Falling for my dealer

[Darkneon420]

I know most of you dont wanna hear about some 16 yr old crushing on her best friend but im confused and i need some advice. I met my best friend about a month ago, we clicked mostlly because of marijuanna. Since im one of his biggest customers he and I have been tight. I am finding myself thinking about him all the time. Why? Cuz i love him? No i dont love him but he has problems. He is homicidal and suisidal. He made me cry this weekend saying he was gunna kill himself. I was scared, i had never seen him liek this before and what i hear from his ex he does it alot. He knows i care and that i have feeling for him and hes usually understandable about my feelings, but he made me cry. Hes really sick, i wanna tell soemone but im scared he would hate me. He would despise me, and i really care about him. What should i do?

[smokey]

u need to talk him into getting counselling if u go behind his back to help he will hate u for it u need to talk to him about your concerns n see if u can persuade him to sort himself out

[Darkneon420]

He hurt me today again, not on purpose btu he still makes me want to cry. I have talked to him and asked what he would do if soemone handed him to the Mental h. He said he'd hate them and despise them and kill them. But hes really downa nd scaring the shit out of me. I wanna help him but yet again i dont want him to hate me. He can kill me...just dont let him hate me....

[Imotep]

Ive heard and seen this story a lot of times.
get a pet, a fucked up suicidal homicidal drug dealing dude is more maintenance than most people can handle.
"but he doesnt have anyone else" i hear u say.
yeah coz he's burnt em all and yr next in line.

"he can kill me, just dont let him hate me" then again maybe youz'll make a nice sid & nancy.

[KillaBuzz]

yah get outta that shit

[bigdaddy420]

Usually, I'm not the type of person to get into someone's personal business, but I would say get out of it. My sister went through a similar situation, but the guy used to beat her too. It took a lot of courage but my sister life him and has been happy since. I'm not trying to tell you what to do, but I suggest you think about whether you really want to be around someone like that or not.

[sawleaf]

Ive heard and seen this story a lot of times.
get a pet, a fucked up suicidal homicidal drug dealing dude is more maintenance than most people can handle.
"but he doesnt have anyone else" i hear u say.
yeah coz he's burnt em all and yr next in line.

"he can kill me, just dont let him hate me" then again maybe youz'll make a nice sid & nancy.


True I have seen this also. You are right. Sounds like he is just a negative person who likes to get attention. Don't waste your time with him. Stay away from him and find a dealer who is stable in the head. Your feelings will fade and you will feel better.

[Darkneon420]

Oh god no! He would never hurt me. He loves me to much. We are best friends and we are there for eachother and hes gettin better. I introduced him to JTHM whihc he just loves to read and draw the charactors. Hes alot better, today he was so hyper and happy i was so glad i've made a diffrence. I was really down yesterday and crying and he made me feel so much better. he sat with me for an hour and we talked about my shit. he just cares alot and i care alot and i think im falling. Real hard. I know he wouldent really hurt anyone hes just lost and confused. And i dont appreciate soem of your replys. I dont think you understand. But thanks to those who have been supportive and not judgmental of my own commen sence thank you very much!

[sawleaf]

And i dont appreciate soem of your replys. I dont think you understand. But thanks to those who have been supportive and not judgmental of my own commen sence thank you very much!

Why did you ask for advice then? Did you think 100% of people will agree with you??? I hope you did make the right decision, but you are young and we don't know you, so who really knows if you did or not? Next time don't bother asking for advice if you don't want to get it.

[Darkneon420]

No actually i was asking for advice weither or not i should get him help, but now i know all he needs is his friends love. Its cool that ya dident undertsand, no hard feelings. We all mature adult here so lets not think anything anymore of the subject. No hate no name calling, thats all im asking thank you.

[sawleaf]

No actually i was asking for advice weither or not i should get him help, but now i know all he needs is his friends love. Its cool that ya dident undertsand, no hard feelings. We all mature adult here so lets not think anything anymore of the subject. No hate no name calling, thats all im asking thank you.

Oh you asked "what should do?" That's a open ended question. Cool, no worries then. :)

[Tech]

Cut his head off while he sleeps , b4 he trys to cut yours off.

