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cannabis campbell
05-29-2006, 04:24 PM
Anyone ever been through a really rough time and thought about this or nearly done it?

bedake
05-29-2006, 04:38 PM
I've attempted, I wont go into any details. We need to get rid of some people the world is overpopulated. I support it one hundred percent

Skink
05-29-2006, 04:43 PM
Thought about it,but never would have the balls to do it...

whitekat
05-29-2006, 04:46 PM
ive gave it three attempts....one time i tried smoking 2 pot cigarettes at the same time....didnt work...just fell asleep......on a other try, tried holding my breath....didnt work ...just a headache.....and i tried to choke myself with my bare hands...didnt work either......i tapped out

Its a Plant
05-29-2006, 04:58 PM
No, not yet.

My dad tried to earlier this year, though he went about it the wrong way. Since you can't actually asphyxiate by running the car in the garage scheme, it didn't work and someone got to him in time. I actually didn't know that, and found out after it happened that all car companies install catalytic converters in mufflers to stop almost all the toxic CO2 from coming out the tailpipe. So anyone that wants to off themself, don't sit in the garage with the car running...you're wasting your time.

psychopixi
05-29-2006, 05:13 PM
My boyfriend has, three times. That was right after his mother died. :(

Nylo
05-29-2006, 05:26 PM
Thought about it, would never do it. I've got too much I want to do and too many people to meet while I'm alive. I'll rest when I'm dead.

gromorebud
05-29-2006, 05:32 PM
m8 nothing is actually that bad if you give yourself time to look back on it,suicide aint the answer to anything it just leaves more heartache behind you

LIP
05-29-2006, 05:36 PM
I've thought about it, but i'd never be able to do it, im too much of a chicken.

I supose u could jump off a tall building, but thats only cos once you've done it theres no going back.

mrdevious
05-29-2006, 05:48 PM
I've thought about it countless times, seriously considered it a good deal of times, but I'm done with all that now. I realized that I was just seeking relief from being in constant pain and having no friends in the same town (I see my old friends from out of town only once every few months), then I'd become convinced everything else in life can't work out either. But a little while ago I also realized that relief can also come in the form of mental escape. I rarely can get any drugs outside of weed (which doesn't provide escape anymore), but deep meditations help sometimes. really I guess I rarely get to have that escape, I can never seem to find any shrooms (my other drug of choice, which I've only done twice), and it gets mentally exhausting as hell, but I don't kill myself because I can at least cling to the prospect of getting that drug-induced escape.

more and more often though I'm getting so emotionally exhausted from the never-ending pain, I've wanted relief so bad but I can't seem to find it. it feels like it's sucking everything out of me and I don't know what to do when I run out, I just hate existing when I get drained.

Doctor mj
05-29-2006, 05:53 PM
Till this day I still want to die,
but not kill myself.
But what im tryin to say is, I wouldnt mind dying right now,
My mom is a bitch slut mood swinging and complaining whore. I sick of hearing it, I wish to either move out and become independent or just dying.
Either one is cool with me.
I would never kill myself, but i would do something so suicidal someone would need to kill me, before i hurt others.

thebathroom
05-29-2006, 06:28 PM
Nope. Never.


My mom has, three times and I was there for all of them. But the next day she gets what she wants and pretends like nothing happened. She doesn't really want to kill herself. She would have done it quietly already.

Tmar.aLL.DaYmar
05-29-2006, 06:33 PM
ive never even considered suicide.

Cooler Then Jesus
05-29-2006, 06:38 PM
ive tried to hang my self with some rope in the garage, because i thought i was going to juvie for good. but dad came home after i was hangin for like 10 min and i was knocked out, he pulled out his gerber and cut the rope. theres no reason to be afraid of suicide, or anything of the sort, it isn`t truley THE END. i beleive there may be some form of life after death, and some people just cant wait to see what happens after death. more or less people being impatient vs. people who are really depressed. but just stop and think about what your giving up, and how you might be affecting the people you really love.

