your little bro doing?
pretty bad... he posts here as JayW...
he found my dad... walked in to wake him up and maybe watch TV with him
and he was cold and white... he picked up his hand and it just flopped...
all i remember is my bro waking me up at about 12 and i hear screaming and my moms trying to give him CPR... but i knew he was dead from the second i saw him... limp white and stone fucking cold... it killed my heart.
if i had one wish... it would not be for him to be back in my life, as he was in constant pain due to hypertension, heart problems, and Type 2 diabetes, but just to have a few minutes to talk to him... give a final goodbye... and just carry on a conversation. i would tell him how much i loved him and appreciated him... how great of a father he was... how much he did for my mom and my brother and my estranged sister and me and just let him know that he will always be in my heart and mind... i just hope he is doin alright in heaven... we are burying him with a blues CD and a classical CD an e.e. cummings book... his reading glasses... pictures of our beloved puppies... a CD player and headphones... his flight cap, flight suit, and basketball gear under it... he loved basketball and had a hell of a jumpshot... a stopwatch for the 4.18 mile he used to run at william tennet in philly... and i think thats it. he is recieving a full military burial with an honor guard flags taps and such. about 300-400 people are scheduled to show up at the funeral. i will not scan the obituary, because i realize that i should not sacrifice my privacy to prove something to a bunch of people on a message board... i can show it to bobbong and he will vouch for it... but if you dont believe me, you can fucking lick my sack cuz i dont care anymore. the suicide thing was an accidental addition to the boards, and besides that i have a clean track record ty very much. i have nothing to prove. i just miss my father. he was the greatest man i ever knew... he could jsut captivate someone when he talked to them... i just cant believe he is gone. its like a bad dream. somethings missing from my heart and soul... and if it werent for my mother and brother i probably would have offed myself by now (dont call the five 0 i wont im not making plans to) i just need to live life for them... im the man of the house now. im gonna miss my father so much.

[Az.]

dude...

that brought a tear to my eye...

I know I don't know you, but honestly you have my utmost sympathy.

Stay strong man!!

Best wishes
Aaron.

[PsychedelicSins]

yes bob...which is why i posted that so people bitching about his credibilty can take it off the boards and do their own investigation in private instead of speculating about it here. they have already posted their first names and obits list immediate family so it's not that hard to figure out.

relax


Are you del...?????????/

[HDFHomer]

I dont know U but im sad at ur loss chin up bro:rasta:

[Bong30]

Haze........... you need to think long and hard about being the man of the house.

you will make mistakes, you will need help, You will be the MAN.

My preyers are with you and your family.


JayW, you hang in there little bro. we are here for you too............

[da haze meister]

Haze........... you need to think long and hard about being the man of the house.

you will make mistakes, you will need help, You will be the MAN.

My preyers are with you and your family.


JayW, you hang in there little bro. we are here for you too............
thanks dude
its just killing me
everything reminds me of him
his glasses laying around
the empty ass kitchen
kids i dont even know were wishing condolences today
really touched my heart but i still miss him
all i want is a few minutes with him

[Bong30]

If you think about him......and are open to it. he might come to you in a dream.


Haze..........listen to this show for three weeks it will help. i promise you.
http://www.theothersidewithstevegodfrey.com/

[Psycho4Bud]

PsychedelicSins .....maybe you should cool it with the bullshit.

[Bong30]

Haze.... just relax and know your Dad is still loving and watching you... from the other side.......

He wont even think twice about your fights......... all he will remember is the good times............ i suggest you try the same.

[birdgirl73]

Haze, sweetie, I've been thinking about your and your brother all day today and hoping you guys and your mom are all making it OK. I'm so sorry about your loss, and I know it's been devastating for you all, particularly you since you felt like things weren't left on a good note and for your brother, who found him.

You're doing precisely what you need to be doing, and I'm in awe of how articulately and sensitively you're writing about what you're feeling and thinking. That's very healthy, and I'm glad you're continuing to check in here.

You can still talk to your dad, actually. I truly believe he's someplace where he can hear and feel the love you express, and it's important to voice what you wish you could say even if he's no longer here in the conscious world. I've got a very ill sister who's not going to be with us for a whole lot longer, and one of the things she has asked for is for us to write letters to her and put them with her when she's buried because she thinks it'll be comforting for her and therapeutic for us. I'm sure it will be. Even so, we're all making sure we say what we need to now, too. Anyway, that letter idea might be a good one for you, too.

I don't know if this'll help or not, but parents and kids have friction. It's expected. And even when we parents are mad at our kids or they are mad at us, we still know we love each other. Even when very mean things are said, we do. Your dad knew you loved him. I promise he did. And he loved you. He wouldn't have done that road trip if that weren't the case. He wouldn't have been the hard-ass he was at times if that weren't the case.

You're in my thoughts and prayers, hon. Keep us in the loop because we're all thinking about you, pulling for your family, and sending all the positive energy we can. Take care.

[PsychedelicSins]

PsychedelicSins .....maybe you should cool it with the bullshit.


Maybe you should stop deleting my bullshit:thumbsup:

[Psycho4Bud]

Thought I'd do it one more time.....see ya in three. How many times does one person have to be warned?:confused:

Have a good one!:thumbsup:

[da haze meister]

Haze, sweetie, I've been thinking about your and your brother all day today and hoping you guys and your mom are all making it OK. I'm so sorry about your loss, and I know it's been devastating for you all, particularly you since you felt like things weren't left on a good note and for your brother, who found him.

You're doing precisely what you need to be doing, and I'm in awe of how articulately and sensitively you're writing about what you're feeling and thinking. That's very healthy, and I'm glad you're continuing to check in here.

You can still talk to your dad, actually. I truly believe he's someplace where he can hear and feel the love you express, and it's important to voice what you wish you could say even if he's no longer here in the conscious world. I've got a very ill sister who's not going to be with us for a whole lot longer, and one of the things she has asked for is for us to write letters to her and put them with her when she's buried because she thinks it'll be comforting for her and therapeutic for us. I'm sure it will be. Even so, we're all making sure we say what we need to now, too. Anyway, that letter idea might be a good one for you, too.

I don't know if this'll help or not, but parents and kids have friction. It's expected. And even when we parents are mad at our kids or they are mad at us, we still know we love each other. Even when very mean things are said, we do. Your dad knew you loved him. I promise he did. And he loved you. He wouldn't have done that road trip if that weren't the case. He wouldn't have been the hard-ass he was at times if that weren't the case.