[Darkneon420]

Lol, how nice of you, now fuck off!

[Tech]

Sorry .......
Just cut it off a little bit then.
Anyway this aimt an agony board it,s a sex board. :D

[dHazed]

he sounds DREAMEY, no wonder you are falling for him, you guys sound perfect for each other...by the way is his name OJ?

[Darkneon420]

No, and we are perfect for eachother he my homie man.

[YES]

You've known him for a month you've said? He may be a friend, but a month isnt really a long time to really know someone. Everyone has problems and we dont know this guy, but from what you've told us, he doesnt sound stable. Someone who threatens to kill you one day then is all giddy the next day, doesnt sound stable to me.

Alot of people are lost and confused, and i dont know, he may be a really nice guy just going through some shit.

You like Johnny The Homicidal Maniac!

"Fuck you Mr. Bear, YOU SPEAK LIES!"

[Darkneon420]

It doesent matter anymore, we arent friends anymore. Lifes to hard on hima nd he thinks hes bringing everyoen down with him. But hes not we just care and want to help him. But he says that he is goign to stay away from me because he knows how much i like him and he doesent want to hurt me. I mean emotionally. He says that hes better off alone and he said sorry about a couple thousand times. I mean damn it, hes getting better really and its because of me! He needs me, and he doesent want me. I mean he wants me but he doesent think i should want him becaus ehes scared hes gunna hurt me.

And yes I am totally a jhonen fan! Not those fans that want crazy sex with him, just a big fan.

[GooseBear]

Ok hon your freaken me out. You say he needs you he needs you. Just make sure you don't forget about yourself. Because in the end you are all you've got. I mean yeah others can be supportive and stuff and give you love but you have to have inner peace and confidence in yourself.
You can't get caught in a trap if he knows that you care so much and will twist your strings because you know that he needs you.
You can't be his only savior.

Your an independent beautiful girl
just tell people to fuck off if they don't like you like you!!!

[kiwi]

:mad: Right here goes.....DARKNEON, take this from a woman who is old enough to be your mother....It is you my dear that needs to seek some help, have you been back and read the load of crap that fell out of your mouth.
You are a 16 year old girl that is very confused, but for some fucked reason you feel the erge to think you can save someone else, you just a kid, go be a kid. As for saying he would never hurt you cos he loves you?????Get over it...you have knowen him for what, a month....OMG. You silly wee thing, stop living in a dream world, you have a long way to go until you know what real love is.
Just go and enjoy your life...without all the drama and mellow dramatics, kids these days are too eager to grow up that they miss the best part of their lives. :(

[GooseBear]

alright.....Kiwi do you think that people can fall in love when they are 19 years old? I mean who mandates when a person can find out about love and when they can't. I mean no offense Darkneon but this guy dosen't sound so hot. I can't judge if your in love with him or not. I think some people get lust and love confused. Plus a month isn't a long time.
But I mean maybe you are in love nobody can know that but you.
I mean I get this feeling that everyone makes it out to be such a great thing. It is such a great thing but relationships you have to work at to make them work. I don't think that Love is the only thing that can drive a relationship.
Thats why even if you love him I don't know if a guy with so many problems is so great to have....
I'm 19 and in love with a great guy
we have had shitty times and good times
but we have been together a little over a year now

IDK who can judge love it's differnt for everyone

[smokey]

i dont mean this the wrong way but maybe its for the best he stays away from u and u say hes getting better because of u. people like tht only get better cause they truly want to get better yes u may be helping but if he wants to stay as he is he will only bring u down with him. dont go jumping into a relationship with the first guy u meet like kiwi said your only 16 u should be going out and enjoying life experiencing different things including guys then u know what type of guy it is u want but u shouldnt be getting tied down to the first guy tht u meet and if uve only known him for such a short time u cant really be sure tht u love him. im not saying its impossible but its very unlikely. if he likes u as much as he says he does he will sort himself out n come back to u if not move on with your life u have got so much of it still to live.

peace

[GooseBear]

"agrees with smokey"