EDIT: also, i didnt even go to juvie, or get in any trouble anything.

enthused
05-29-2006, 06:43 PM
Who hasn't thought about it? If I ever get to be 80 years old, im the first one off a fuckin building.

with a nice fat blunt in my mouth

eat the roach
05-29-2006, 06:46 PM
i have thought about it for years, only becose i have FMS / CFS since i was 7 years old now im thirty two and every year hurts more than the last.. i have been on so many drugs from the Dr and none really help, but seem to f*uck up something else.. but i would say i wouldnt kill my self.. but i do look forward to death.. and if their is a grimm reaper I WILL KICK HIM IN THE BALLS AND ASK HIM WTF TOOK SO F*UCKING LONG?
the worst part of all of this is my wife sees me suffer everyday and now my daughter has it now and she is 10 years old.. and she asks me how do i deal with it.. so we discussed drugs and that i use good ol Mary Jane..
and she understands it but dont understand why it not legal.. thats ruff to explain when i dont know the real answer.

happy grow'n

Jennifer K
05-29-2006, 06:51 PM
Thought about and tried it once many years ago when I was in my teens. I know know I just did it for attention. My brother tried the car in the garage thing a few years ago. But he is ok now.

greenetn05
05-29-2006, 06:57 PM
i have thought of it and tried to cut my wrist but i guess i don't really want to die cause i have a 9 month old girl and another baby on the way that and i don't want to go to hell

HazardousToking
05-29-2006, 07:08 PM
Ive had a few close encounters, many a nights sittin around with cold steel pressed to my head and cocked back, seems like a great idea at one point or another, easy way out but I usually talk myself out of it like a pussy


Im my opinion there are no "attempted" suicides. Either ya fuckin kill yourself or ya dont. I got a buddy who took his dads shotty to school and blew his brains out in his car while sittin in the school parking lot. Id say 90% of the time the ones who commit suicide dont tell anyone about it, because they are the serious ones and they want to follow through with their plans....


If ya gotta do it, then do it, but just dont make a scene outta it. If thats the case, find a way to cause drama some other way....

mrdevious
05-29-2006, 08:08 PM
i have thought about it for years, only becose i have FMS / CFS since i was 7 years old now im thirty two and every year hurts more than the last.. i have been on so many drugs from the Dr and none really help, but seem to f*uck up something else.. but i would say i wouldnt kill my self.. but i do look forward to death.. and if their is a grimm reaper I WILL KICK HIM IN THE BALLS AND ASK HIM WTF TOOK SO F*UCKING LONG?
the worst part of all of this is my wife sees me suffer everyday and now my daughter has it now and she is 10 years old.. and she asks me how do i deal with it.. so we discussed drugs and that i use good ol Mary Jane..
and she understands it but dont understand why it not legal.. thats ruff to explain when i dont know the real answer.

happy grow'n

Hey man, just wondering what's FMS / CFS? I have no idea if I'm in more or less pain than you but I don't think it matters, chronic pain that never quits after years is fucking exhausting any way you look at it. I feel at least partly what you're going through, hope it somehow works out for you.

Its a Plant
05-29-2006, 08:16 PM
d say 90% of the time the ones who commit suicide dont tell anyone about it, because they are the serious ones and they want to follow through with their plans....

yah, that's how my dad was. Things were all fine and dandy and I never saw any signs of depression, then one day I hear from my stepmom that he tried to kill himself by leaving the car running in the garage. He wanted to do it quietly and just let his family move on with life, but God, if he did actually die, that would be far from the truth.

hubblebubble
05-29-2006, 08:56 PM
Living Mandatory Suicide!

king kong bong
05-29-2006, 09:22 PM
thought about it a few times but then i thought damn that shit would be too easy. there is no progress without struggle...