You're in my thoughts and prayers, hon. Keep us in the loop because we're all thinking about you, pulling for your family, and sending all the positive energy we can. Take care.
i sincerely appreciate this, ms. bird
he was a hard ass at times, but i still miss him
he was the only one who accepted my usage of pot
its just hes gone forever... i might be able to talk to him... but the best part was always holding a conversation with him... he was well versed, extremely smart, and articulate (in fact i just found out that if it werent for him being called to Laos for combat... he was going to go to oxford) and it was just heavenly arguing with him. it took me three hours of consistent battering to convince him to let me smoke. he was kind and open minded... even being raised in a strictly lutheran home he converted to judaism just out of love for my mother, and because he found that he could hold a more gripping conversation with a rabbi than he ever could have with a pastor... no offense to any other religions out there... love you all... and it was just like... damn... hes gone... he aint comin back, and thats the part that hurts me the most. its one sided conversation from here on out. all me. it hurts me inside. makes me feel like not living anymore... you know to go up there and see him... burying your father at this age is not something that anyone likes to do... its going to be the hardest thing i have ever done immediately following the best three weeks of my life

[MeHeartGanja]

man...im sorry dude...
the only thing id do is cherish the good times and go by all the important things hes said to you...and if youve found his qualities unmatched, live to honour him and those qualites. dya know waddai mean?

lifes not fair sometimes...
be stong.

ps. sometimes i wish ppl i really cared about who have passed away could come back as blue ghosts...like obi wan...bit off topic tho sorry...

[birdgirl73]

I hear you, Haze. And I realize that I was in the trying-to-comfort-you mode. And truly there is no comfort. I get that now.

I need to learn not to automatically react with a sort of Mama'll-make-it-better message. Maybe I'm second-handedly trying to make myself feel better about the situation here, too.

No one can make this better 'cause he is gone. And I can't make my sister get over cancer, either. You have to keep going in spite of that. So do I.

I don't want to keep going, either. I guess I will because it's what she wants. I hope you'll come to the same conclusion. But I hear you loud and clear.

[da haze meister]

well make sure you cherish and love all the times you have with yer sis
never know when god will take her from you
good night

[Bong30]

night

[puffpuffand away]

i been sittin here looking at all these threads...

and it dawned on me...

just who am i 2 judge u or what u say...

and rite down 2 it, its none of my business...

from what i have been reading about what u say about ur dad...

he was a great guy...

and i,ll bet ur mom is every bit the lady...

u r a lucky young man 2 still have her...

so now u just need 2 get it 2gether...

and realize ur the man now...

u have my deepest sympathy for ur father...


he is in a better place now...


God has him...

and between the 2 of them , u will do just fine...


i wish u the very besy in life...

step up, b the man...

God b with u all...

[LittLeWinG]

pretty bad... he posts here as JayW...
he found my dad... walked in to wake him up and maybe watch TV with him
and he was cold and white... he picked up his hand and it just flopped...
all i remember is my bro waking me up at about 12 and i hear screaming and my moms trying to give him CPR... but i knew he was dead from the second i saw him... limp white and stone fucking cold... it killed my heart.
if i had one wish... it would not be for him to be back in my life, as he was in constant pain due to hypertension, heart problems, and Type 2 diabetes, but just to have a few minutes to talk to him... give a final goodbye... and just carry on a conversation. i would tell him how much i loved him and appreciated him... how great of a father he was... how much he did for my mom and my brother and my estranged sister and me and just let him know that he will always be in my heart and mind... i just hope he is doin alright in heaven... we are burying him with a blues CD and a classical CD an e.e. cummings book... his reading glasses... pictures of our beloved puppies... a CD player and headphones... his flight cap, flight suit, and basketball gear under it... he loved basketball and had a hell of a jumpshot... a stopwatch for the 4.18 mile he used to run at william tennet in philly... and i think thats it. he is recieving a full military burial with an honor guard flags taps and such. about 300-400 people are scheduled to show up at the funeral. i will not scan the obituary, because i realize that i should not sacrifice my privacy to prove something to a bunch of people on a message board... i can show it to bobbong and he will vouch for it... but if you dont believe me, you can fucking lick my sack cuz i dont care anymore. the suicide thing was an accidental addition to the boards, and besides that i have a clean track record ty very much. i have nothing to prove. i just miss my father. he was the greatest man i ever knew... he could jsut captivate someone when he talked to them... i just cant believe he is gone. its like a bad dream. somethings missing from my heart and soul... and if it werent for my mother and brother i probably would have offed myself by now (dont call the five 0 i wont im not making plans to) i just need to live life for them... im the man of the house now. im gonna miss my father so much.

i felt like cryin when i read this, cant even imagine what your going through. :(

[greenetn05]

I am sorry to hear that man i know how you feel my dad was killed when i was 13 it was very hard on me but just know that you can't dwell on the bad and try to remeber the good hope everything works out for you and god bless you

[graph]

I've never had a good relationship with my dad. I haven't talked to him in almost a year, and haven't seen him in almost two. I think I'm gonna go find him now, and get a plane ticket to wherever he is.

Thanks man. I think you've put my priorities back in order.

[da haze meister]

thanks everyone for the kind words
yet another morning waking up without him
i feel so bad... i woke up and expected to see him in his room
as if it was all a bad dream
but it wasnt

[Psycho4Bud]

Hang in there dude! It's a hard road but things eventually get better....remember the good times as they say.

Take care....you and your family!:thumbsup:

[da haze meister]

Hang in there dude! It's a hard road but things eventually get better....remember the good times as they say.

Take care....you and your family!:thumbsup:
im tryin man... its just everywhere i look i always think of him
i woke up this mornin smelled cofee and thought i heard him
and i rushed downstairs but
then i saw the flowers... and it just killed me

[napolitana869]

you're dad sounds like he was a great guy, the best thing you can do for him now is try and grow up to be the type of man he was. I don't have the words that can make you feel better, if there are even any out there. good luck and i'm sorry for your loss. be strong

[m.g.]

100% true bobbong


well, actually 100% false. i found the obit using the info from the thread and google and read a a rather long bio (long for an obit anyway) and he must have been a good man and loved by many across the country judging by the comments and sympathy notes in the guest book...he was also a civil war historian which is also my hobby (although i'd never consider myself anything more than a hobbiest)...and services are tomorrow.

i posted on the plain dealer guest book last night but it hasn't been cleared yet...