redneck1
05-29-2006, 09:41 PM
first off, to all the fucking retards that think suicide is not a big deal. pull your head out of your ass, you selfish little pricks! i am all to familiar with suicide, my mother shot herself in the head ten years ago. she did it the first time. there are only two types of people who want to commit suicide. there are the ones that really want to do it, and those that aren't completely committed to doing it. if someone truely wants to off themselves, they can do it right now, permanently with the first attempt. those that have tried to do it, but didn't succeed, really didn't want to. suicide is the most selfish act that any one person can take. the amount of grief and walking dead that are left behind is immeasureable. there isn't one person on this planet that hasn't thought about it at one time or another. that's just a natural thought process. doing it, is a whole different thing! if someone is truely so depressed that they want to die, talk to somebody, a friend, councilor, parent, anybody. just get some help! for those of you, that think spouting that shit out is romantic, dramatic or some kind of joke, shut the fuck up! good thing i just cropped out, because i need a big bowl right now!:mad:

cannabis campbell
05-29-2006, 10:10 PM
Lol ditto welcome to the boards red neck

gramzzilla420
05-29-2006, 10:11 PM
have thought of it at times but think how devastating it would be for my family... that cancels the idea

smokenthegoodstuff
05-30-2006, 04:34 AM
thought about it once. never did it ( duH im still here arent i?) i just didnt have the guts cuz i know how my family would feel if i was gone for good..

Breukelen advocaat
05-30-2006, 04:54 AM
first off, to all the fucking retards that think suicide is not a big deal. pull your head out of your ass, you selfish little pricks! i am all to familiar with suicide, my mother shot herself in the head ten years ago. she did it the first time. there are only two types of people who want to commit suicide. there are the ones that really want to do it, and those that aren't completely committed to doing it. if someone truely wants to off themselves, they can do it right now, permanently with the first attempt. those that have tried to do it, but didn't succeed, really didn't want to. suicide is the most selfish act that any one person can take. the amount of grief and walking dead that are left behind is immeasureable. there isn't one person on this planet that hasn't thought about it at one time or another. that's just a natural thought process. doing it, is a whole different thing! if someone is truely so depressed that they want to die, talk to somebody, a friend, councilor, parent, anybody. just get some help! for those of you, that think spouting that shit out is romantic, dramatic or some kind of joke, shut the fuck up! good thing i just cropped out, because i need a big bowl right now!:mad:

I'm sorry for your loss.

There is a point when the pain and suffering become too much for some people.

I never seriously considered suicide, but might have had I not obtained a (belated) diagnosis and workable solution to a medical condition that I was born with.

Many people commit "suicide" by eating the wrong foods, smoking tobacco, dangerous drugs (including alcohol abuse), not following correct medical advice, etc. These types of self-destructive behaviors may night be as dramatic, or fast, as shooting one's self, but they can, and often do, result in the same outcome, eventually.

Nobody should completly rule it out - unless they've experienced extreme suffering or sickness and decided against it.

How can healthy people, in their youth or otherwise, understand the implications of a devistating condition? They can't - so don't condemn those that cannot continue to exist with it.

beachguy in thongs
05-30-2006, 04:54 AM
No, not yet.

My dad tried to earlier this year, though he went about it the wrong way. Since you can't actually asphyxiate by running the car in the garage scheme, it didn't work and someone got to him in time. I actually didn't know that, and found out after it happened that all car companies install catalytic converters in mufflers to stop almost all the toxic CO2 from coming out the tailpipe. So anyone that wants to off themself, don't sit in the garage with the car running...you're wasting your time.

By a dirtbike. And start it in your shed.

They don't have them, also, do they?

paperlunatic
05-30-2006, 05:19 AM
i have cycling moods. manic-depressive disorder.(not depression)

but yes. i have concidered it. I always think of my mom right before im about to attempt suicide, and then start crying.
so basicaly.
im stuck here.
pretty lame huh?

minnesota man
05-30-2006, 06:54 AM
I know lots of people who have done it (6 at least). I have no remorse for them. They fulfilled their destiny and I doubt they want any pity. Once this dude shot himself the same night after we were hanging out at a bar. Was it something I said?

Jaymo
05-30-2006, 07:14 AM
I personally dont care whether I'm alive or dead but suicide is not an option :P.
If I live, I live. If I die, I die. In other words I am not afraid of death.

Reefer Rogue
05-30-2006, 08:34 AM
umm, no...

welshkillabee
05-30-2006, 09:38 AM
Never thought about taking my own life but im not scared of dying I dont wanna get old :stoned:

eat the roach
05-30-2006, 02:47 PM
Hey man, just wondering what's FMS / CFS? I have no idea if I'm in more or less pain than you but I don't think it matters, chronic pain that never quits after years is fucking exhausting any way you look at it. I feel at least partly what you're going through, hope it somehow works out for you.

high
it is cronic pain in all muscle / tendons..you know how sore you get when you work out to much and the next day you wake up feeling like a train wreck? stiff sore you cant think right becose your brain dont produce the right waves so you sleep normal...depression is common, but i wont take meds anymore they was pushing me to the breaking point.. man, there is so manythings that is affected by FMS now CFS is cronic fatigue (sp?) and what this does is affect you brain, make you tired and think cant remember things from randon points in time.. the first time that hit me was in '93 november first, i couldnt remember what happened to october!!! nothing!!
like it didnt happen.. since then i only loose a couple hours here and there, maybe a couple times a week..
but i must say my pain tollerence is unreal.. two years ago i had my hand slamed in a car door- and the door latched with my fingers still in it!!! but the angle they was stuck i would have broke them all if i reached for the handle so i * ** calmly asked my wife to open the door for me.. everyone thought it was a joke at first untill the door opened and saw my flat/red fingers.. dont get me wrong it still hurt but not as bad as my average pains.
well this is getting long and i dont want to bore others with my daily probs..

to sum it up: you have terminal pain without death neer by to set you free.
if i was to kill my self i would make a damn good statment and a really big mess hopefully with lots of news coverage..

toke up!

MaryJaneintheCloset
05-30-2006, 03:00 PM
I thought about it a few years back after a seriously traumatic event in my life... but I doubt I would ever have been able to actually go through with it.

orangeman
05-30-2006, 03:38 PM
Yeah, I used to think about it all the time before my thoughts were overclouded with being high and getting by, just another day :).

friendowl
05-30-2006, 03:40 PM
everyday i consider suicide
but there is so many fun things to do
that i just put it off

newbie1232
05-30-2006, 04:04 PM
Nope. But my friend slit his wrists once. He did it right in the middle of class, supposedly got blood everywhere. He had to go to some rehab clinic type place for a few months after that.

fikusroot
05-30-2006, 04:12 PM
http://www.thebestpageintheuniverse.net/c.cgi?u=manly_suicide
If you're interested in killing yourself, there are some great ideas here.

CrAzYpOtHeAd
05-30-2006, 07:09 PM
Life is like a movie. If you've already sat threw half of it and its been shit so far. The ending proberly won't make up to the promise. No one will blame you for walking out early.

Sucide is man's way of telling God "you can't fire me, i quit!"

and a ryme iv heard which goes something like "ill be ok ill be fine. Just let me slit my wrist one last time".

cannabis campbell
05-30-2006, 07:13 PM
Thats not one of slipknots lyrics is it CPH?

CrAzYpOtHeAd
05-30-2006, 07:17 PM
No. They're not even lyrics of any kind. What the fuck...

I wanna slit your throat and fuck the wound
I wanna push my face in and feel the swoon
I wanna dig inside, find a little bit of me
Cuz the line gets crossed when you dont come clean

They're lyrics.

Wesley Pipes
05-31-2006, 12:27 AM
few years ago i thought about, but never went through with it, what would be the point, it would just hurt those around me and i'm not gonna cause that kinda hurt to the ppl i care about, suicide is selfish, to think all troubles will end... yes they will...for the person involved, but what about the ppl still alive who care about u, your only causing them more hurt than anyone commiting suicide has ever experienced..

Don't take life too seriously, No-one gets out alive anyways :p

P.S. This post is not aimed at anyone :D

MaryJaneScott
05-31-2006, 01:14 AM
few years ago i thought about, but never went through with it, what would be the point, it would just hurt those around me and i'm not gonna cause that kinda hurt to the ppl i care about, suicide is selfish, to think all troubles will end... yes they will...for the person involved, but what about the ppl still alive who care about u, your only causing them more hurt than anyone commiting suicide has ever experienced..