[geonagual]

Damn bro
Sorry to hear about that
Life is very fragile
Live everyday like it is the last
and always enjoy the fact that you wake up in the morning.
Peace

[sweetnsoberz]

i bet are u fukers out there that flamed him feel like crap now eH?

[spacelamb]

Hey Haze.....Things are going to feel really weird for a long time. It's like your brain just can't accept the fact that things have changed. The sun comes up, people go to work, the birds still sing, babies are born but somehow a vital part ofyour life is gone and the rest of the world isn't aware of it. You feel like you're walking through some strange dream, not absorbing any of the sights or smells.
I've been through this many times before with different loved ones...a brother, an aunt, 2 uncles, a great-aunt, both grandparents and yes, a father too. Hold onto what he means to you and when you can, start to enjoy the person he was.....the silly stories, the trips and mostly all of the love.

God Bless you and your family

[flamingskullballs]

oh dude, im sorry...just remember, hes all lookin down n shit, with pride on his offspring

and the way you wrote it, i thought it was a poem at first...

[da haze meister]

well, actually 100% false. i found the obit using the info from the thread and google and read a a rather long bio (long for an obit anyway) and he must have been a good man and loved by many across the country judging by the comments and sympathy notes in the guest book...he was also a civil war historian which is also my hobby (although i'd never consider myself anything more than a hobbiest)...and services are tomorrow.

i posted on the plain dealer guest book last night but it hasn't been cleared yet...
how did you know my name?
what the fuck?

[da haze meister]

these are the last photos i have of me and him
http://www.southernexposurephoto.com/mp_client/pictures.asp?action=viewphotos&size=fullsize&pagenum=8&id=4803924&eventid=51496

http://www.southernexposurephoto.com/mp_client/pictures.asp?action=viewphotos&size=fullsize&pagenum=23&id=4803939&eventid=51496
dont laugh at me for looking like a retard... those are our last photos
also kinda proves i was on that road trip to those fucking retards that doubt me

[Psycho4Bud]

Them are the memories to hold onto....by the way, is that your lil' bro in the last shot? Looked like a good time. Best wishes dude!!!:stoned:

[da haze meister]

Them are the memories to hold onto....by the way, is that your lil' bro in the last shot? Looked like a good time. Best wishes dude!!!:stoned:
nope thats me and dad in front
i know i look lil

[Psycho4Bud]

The second pic, behind your dad, the lil' blond haired dude. Hey....I went through all the pics...VERY COOL!!! Take care bro!:stoned:

[cani]

love the pics. your Dad must have been awsome. and you were a cute kid! lol and the rafting looks like all had a good time. :D let us know what he was like. take care.

[Bong30]

these are the last photos i have of me and him
http://www.southernexposurephoto.com/mp_client/pictures.asp?action=viewphotos&size=fullsize&pagenum=8&id=4803924&eventid=51496

http://www.southernexposurephoto.com/mp_client/pictures.asp?action=viewphotos&size=fullsize&pagenum=23&id=4803939&eventid=51496
dont laugh at me for looking like a retard... those are our last photos
also kinda proves i was on that road trip to those fucking retards that doubt me
Looks like a great time haze......... you are a little shit.... lol

[partyguy420]

dude, im sorry about my previous statements. its sounds like your dad was a great man, and he will be with all the great people. your posts are bringing tears to my eyes theres one paticulr one that i said after my grandpa died, almost word for word as you said.
man... i still dont think this shit is real
it still seems like a dream


what i said to my aunt when my grandpa died was
i cant belive hes atualy gone, it feals like im dreaming, and then the next morning i woke up and thought to my self, ohh, he just went to the store, when i go over to grandmas, he will be sitting in his rocking chair eating his ham sandwitch. but he wasnt.

[partyguy420]

and never forget your dad, take care of your mom, take care of you lil bro. and dont forget to take care of your self, and once agin, im gonna say it, your dad sounds like a realy nice man, it sounds as thu he served his country, it sounds as thu he cared for you your mom and brother.

im gonna go cause typing stuf about death is bringing back my memories of my grandpa and me, and see as how im sittting in the middle of the libary i dont want to start crying. and im sorry about your loss

[m.g.]

how did you know my name?
what the fuck?

as i said earlier, someone posted it...either you or your brother or someone else who knows you. that's how the fuck...the rest was a simple google for the hometown obits and there it was, right on top...nothing magical about it. i keep saying, google is our friend.

[da haze meister]

as i said earlier, someone posted it...either you or your brother or someone else who knows you. that's how the fuck...the rest was a simple google for the hometown obits and there it was, right on top...nothing magical about it. i keep saying, google is our friend.
just please dont expose my name
i like my privacy just the way it is
my long lost sister cassie showed up
i missed her so much...
i saw dad for the last time at the funeral home
he looked so peaceful
im gonna miss him so much
i couldnt stop sobbing... i held his hand and said goodbye
for the last time
ever

[m.g.]

have i done that??? have i posted any links or where i found it??? sheesh man...chill. talk to the guy who posted the names! i didn't even post names on the guest book and used initials instead!

i was gonna ask you about your sis too...i don't recall you ever mentioning her! glad to see she's home but bummer it has to be under these circumstances. hope she can stick around. your dad sounds pretty cool and a real loss to those who knew the colonel! he obviously touched many lives...

[rhino44]

Hey Haze after reading your posts I now know how sincere you are. I guess with all the stuff you had pulled in the past i.e. suicide stuff and shootings and whatnot I jumped to conclussions and I wan't to apologize. Having lost loved ones in my life recently I know it's very painful and wish you the best in coping with your lose and moving forward with your life...Peace

[LittLeWinG]

This hurts me so much, really dude. Your dad seems like an incredible man. Some day you will be with him again, and maybe up in heaven you can introduce me to him.