Don't take life too seriously, No-one gets out alive anyways :p

P.S. This post is not aimed at anyone :D


you are like the moon, always shining,
whether clouds cover your light or not.

you are life.
and life is beautiful.

love.

Ganjasaurusrex
05-31-2006, 02:24 AM
4 friends.

Robbi Jackson 1980
Vince Setzer 1981
Bob "General" Lee 1988
Mao Tuiososopo 1994

These guys concealed their pain behind their smiles and positive personalities. Its those smiles and gifts of what they brought into this world and shared with others to which they will always be remembered.

They were all good human beings.

Thank you for reading their names.

lizzie on low
05-31-2006, 08:09 AM
I've tryed a few times... first time was a complete waste, I was 14 and didn't do any research, just swallowed an entire bottle of unisom. Puked blue. Not fun.

After that I tryed the bag method serveral times, but it would not work. I used alcohol, barbituates, and weed in increasingly large amounts but it wasn't enough to keep me from clawing holes in the bag when I began to asphyxiate.

My last and I believe final attempt came when I took the LD50 of ephedrine. I should have taken the whole damn bottle.

But now I have higher obligations. I hate it, knowing that the final escape is so close but I cannot touch it. God forbid, if my son ever passes away, I will join him quickly but for now, my life is his.

BabySnookums
05-31-2006, 08:29 AM
No, not yet.

My dad tried to earlier this year, though he went about it the wrong way. Since you can't actually asphyxiate by running the car in the garage scheme, it didn't work and someone got to him in time. I actually didn't know that, and found out after it happened that all car companies install catalytic converters in mufflers to stop almost all the toxic CO2 from coming out the tailpipe. So anyone that wants to off themself, don't sit in the garage with the car running...you're wasting your time.
that's why you cut the exhaust pipe off right where it comes off the engine, or if you wanna get maticulous, take it off the way it's designed to come off.

btw, slipknotpsycho again, just too lazy to log off wife's name and log on mine, but she's gonna get mad at me :mad:

3 Sheets To The Wind
05-31-2006, 10:28 AM
This is a weird subject, being afraid of death or not.
Late at night if I think about it, I'm like "I don't wanna die!" but then in the morning and throughout the day, death doesn't seem so scary at all, like I could just die for no reason whilst sitting here now, look back upon it as a ghost *ooo I'm gonna take your soooouuul!* and think nothing of it, it was all good. :)

SweetRedLips
05-31-2006, 10:38 AM
Had rough patch early this year and done few silly things but wierd thing is I didnt do it so I could die as Im afriad of death it was more to take pain away but made it worse .Anyway Im through it all now and learnt alot from it which has made me so much happier .Id never take that rd again .
Happy Now

Seeya

SweetRed

madteenmind
05-31-2006, 10:50 AM
tried to once last year.
took about 200 pills.
grew up with abuse most of my life so now i've got severe depression. :thumbsup:

420 FMX
05-31-2006, 11:05 AM
im at that crossroad in my life at this point... wish u could ask the ppl who have done it if its reallyworht it?

Esmada
05-31-2006, 11:24 AM
My ex used to beat the shit out of me and i cut my wrist to get away from him. I didn't care if I bleed to death or not. I just wanted to get away from him.Either by death or an abulance. But I'm not afraid of dying. It gives me peace inside. but i'd have to agree when it's said that when someone truly wants to kill themself they do it quiet. You don't even get a clue. a good friend of mine killed himself 1998. he found a secluded area and stuck the hoose of a wakumeclener from the exhaustpipe to the window. A couple found him the next day. i'll never forget that day. I was wisitting his step sister and the doorbell rang. When I opened the door a priest stood on the starcase asking if their parents where home. That's the creepiest and most disturbing moment in my life.

slipknotpsycho
05-31-2006, 11:34 AM
but i'd have to agree when it's said that when someone truly wants to kill themself they do it quiet. You don't even get a clue.
oh so true...