[da haze meister]

have i done that??? have i posted any links or where i found it??? sheesh man...chill. talk to the guy who posted the names! i didn't even post names on the guest book and used initials instead!

i was gonna ask you about your sis too...i don't recall you ever mentioning her! glad to see she's home but bummer it has to be under these circumstances. hope she can stick around. your dad sounds pretty cool and a real loss to those who knew the colonel! he obviously touched many lives...
thanks alot man
who posted the names
my sister is real cool... but i feel sry for her cuz she didnt talk to him for like 5 years prior to his death... many relationship problems

Hey Haze after reading your posts I now know how sincere you are. I guess with all the stuff you had pulled in the past i.e. suicide stuff and shootings and whatnot I jumped to conclussions and I wan't to apologize. Having lost loved ones in my life recently I know it's very painful and wish you the best in coping with your lose and moving forward with your life...Peace
thanks for reconsidering man...
i didnt mean to hurt anyone with the suicide thing... that was an accidental posting... and the shooting was blatantly obvious i thought lol
thanks for turning yerself around man
any kind words are good right now

This hurts me so much, really dude. Your dad seems like an incredible man. Some day you will be with him again, and maybe up in heaven you can introduce me to him.
thanks dude ill smoke a few bowls with you in heaven or if you ever come out here we can chill dude
yer a cool fucker man

[Samwhore]

im sorry, didnt you guys just finish your road trip too?

[da haze meister]

im sorry, didnt you guys just finish your road trip too?
ended somewhat prematurely in LA
he flew home
and passed 24 hrs later

[Flesh420]

Hey bro this shit sucks ive went threw it and allot of people on here went threw it. But just rember whether theres a heaven or a hell your dad is still watching over you. Im sure he's more at peace and more happy then we could even imagine, just rember threw the darkest night always comes a brighter day. Peace dude

[tootsie roll]

man... i still dont think this shit is real
it still seems like a dream
and i really feel sad but i knew he was gone
when i first saw him
pale skin... eyes wide open
just
damn man im just freaked out
i just wish i got to talk to him thats all
he was such a cool guy
i mean oh my god
and to those that pull the cry wolf card... only fukked aoroun once in 1700 posts
my mom is so broken up over it
i saw a box of golf balls and literally started crying like a little girl
even my dealer sent his condolences
showed up at my house introduced himself to my mom lol
but i just dont know how im gonna go on
im not gonna pass any of my classes
ever


Sweetie, first I'd like to tell you how very sorry I am about your dads passing. :(
I was just a few years younger then you when my beloved dad passed. His death has been the single most heartbreaking thing in my life.

I still cry about it all the time. It's very hard to grow up after a parent suddenly passes away. My dad died on newyears day and I had to go back to school soon after and it was hard. Most teachers just let me do whatever I wanted. I left the classes when I felt I needed to and the kids were cool with me and their parents offered help as well.

I'll tell ya baby, it hurt so bad when there were school events and the others had their dads and I didn't. And my wedding...omg.........

I know how horrible you feel and how everything is different now.
I'm so glad that you had that final road trip with your dad. It's something special you can hold on to.

If you ever need to talk or I can do anything for you, just let me know.

(((((((big hugs)))))))))
Tootsie

[Damon32]

My sincerist condolences. I'm sorry man.

Damon32

[tootsie roll]

just please dont expose my name
i like my privacy just the way it is
my long lost sister cassie showed up
i missed her so much...
i saw dad for the last time at the funeral home
he looked so peaceful
im gonna miss him so much
i couldnt stop sobbing... i held his hand and said goodbye
for the last time
ever
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[da haze meister]

im about to leave for his funeral
im gonna miss him

[birdgirl73]

Let us know how it goes, Haze. Hope it's a lovely service and not too rough on everyone. Probably you'll have a lot of company afterwards if it's anything like funerals down here, but when you get back online, check in and update us. I'm really glad your sister came around and got back in touch, even if she left things uneasy between herself and your dad. I'm at least glad she's there for now, and I hope she stays re-connected.

[Psycho4Bud]

Hang in there buddy!!:(

[LittLeWinG]

Haze will pull through, he seems like a strong kid.

Very very very true, hang in there dude :(

[Psycho4Bud]

Haze will pull through, he seems like a strong kid.

Situations like these, at that age, really make you look at things. Life in general.....why???? Alot of questions you never had before.
When I was 15 I had my closest cousin takin away by a drunk driver......these are the life experiences that turn kids into young adults.
DAMN.....thinkin' of ya bro!!!

[unmeg]

Sorry for your loss....
You r bout to go through some seriously fucked up emotional shit.MMy father died of brain tumor when I was 11.Make sure to talk about it get some closure accept that it is real & he is dead.Not trying to be an asshole just wish someone would of been more straight up with me bro.Remember all the time you had & cherish his memory forever in your heart.

[NightProwler]

He dies and the first thought that comes in your head is, "I must post at the cannabis boards...?" Like I've said before, when Zero Revolt did this, the last thing that would pop into my head if my father died, is to come on the internet and make a post about it. Plus, with your track record of 98% bullshit, I can easily guess this is the same thing.


dude I talk to him on AIM al the time and he's not bull shitting. wtf dude give him the benifit of the doubt.

haze man, I'm sorry for you. I cant even immagine how it must be to lose someone so close.

[da haze meister]

well i just returned from the funeral and service
i spoke at the service.ill post what i said later... he had a full military service with an honor guard and all... it was all i could do to keep from breaking down... they folded the flag and handed it to my mother... shot the 21 gun salute... and lastly... they blew taps. it killed me but at least he is at peace now. im gonna miss that dude... he was the greatest guy i ever knew

[cannabis campbell]

You know what, how many Matts are on this board? My name is Matt too...

Haha da haze is matt too

[Not Enough Herb]

bro, i know its hard. ive lost sooo many ppl that i loved. it sucks i know, just be strong. and think there in a better place now, watching over u.

ill be blazing today for u and your dad

peace bro

later

[cannabis campbell]

Yeah matt keep ya head up, you still have the memories with him no one can take that away.

Theres nothing to really say that can make the situation any better apart from just to stay strong :thumbsup:.

And if people think your lying for posting your personal shit on the internet then just ignore them.

All the good members or cannabis.com are here if you need someone to talk to :thumbsup:

Stay strong.

[sweetnsoberz]

hey u guys, lets not say peoples names on here, i remember haze saying he didnt appreciate it so lets just respect that mmmm k? we will always b here for ya haze....xxx

[cannabis campbell]

Oh shit i didnt know that, sorry man!

[JayW]

It's really tough doing this. When I heard taps, and saw the silouette of the trumpet player in the distance, I broke down, I squeezed my mother's hand, and said that I loved her. It's never gonna be the same.

Fuck all the people that doubt us. Go fuck yourselves.

[Psycho4Bud]

It's really tough doing this. When I heard taps, and saw the silouette of the trumpet player in the distance, I broke down, I squeezed my mother's hand, and said that I loved her. It's never gonna be the same.

Fuck all the people that doubt us. Go fuck yourselves.

Taps always get to me at funerals too. Nothing but best wishes to you and the family right now!!!

[halo]

Im really sorry to hear about this da haze meister. My best friends dad died of cancer 4 years ago so i know how hard this can be on you. Ill keep you in my prayers dude. I really dont know what i can say except that we are all here for you here at cannabis.com .

[birdgirl73]

Haze and Jay, have y'all had a house fulll of company these last few days or today? I don't know how traditional your mom or your synagogue is, but do people still sit shiva routinely? Just wondering if there've been lots of folks around to distract you.

My family's not Jewish, but there were lots of visitors and food-deliverers after both my grandmother and my uncle died, and I remember that it was sort of helpful because it was distracting and at the same time it was irritating, too. You can only be hugged and comforted by so many great-aunts, distant relatives and total strangers before you start to become nauseated.

[tootsie roll]

It's really tough doing this. When I heard taps, and saw the silouette of the trumpet player in the distance, I broke down, I squeezed my mother's hand, and said that I loved her. It's never gonna be the same.

Fuck all the people that doubt us. Go fuck yourselves.

You are Hazes brother honey?

I send you my condolences on the loss of your father. I really am so sorry.

I haven't read the entire thread but I would never believe that your brother would make something like this up. This isn't something anyone would do.

Losing a parent at such a young age is the hardest thing ever. It's a club nobody really wants to belong to. I myself, belong to that club and I know the hurt and pain you are feeling right now. I am so sorry Jay. :(

When people say "stay strong" they mean well, but being strong isn't the best way to be. Your world has turned upside down and the best suggestion I can give for the moment is to be with people you can talk to and be yourself with. Maybe even a counselor, where you can open up and not worry about how they feel because what they feel is empathy for you and they'll try to help you thru certain humps that are going to come up in the near future.....and beyond.

I wore you shoes many years ago and I open the same invitation to you as I did your brother. If you ever want to talk or need help, Just let me know and I'll be there for you.

(((((many hugs))))))
Tootsie

[tootsie roll]

Haze and Jay, have y'all had a house fulll of company these last few days or today? I don't know how traditional your mom or your synagogue is, but do people still sit shiva routinely? Just wondering if there've been lots of folks around to distract you.

My family's not Jewish, but there were lots of visitors and food-deliverers after both my grandmother and my uncle died, and I remember that it was sort of helpful because it was distracting and at the same time it was irritating, too. You can only be hugged and comforted by so many great-aunts, distant relatives and total strangers before you start to become nauseated.


Hi birdgirl!
I'm not them of course but yes, right now the family is sitting shiva. The night before a rabbi stayed with their daddy thru the night and did the Kaddish etc.
Shivas are typically teary with lot's of eating and remembering and the kids and the cousins going off together to get away from the adults.

I feel just horrible for these 2 sweet boys bird. It's a damn shame. :(

[puffpuffand away]

these are the last photos i have of me and him
http://www.southernexposurephoto.com/mp_client/pictures.asp?action=viewphotos&size=fullsize&pagenum=8&id=4803924&eventid=51496

http://www.southernexposurephoto.com/mp_client/pictures.asp?action=viewphotos&size=fullsize&pagenum=23&id=4803939&eventid=51496
dont laugh at me for looking like a retard... those are our last photos
also kinda proves i was on that road trip to those fucking retards that doubt me

i never douted u were on ur trip...

i just douted some of the things u said...

u made up 4 that...

u dont look like a retard...

u look like a happy young man...

havein a great time with he his dad...

id b scared shitless 2 do what u did...(rafting)

what a great memory...

[tootsie roll]

~some sites~

http://www.selfhealingexpressions.com/coping_with_a_fathers_death.shtml

http://www.beliefnet.com/story/28/story_2862_1.html

A good book http://www.centerforloss.com/catalog/productdetails.asp?WhichProduct=49

real good online read
http://www.hospicenet.org/html/teenager.html

For mom

http://www.kidshealth.org/parent/positive/talk/death.html


http://www.tpronline.org/articles.cfm?articleID=131&pageNo=3

http://www.pages.drexel.edu/~eq23/info684/parent.html

ZZ

[birdgirl73]

It is a shame, isn't it, Tootsie. Thanks for explaining a bit more about shiva. I would have tried to grab the Jewish Book of Why and read more about it, but I can't find my glasses!

My heart goes out to these boys, too. I can't imagine losing my dad now, much less at such tender ages as Haze and Jay.

[Ze w33d Farm3r]

damn after comming back on here after 4 months of leave and to find this? Haze i feel for you man, I know and i'm sure many other people here knows what it feels like to loose someone very close to you whom you loved ever so much.

I smoke this bowl to you and your dad's honour

God Bless your souls

[AmericanTerrorist]

Where was your god when my life was going down the drain
Late at night didn't you hear me calling out his name
Or was it meant for me to be a black sheep when all I wanted to be was happy
Now how hard could that be
For mama's pride and joy


Its times like these that show you who you really are and what you are made of. Learn from them..

Keep steady strong haze

[tootsie roll]

It is a shame, isn't it, Tootsie. Thanks for explaining a bit more about shiva. I would have tried to grab the Jewish Book of Why and read more about it, but I can't find my glasses!

My heart goes out to these boys, too. I can't imagine losing my dad now, much less at such tender ages as Haze and Jay.


I can lend you my reading glasses. Finally broke down and just bought a 3 pak. Now I can always find at least one pair. oy.

Their lives have already changed and the few months (not to mention the next few years) are now literally going to be "dehaze" I say that because, as a member of that club, that is what I experienced as did my brother.
All I can say is everything changes. It just does. And sometimes, it's hard, if not impossible to "march forward".

It's going to take time....lot's of time to start to adjust.

Oy, my heart does break for them.
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[da haze meister]

damn... lots of replies
thanks everyone...
yes, we are sitting shiva, and i am wearing a black ribbon
and aviator sunglasses
this death was the worst thing that ever happened in my life but at least ill grow to be a stronger, kinder man from it
plus i am getting close to people i had some problems with
like my sister cassie... im gonna drive out to chicago after i get my license and see her
and my friend hillary... we are so close now... i was over her house for like 4 hours today just talking and watching her fashion show... and she lived her whole life in family turmoil and without a father... and it was comforting to both of us to talk...
plus, me and my mother are going to discuss the whole weed thing after shiva is over... and we are gonna golf... and buy some more guns... and all of that. she was the most hurt in this. losing the love of your life is never fun. no teenager should ever have to bury their father.
thanks for the kind words everyone

[Skink]

I guess wut is worse than loosing yur Dad to death is losing him cause he just left and did not care about his offspring... My ex's Mom died and her Dad disowned the family years before... My ex's Stepdad was a creep and that was all she had after her Mom died... She did things to herself that ultimately was a cry for her only parent to care... Also gotta add that she wus molested and had very little self respect,that is the underlyng cause of our breakup...