Breukelen advocaat
05-31-2006, 11:40 AM
They say that another sign is when a person that is normally very "down" seems to have changed his or her mood to a happy one. It could mean that they have resolved to do it, and are relieved.

cannabis campbell
05-31-2006, 11:59 AM
Had rough patch early this year and done few silly things but wierd thing is I didnt do it so I could die as Im afriad of death it was more to take pain away but made it worse .Anyway Im through it all now and learnt alot from it which has made me so much happier .Id never take that rd again .
Happy Now

Seeya

SweetRed

Paracetamol?

gromorebud
05-31-2006, 12:21 PM
im at that crossroad in my life at this point... wish u could ask the ppl who have done it if its reallyworht it?
why not ask the poor family members and m8s left behind if its worth all their pain and self blame?

eat the roach
05-31-2006, 02:22 PM
bunny suicides...
thought i would share

:D http://www.bookofbunnysuicides.com/

CrAzYpOtHeAd
05-31-2006, 02:22 PM
Pick me up
been bleeding too long
Right here, right now
I'll stop it some how

I will make it go away
can't be here no more
Seems this is the only way
I will soon be gone
these feelings will be gone
these feelings will be gone

Now I see the times they change
leaving doesn't seems so strange
I am hoping I can find
where to leave my hurt behind
All this shit I seem to take
all alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man?

Shut me off
I am ready,
Heart stops
I stand alone
Can't be on my own

I will make it go away
can't be here no more
Seems this is the only way
I will soon be gone
these feelings will be gone
these feelings will be gone

Now I see the times they change
leaving doesn't seems so strange
I am hoping I can find
where to leave my hurt behind
All this shit I seem to take
all alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man?

Am I going to leave this place?
What is it I'm running from?
is there nothing more to come? (am I Gunna leave this place?)
Is it always black in space?
Am I going to take it's place?
Am I going to leave this race? (Am I going to leave this race?)
I guess god's up in this place?
what is it that I've become?
is there something more to come? (more to come)

Now I see the times they change
leaving doesn't seems so strange
I am hoping I can find
where to leave my hurt behind
All this shit I seem to take
all alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man?

Wow, koRn sure are depressin bastards LOL

Im sorry some of you have gone threw so much. I guess im lucky because very bad things happen to people all over the world and it happens to to many people and some of us don't even realise it :(

Big Calhoun
05-31-2006, 02:50 PM
I thought about it once when I was younger. I had moved from Alabama and had a horrible time adjusting. Just couldn't get along with anyone. Things were messed up at home too and I just thought my life was fucked. The thought would enter my mind occasionally but I never entertained it or plotted out how to do it. Ultimately I learned that all the people that gave me grief didn't matter in my life and there is nothing in this world that can happen that can't be overcome somehow.

imagoober
05-31-2006, 02:56 PM
ive gave it three attempts....one time i tried smoking 2 pot cigarettes at the same time....didnt work...just fell asleep......on a other try, tried holding my breath....didnt work ...just a headache.....and i tried to choke myself with my bare hands...didnt work either......i tapped out
LMAO:D i have never tried it but i fully support it! its your life and your choice!

cannabis campbell
05-31-2006, 03:40 PM
tried to once last year.
took about 200 pills.
grew up with abuse most of my life so now i've got severe depression. :thumbsup:

200 pills? ..... sure :)

Tom Swierzbinski
06-01-2006, 05:07 AM
Once I shot myself with my .22 air rifle. Docs said I only survived because the pellet ricoched off a tooth. Was I hoping to kill myself? Yes.
Would I do it again? If I felt as bad as that again, yes. Although, there are also other factors that would determine if I did it. No Im not talking about family, girlfriends, friends etc. Im too damn selfish to give a shit about all of them when Im feeling depressed.

JunkYard
06-01-2006, 07:00 AM
Yup, many times, but I've grown beyond doing something so selfish....

Kryzco
06-01-2006, 08:12 AM
I used to have a huge cutting problem, I have had thoughts but never did it because I care too much about my dad, and he's all I got left

I agree it is a selfish decision

I'm still depressed as fuck, but I hide it well

madteenmind
06-01-2006, 08:37 AM
200 pills? ..... sure :)

ya.. i took it in liquid form so it'd hit me faster & have a stronger toxicity level. it wasn't just one type of medication but several. so pills of different shapes, sizes, & color. i sat thinking for awhile before i drank it all. i came to a conclusion that this day is as good as any. a year from then, i've found out explainations but no answers to end depression. life's tough but who said it was gonna be easy, right? art & cannabis keeps me going :rasta:

fikusroot
06-13-2006, 01:03 AM
I'm just going to go out and say it. Suicide is for pussies. Now there are a few exceptions but killing yourself because nobody likes you or your jobs going bad or someone you know dies is being a pussy and it's being selfish. If you dont like your life than grow some balls and change it, dont end it.

thouragood jankins
06-13-2006, 01:45 AM
i've pointed a unloaded pistol to my head, closest i casme, i was depressed and shit

Stellar
06-13-2006, 02:41 AM
I've seen and I can imagine some prety bad end-of-the-rope shit, so I can't even say you'd have to be a pussy to want to do it. I just found it a little too convenient for myself. It was a pretty real thought in my head for a bit when I pretty much figured I was living for no great and meaningfull reason, though. I was just a pile of cells walking down a street. Why delay the inevitable, eh? Fucken work for the man and if I don't like it I can move somewhere else and work for their man and even after my legs break, they'll still say i owe them money for some shit right? Then I get to sit around and get drunk all day, wow, life is so usefull... I dunno... I used to think like that... some stuff happened and I really don't notice those thoughts anymore. I get all sad and pissed for other reasons now. Dunno... Its kinda murdering yourself because you don't want o be yourself anymore or something. Still dunno... Seems like most people I see or know that talk about suicide just want everything to stop, even themselves. I can get very sad at times, but I don't want it to stop. I have a life and I might as well live it while I have the time to. I don't want to stop existing because I am sad. At least being sad is being something. I'm more afraid of not being able to think than I am of the capacity to think myself into being sad. I can always manage to find something silver to all of it. I have to look very hard and sometimes for days, but I do find it. I dunno... I don't take much comfort in being sad and I try to fix it... and I sure as hell don't get sad because of other people in my life making their own decisions and all the other shit people think they need to blame themselves for... Whatever... Suicide is gay... Maybe not a pussy's way out, but for sure the fucking nimrod's, imo.

If you're too stupid to stop being sad or do something with yourself that makes you happy, then maybe you just don't know any better. Its not a cuddly answer, but its how I really feel about the whole scene.

Either way, too bad you can't ask someone that's already done it if it was worth it gets my vote.

Its a Plant
06-13-2006, 03:12 AM
This thread is a very good read.

From my point of view, I think that anyone who has taken their own life misses something from the world. Whether it's the grass, the way it smells right after it starts raining, or how leather feels, it's something. To say that nothing will be missed is a lie. The world is full of so many amazing things that I could never take myself out of such a place when there is so much left to see and experience. And those experiences, I think, are also what people miss. I mean, come on, remember all those concerts you and your buddies went to, front row and moshing with so much excitement surrounding you? Or the day your child was born (if you have one that is). I think that even the slightest possibility of moments like that happening is reason enough to live every single day I have in me. Suicide is cheating yourself from what the world has to offer.

thcbongman
06-13-2006, 03:23 AM
Your thoughts are similar to a poem I wrote. This is what I do everytime I feel depressed, and have suicide thoughts, I escape to nature.

Natural Escape

Observe the beauty around your eyes

Digest the sounds and the natural high

Reflections of nature's mirror

Gauging your soul by the river

The trees, the greenery, the liberation

Escaping the modern distraction

Computers, cell phones, electronics

disconnection, and political phonics

hatred, racism, and soul decay

humanity slowly being lead astray

Escape your materials for a moment

To see the world still has charm.