You guys had a Dad who wus there,memories live on,be thankful there are good ones!!!

May your Dad rest in peace,and may you and yur family find peace...

[LittLeWinG]

You and your family will find peace of mind soon haze, it just needs time

[braddog10]

A prayer from a previous post yesterday:

Lord Jesus I thank you for these folks here. Be with those here, who have and are facing the death of ~ loved ones ~ . Holy Spirit, I ask that you would fill these homes involved. God...and for those suffering a hell here, that none of us know about. Jesus .....calm the storm. Send them friends of God. Thank you for forgiveness, mercy, and grace. I know also ..you are pleased to be here. ...da haze meisterer, and birdgirl.....God I can't imagine.

[Lulu]

just to have a few minutes to talk to him... give a final goodbye... and just carry on a conversation. i would tell him how much i loved him and appreciated him... how great of a father he was... how much he did for my mom and my brother and my estranged sister and me and just let him know that he will always be in my heart and mind... i just hope he is doin alright in heaven... we are burying him with a blues CD and a classical CD an e.e. cummings book... his reading glasses... pictures of our beloved puppies... a CD player and headphones... his flight cap, flight suit, and basketball gear under it... he loved basketball and had a hell of a jumpshot... a stopwatch for the 4.18 mile he used to run at william tennet in philly... and i think thats it. he is recieving a full military burial with an honor guard flags taps and such.

Haze x

...you sound like you have a lot of love in your family. I'm so sad for
your huge loss:( but I know you'll find the strength to get through this.
There's nothing anyone can say to make it better, you just have to feel
the pain...there's no escaping it. But it won't always be this way.

My thoughts are with you and all belonging to you.

Much love x

Lulu

[smokey]

sorry to hear about your loss haze and by what u said sounds like he got the sending off he deserved just hang in there n remember the good times

peace
smokey

[da haze meister]

man thanks alot guys for the replies
i walked in after getting back from a friends house
and the vice principal was in my house lol
scared the shit outta me
he was in my room like whats that smell lol
but he was such a cool dude...
my dad loved him man
i miss dad but im getting better
listening to jack johnson

[birdgirl73]

Get outta here--really? So the vice principal from your school came by just to see you guys and check on y'all? That was very nice of him. It sounds like there are a whole lotta people--here and in your city and inner circle--who care about your family a lot. That's great.

You sound like you're having a good day today, Haze. Hope Jay's doing the same.

[da haze meister]

Get outta here--really? So the vice principal from your school came by just to see you guys and check on y'all? That was very nice of him. It sounds like there are a whole lotta people--here and in your city and inner circle--who care about your family a lot. That's great.

You sound like you're having a good day today, Haze. Hope Jay's doing the same.
yesh im doin good today
pops is lookin down on me
hi dad whats up

[Bong30]

man thanks alot guys for the replies
i walked in after getting back from a friends house
and the vice principal was in my house lol
scared the shit outta me
he was in my room like whats that smell lol
but he was such a cool dude...
my dad loved him man
i miss dad but im getting better
listening to jack johnson
Fast Times at Ridgemont High...................


Asst prince
See Haze the way i see it there is our time and your time............

You have wasted to much of our time.

Now im here to make up some of our time..........

Haze.......
Now way.....man



LOL

Haze, I m so glad you are listening to Mr. Johnson. Everyone need a little direction.........(the smart ones use it)



yesh im doin good today
pops is lookin down on me
hi dad whats up

Yes he is.......... and by the sounds of it you are making him proud.


Haze....... watch the 6th sense...... make her proud? everyday.

Take care
B30

[da haze meister]

Fast Times at Ridgemont High...................


Asst prince
See Haze the way i see it there is our time and your time............

You have wasted to much of our time.

Now im here to make up some of our time..........

Haze.......
Now way.....man



LOL

Haze, I m so glad you are listening to Mr. Johnson. Everyone need a little direction.........(the smart ones use it)




Yes he is.......... and by the sounds of it you are making him proud.


Haze....... watch the 6th sense...... make her proud? everyday.

Take care
B30
rofl yer stoned as shit

[Bong30]

rofl yer stoned as shit
Haze... you nailed it i got a new glass bong on the hill in boulder.... a QP to boot sweeeeettttttttttt

[s2headhunter]

really dude im so upset to hear that man.....we havent really talked much on here but still man...im a cool chill person to talk to if you need someone to talk to man...stay tough...but dont try to be the one that doesnt cry....express yourself ...let everything out..no reason to hold it in........stay strong man.....this community are all here for you too...

[da haze meister]

thanks yo

[tootsie roll]

man thanks alot guys for the replies
i walked in after getting back from a friends house
and the vice principal was in my house lol
scared the shit outta me
he was in my room like whats that smell lol
but he was such a cool dude...
my dad loved him man
i miss dad but im getting better
listening to jack johnson

That's very sweet that the VP came by. Most assuredly he will advise your teachers of this tragedy and watch out for you. I don't know if you checked out any of the links I provided but they'll be on this thread any time you need them.
My heart goes out to you and your family.
Shalom.

[da haze meister]

That's very sweet that the VP came by. Most assuredly he will advise your teachers of this tragedy and watch out for you. I don't know if you checked out any of the links I provided but they'll be on this thread any time you need them.
My heart goes out to you and your family.
Shalom.
you a jew too?
yaaay
thanks for all the kind words
may God bless you and keep you

[da haze meister]

shits fucked up in the hood

[da haze meister]

its weird... today im like angry... just generally pissed shit turned out this way... i shot my gun out the window... i threw the garbage cans around... cant stop swearing... shits fucked up

[robert42]

hope u r feelin better

[birdgirl73]

Probably you're too young so far to have read much about grief or death and dying, Haze, but there was a very famous book by a woman named Elizabeth Kubler Ross more than two decades ago that first gave names to the stages of grief, which she may have listed in a different order from the way I list them here:

Sadness/depression - self-explanatory
Anger - ditto
Bargaining - thoughts like "Maybe if I take good enough care of her and make sure she sees this doctor, she won't die."
Denial - denying that someone is as sick as she/he really is or wondering if perhaps they didn't really die
Acceptance - where finally you feel at peace

People who are dying and people who have lost loved ones go in and out of these phases at different times during the grief process. Actually, people who are divorcing or going through other types of losses experience these stages, too.

Anger like you're having today is just natural and expected. You just have to make sure you don't take it out on others who don't deserve that anger. But you do have to go though that and feel it, just like you have to feel and express the depression and sadness, too. It's even natural to feel angry at times with the person who's dying or has died.

The good things about these phases is that they change, so you don't usually stick in one too long. Eventually, if you allow yourself to move through the other phases, you reach acceptance and mostly stay there, but you still feel sadness periodically, too. I'm trying to keep this all in mind as we deal with my sister's terminal illness, too, as is she.

[da haze meister]

damn
that explains it
im gonna go hit my punching bag

[da haze meister]

man
i cant fucking stand it
i miss him so much
im so fucking pissed off man
wtf did this happen for
he never committe a crime except the occasional 130 in a 55
i mean dick cheney has had 4 massive heart attacks
jesus fuckingc christ
im done with life
good bye

[tootsie roll]

you a jew too?
yaaay
thanks for all the kind words
may God bless you and keep you
Ma nish ta na darlin.


You are more then welcome my little mensch. (hee hee hee)

I hope this day has been just a little bit gentler on you and yours.

Ima gonna say it again in case you missed it in your sorrow. I'm here anytime you want to talk to somebody who went thru this same tragedy years before you. ok?

I saw earlier that you had the black button/ribbon on, you have torn it by now yes? Make sure you save it. Get a small box for "that stuff" like the kepah, ribbon,,,,,,etc.
Then, this is hard but, go to his closet and pick out something that you will still have years later when your settled down with your own family. A favorite shirt, sweater, vest, pullover and then pick out, with your mom and brother, the piece of jewlery you going to keep and pass down. Watch, ring, cufflinks...if he has an office, that's the next place to pick a memory.
You understand where I'm going? These are things that will be passed from gen to gen. ok? Take your time on this ok sweetie?

Remember....if you ever need me......just say so. (that goes for Jay too)

((((((((((hugs))))))))))
Kimmy

[tootsie roll]

its weird... today im like angry... just generally pissed shit turned out this way... i shot my gun out the window... i threw the garbage cans around... cant stop swearing... shits fucked up


It's ok Haze. There are stages.
Right now you are at the anger stage.
It's perfectly "normal".
@----->---

[tootsie roll]

man
i cant fucking stand it
i miss him so much
im so fucking pissed off man
wtf did this happen for
he never committe a crime except the occasional 130 in a 55
i mean dick cheney has had 4 massive heart attacks
jesus fuckingc christ
im done with life
good bye

No hon.........You're not done.

You know that.

I know how hard it is. I've been through what you are going through and I STILL AM going through it.

It doesn't stop overnight.

This is the single hardest thing you will ever have to face. (At least til you become a parent)

I wish I could help........................:(

[mojoke]

who cares.

[da haze meister]

who cares.
shut the fuck up you bitch made douchebag.
there got that out.

[go toke up]

How about you take yourself and your 1 inch dick home to your daddy, then he can put a bag over your face and hand it to you by way of ass raping?
NICE.

[OzzyOz]

you have my condolences,

good to see things are gettinga bit better


stay strong

[tootsie roll]

who cares.

Shame shame SHAME ON YOU!!!:mad:
How effing dare you?:mad:

I CARE!!



Ps. you should be banned for that. The charge? Being an uncaring buttwipe.IMO

[tootsie roll]

shut the fuck up you bitch made douchebag.
there got that out.


Don't worry yourself with dreck honey.
Many many people care.
Don't ever forget that.

[tootsie roll]

How about you take yourself and your 1 inch dick home to your daddy, then he can put a bag over your face and hand it to you by way of ass raping?


How are you doing today Jay?

((((((((((hugs))))))))))

[tootsie roll]

NICE.


That's Hazes brother and he's in pain too right now.
That nasty comment hurt him too.:(

Consider the situation~~~~~

[3rdEyeVision]

should try and get a girlfriend or something Haze, imo you basically have to ignore the pain and just basically accept it.........a new girlfriend or a new job or anything will help take your mind off of things

[420purplehaze420]

Im sorry for your loss

after browsing this thread it just occured to me how much this site really is like a community

and mojoke...if you didnt care you shouldnt have posted, how would you feel if your dad died and someone was like man...who cares? i dont know what you would do but i would deffinently give them a roundhouse kick to the teeth

[go toke up]

That's Hazes brother and he's in pain too right now.
That nasty comment hurt him too.:(

Consider the situation~~~~~
how was that a nasty comment?

[tootsie roll]

how was that a nasty comment?


Oh, not yours hon. I'm sorry if you thought that.:(
I was talking about that "Mojoke" poster. That is what got Jay upset.

Thats all I meant. :thumbsup:

Did you see my post to you on another thread about Bevis and Butthead?

[go toke up]

Did you see my post to you on another thread about Bevis and Butthead?
yeah. oh well its all good. :stoned:

[tootsie roll]

should try and get a girlfriend or something Haze, imo you basically have to ignore the pain and just basically accept it.........a new girlfriend or a new job or anything will help take your mind off of things


There is no possible way to ignore the pain. Believe me.

BUT, the rest of your post is excellent! Now is the time to get a job or a steady girlfriend. Or both.

[tootsie roll]

yeah. oh well its all good. :stoned:


Cool.

And next time I'm your way visiting the zoo I'll holler "go toke up"!:thumbsup:

[da haze meister]

anyway... after shiva is over i am calling the caddymaster at a country club and starting there... it kicks the shit outta bagging groceries and i am good at it... dad taught me all about it

[Reefer Rogue]

I don't think I've said this yet:

I'm really sorry Dahaze, I hope this experiance hasn't been too traumatic for you. Keep on keepin on. :thumbsup:

[da haze meister]

I don't think I've said this yet:

I'm really sorry Dahaze, I hope this experiance hasn't been too traumatic for you. Keep on keepin on. :thumbsup:
thanks yo
thanks alot
im tryin man
and my mom just said that after the 7 days ill be allowed to blaze
:)
she said she even might too
she got bad arthritis

[Reefer Rogue]

thanks yo
thanks alot
im tryin man
and my mom just said that after the 7 days ill be allowed to blaze
:)she said she even might too
she got bad arthritis

Good shit bro, keep focusing on the positives right now.

[da haze meister]

Good shit bro, keep focusing on the positives right now.
trying to man
i miss my father
but i love him sooo much
he was a great guy

[da haze meister]

holy shit ij ust found out something weird
ok see if you can keep up... my mothers sister (aunt) lives in jersey and works in a school district up there... ok so when she had to come down here a school wide email went out explaining that her brother in law michael (insert last name here) died in (insert town here ((i like my privacy))) and a woman that works in that school... her daughter lives in the same city we do... and she had a baby at 11:00 thursday july 13th... same time my father died... named michael.. same english name as my dad... hebrew name chaim... same hebrew name as my dad. thats weird right ther. my father was reincarnated.

[robert42]

How about you take yourself and your 1 inch dick home to your daddy, then he can put a bag over your face and hand it to you by way of ass raping?

please dont take offence but for someone who just lost their father you shouldnt make jokes about another guys dad, its a bit iffy to me.

[BobBong]

please dont take offence but for someone who just lost their father you shouldnt make jokes about another guys dad, its a bit iffy to me.

I kinda need to agree, seems a bit cold if you ask me.

Maybe even a little too cold.:confused:

[robert42]

i lost my father, and then when i finally got a step dad 5 years later he died.

life is full of tests - its how you react to these test that show the character you are.

[birdgirl73]

holy shit ij ust found out something weird
ok see if you can keep up... my mothers sister (aunt) lives in jersey and works in a school district up there... ok so when she had to come down here a school wide email went out explaining that her brother in law michael (insert last name here) died in (insert town here ((i like my privacy))) and a woman that works in that school... her daughter lives in the same city we do... and she had a baby at 11:00 thursday july 13th... same time my father died... named michael.. same english name as my dad... hebrew name chaim... same hebrew name as my dad. thats weird right ther. my father was reincarnated.
That IS something, isn't it? Kinda reassuring, too. Life goes out, but new life comes in at the same time. The cycle of life. Be interesting to see what that baby grows up to be like, won't it?

When the grandmother that I was closest to died a little over 20 years ago, I was very pregnant with my son. His soon-to-be arrival was one of the family events that helped to serve as a distraction to the grief. I could have done without all the hundreds of distant relatives touching my stomach at the funeral, but they seemed to find reassurance in the idea that life was replacing itself.

[tootsie roll]

holy shit ij ust found out something weird
ok see if you can keep up... my mothers sister (aunt) lives in jersey and works in a school district up there... ok so when she had to come down here a school wide email went out explaining that her brother in law michael (insert last name here) died in (insert town here ((i like my privacy))) and a woman that works in that school... her daughter lives in the same city we do... and she had a baby at 11:00 thursday july 13th... same time my father died... named michael.. same english name as my dad... hebrew name chaim... same hebrew name as my dad. thats weird right ther. my father was reincarnated.


That's beautiful. Both the newsletter and the baby.

When my brother and his friends hold Kaddish, I'll ask they include your dad in Prayer.

[da haze meister]

That's beautiful. Both the newsletter and the baby.

When my brother and his friends hold Kaddish, I'll ask they include your dad in Prayer.
thanks alot

[tootsie roll]

thanks alot

Anytime hon.

:)

I'm off to bed. I'll remember you and yours in my prayers.

................and pumpkins dogbaby Dylan.

[da haze meister]

today im just generally fucking pissed and annoyed

[da haze meister]

one more day till shiva is over

[Bong30]

Hang in there haze..........

[da haze meister]

ay man im tryin my best
lots of people are here for me
even this girl i kinda like... she lost her father a few years ago
i like this support

[Bong30]

Use it haze but remember, someday these people might need help, and you will feel even better by helping other people.

[da haze meister]

yeah yo man
im just chillin today helpin my mom
she said she might even smoke with me after shiva
i love her so much....
but anyway... im just listening to aesop rock

[WhiskeyGirl]

yeah yo man
im just chillin today helpin my mom
she said she might even smoke with me after shiva
i love her so much....
but anyway... im just listening to aesop rock

Time is a wonderful thing, it heals wounds, just remember the good times. Thats what I do when i am down , make you mom happy take care of her and treat your self good :)
Good Luck
WG:rasta: :thumbsup:

[da haze meister]

Time is a wonderful thing, it heals wounds, just remember the good times. Thats what I do when i am down , make you mom happy take care of her and treat your self good :)
Good Luck
WG:rasta: :thumbsup:
im gonna try girl
thanks

[mrdevious]

You and your dad will eventually join the same place Da Haze Meister. You haven't lost him, you're only separated from him during the short spark in eternity called life. Live the peace he would have wanted you to live, and you'll eventually be with him again one day.

[da haze meister]

thanks yo
i know that dude
im just gonna live life to its fullest
blaze and listen to andrew WK
chill motherfucker

[mamma puffpuff420]

im so sorry ur dad has passed
and i wish u and ur family the best
yes ur mom sounds like a great woman
please take good care of her
ur dad is keeping an eye n u all
so remember this when u go 2 do something ur not quite sure of
urlucky boys 2 of had a mom and dad that r so loveing, and there 4 u
i didnt have parents
(not that wanted me)
but id like 2 ask, please
why do u 2 boys need 2 talk so dirty all the time
do u talk like that in front of ur mom(dad)
u seem so nice and i think id like 2 get 2 no u 2 guys
but then u come off with ur laugage
its , like a turn off
well anyways
im sorry u lost ur dad

peace~

[Mercsix8six]

i have to post somthing here on the acount of me allways worrying about my dad cux he rides a mottor cylce and u know acccedenst happen shit he tell me this shit " what if a died today what if i got into a motorcylce crash and died that s why u need to GET A JOB DAMIT" yes every day i heear or think about tthat shit and its fucking dam hdard fuck those steages and just be piseed for a WHILE dude >

[josh g]

I'm glad to se that you feel better haze...
I feel soo much for you.
I'm only reading this, these words, of someone i don't even know.
and i'm already in tears.
I just don't know what i would do if i lost my dad.
When, he get's home, im gonna treat him with all the love and respect he deserves.

[zeebo phillips]

That's awesome that your going to chill with your mom, she probably needs you too.

I remember when my mom lost her Dad. She took it horribly because they never had a close relationship and they were JUST starting to build one. Till this day she still talks to him and I think it kind of helps.

You can still be close to your dad, even if you won't hear (besides outside of your mind) or see him.